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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

我们的歌 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:28 AM 0 comments
感觉很奇怪,
不知道是什么导致我有这种感觉

整个假期,
可能过于无聊,
整天胡思乱想
整个头脑乱七八糟的
越想越高兴还不要紧,
问题是越想越恐怖

听着家人一直围绕着的课题,
虽然暂时不关我的事,
但过不久就会到我走到那种窘境
奇怪,我到底在想什么?

父母问哥哥的问题,
倘若得不到一个答案,
每次就反过来问我,
又是那些很讨厌的问题。

每次说不知道,
又说我每次都讲什么都不知道,
讨厌,要讲也先讲那个灾难当头的人
不要每次都扯到我这里

然后,
不要一直以为,
我很想读烦死人的理科
如果我知道我的理想是没有与理科有关联的
我也不会无聊地折磨自己

我不想管,
因为我下一个目标不是那些,
那些是下下目标,
船到桥头自然直,
所以去问那个人,不要问我

讲了这么多,
那些讨厌的问题就是
“ 你以后要读什么?”
“ 你以后要做什么? ”
“ 你到底要去哪里升学? ”

不要问我好不好?
如果我知道答案,
我早就说了我伟大的计划
就不用再这里埋怨

就算问 多少次,
倘若我还是没有想过这种问题,
结果还是一样--- 白问
所以不要问!

不讲了,
越讲越生气,
而且还有要跌到的感觉 -.-
奇怪,很奇怪!
再见!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Waiting Outside The Line ;)

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:20 PM 0 comments
Hello!
Had an unusual Saturday (:

Received postcards from Yushu they all
Postcard from Taiwan (:
Like the little girl taking balloon they drawn
Very very cute, heeeee ;)

The green green background,
with a girl sitting on the log (:
Meaningful quote on it :
好好爱自己是寻找幸福的第一步 ;)

Well,
That background reminded me of the wonderful walk
At the lost world of Tambun last month (:
That was when I walked around alone,
Looking at trees, people and the surrounding
Sitting on a fake log made bridge,
Talking to friends whom swam by (:
I like that very much and hope to do it again ;)

Did not attend tuition and music class as usual d:
Instead I went to an awesome event,
" The Poetic Raphsody " (:

Well,
I can say that was truly awesome (:
At least they had bring out most of the message through their movements
which means that it was a success one.

Got shouted by my friends d:
Fine, I'm regretted to ditch that opportunity for the sake of finals
But when I thought if I ditch finals for that
I will have blame myself for don know how long
So, what is done is done d:

Then, I am thinking how wonderful it will be
when all the blood sucker extinct (:
Well, I hope this day will come as soon as possible
Go away from me, blood sucker!

Next thing,
From now onwards,
I will never ever think that steam will not harm
Cause it does harm dreadfully :(

Skip that d:
Hello to these cute little thing (:
As you can see,
Blog layout was changed yesterday (:
Say " aloha " to the cute little snowman and snowflakes, hehe

Before I end, hmmm
Bridge of light by Pink is nice
A Thousand Years by Christina Perri is awesome too (:
Try it out!

Tata with lots of smile (:

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

tiny miny loves (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:35 PM 0 comments
ni hao (:
Not an energetic day d:

Got woke up so suddenly in the early morning
I knew it wasn't schooling days,
But first question : why so early?

Yes, why?
It is the same timing when i got up late during the schooling days
And I hate that,
cause it always scare me like monsters :/

Fine, skip that (:
Went out in the early morning,
Stuck in the car due to the heavy traffic,
Eyelids are heavy enough
But I am not going to take a nap d:

Another thing,
I don't get why you found me,
and talk about things that are unimportant -.-
I am not going to ignore you,
But stop talking about those stuff.

I am not a nerd,
I read storybooks instead of tons of reference books,
I don't care what is with the averages and positions
Idon'tcareaslongasiamsastisfiedwithmyself !
So, say goodbye to them, now (:

Finished 2 books of the series of unfortunate events :D
Now i know why mummy ask why i borrowed such books d:
Those fellows were really unfortunate, hmmm :/
But there's the ending which might signifies the end of the misfortune :)

Then finally found out the chords :D
lalalalalala, yay !
aiming for the next songs, heeee
at least I'm not stuck with that few exam songs again ;)

bubu , just came back from outside d:
Means i got things to say again. heee
That promoter give me ate honey star & coco crunch :D
Super nice cause like super long din eat ad d:

Mummy said she doesn't want to buy something,
I asked why and she said cause is from china,
she turned around and chose another thing,
I asked her what is the difference between china and beijing? d;
No answer but laughter, heee ;)

dido says bai bai (:

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Flower's love (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:51 PM 0 comments
delala (:
This will really be a long long holiday
Cause it's bored, very very bored
But if it's not bored,
This holiday will be an extremely short one d:

Well,
Last music class was like i don know what :/
I never expect that sudden small test
cause i never prepared for it,
never in a million years (:

I failed you again (:
Proudly i can say, cause it's AGAIN.
I just like motif more than impro,
Cause i can play whatever i like for motif
Unlike you, restricting what i can play, hmph !

Teacher have been telling me a few times
the story of a music student.
Well, i have got no comment to that,
But for me it says that yamaha have to lower their passing marks (:

I know those stuff are useful,
But don't expect too much from us students (:
Of course we will try hard to strive for excellence,
But not all of us will have so much of creativity to please the examiners
So if any of the administration people can see this, do something d:
* I doubt they won't ever see this ;) *

Mummy keep asking me whether to continue or not
Fine, I don't know :/
With the presence of music,
I will like it if go for classes isn't for that useless exam
But as you say if I learn things without any certs,
Is nothing for the others :/
But without the presence of it,
I will find something missing,
I mean I won't get use to it or even got lifeless
By any means, I don't know (:

Skip that,
The other thing is that i need to ditch my blurness (:
If not i will kept scaring myself
with some super unimportant reasons
hehe (:

Time for happy things, heee ;)
Went to library just now,
Although there is fully filled with children type of books,
But i still managed to found the full amount :D
And now I have got many books to munch till the year end now :D


Read many of 几米 books (:
Interesting in inspiring <3
I can just remembered some of it,

人一定会有不堪的时候,
让人知道,也不怎么样 (:


人不是鱼,怎会了解鱼的忧愁
鱼不是鸟,怎会了解鸟的快乐
鸟不是人,怎会了解人的荒唐
人不是鸟,怎会了解鸟的自由
鸟不是鱼,怎会了解鱼的深沉
鱼不是人,怎会了解鱼的幼稚 
你不是我,怎会了解我

Can't remember the horoscope one,
But found it on website , heee (:

双子座
“一样的眼睛又不一样的看法。
  一样的耳朵有比一样的听法。
  一样的嘴巴有不一样的说法。
  一样的心有不一样的想法。
  是不是因为这样,一样的人生才有不一样的哀愁。”
身边的朋友们都有着不一样的烦恼,可是每次大家都在自言自语,我们似乎已经听不懂也不愿意去倾听对方的抱怨了,只剩下厌烦与焦躁

巨蟹座
“ 总在快乐的时候, 感到微微的惶恐。 
   在开怀大笑时,流下感动的泪水。
   我无法相信单纯的幸福。
   对人生的欺负悲喜,既坦然又不安。" 
这个世界变化得太快,握在手中的就一定会是我的吗?不安不安,还是不安。我需要你的怀抱,哪怕只是一小会,那也是真真实实的温暖。

天秤座
“ 窗外放晴了,屋内仍继续下雨。
  我微笑,并不等于我快乐。
  我撑伞,并非只是为了避雨。
  你永远都不懂我在想什么。
  我想拥抱每个人,但我得先温暖我自己,请容忍我。
  因为我已在练习容忍你。”
每天都在不厌其烦的维持着自己优雅的风度吗?面对讨厌的人,你天天练习微笑;面对讨厌的事情,你从来都是当仁不让地接受

天蝎座
“ 摘不到的星星,总是最闪亮的。
   溜掉的小鱼,总是最美丽的。
   错过的电影,总是最好看的。
   失去的情人, 总是最懂我的。
   我始终不明白,这究竟是什么道理。”
不要总把喜欢的东西带回家,你的家放不下,你的心也装不下。就让他们待在原来的地方好了,想起他们的时候,我们一起回忆吧

tata (:

Thursday, November 17, 2011

The Princess Diaries (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 3:57 PM 0 comments
It's Thursday,
I'm still counting on my fingers (:
When can I not have these home alone day?

Everyday woke up with an empty house,
Silent is all i know :/
I can't be facing scores everyday,
facing these non-living gadgets
really drive me crazy!

Nowadays,
I like night time more (:
Cause at least there are people with me,
I can talk to any of them ;)

Unlike during the days,
I just felt like a woodstick
Dull and going to die of boredom
So night time for the win (:,

The weather isn't good either
It's fine,
But I really can't stand the drastic changes everyday -.-
Got headache in the day, almost shivering at night
This is just not balance at all :S

Currently reading story books through internet again d:
I want to read the real book, not these fake ones
I knew is not good to sit here long for story books,
But boredom wins over d:

38 days more to Christmas :D
nothing planned on that day though,
But I'm going to turn bloggie Christamas (:
I have got 4 options,
But I don't know which to choose d:
Option 1 (:
Option 2 ;)
Option 3 :D
Option 4 ^ ^
Give me a helping hand , thank you!

Just sent chickles and few of them to bath :D
I asked whether can i put teddy in,
But then i got back an empty glance from mummy
which means a no :/
How should i bath teddy?

And then,
I was thinking bout giving names to that few little fellow, heee
I can't think of any cute names for them *sigh*
I need inspiration ;)

Got to go to school tmrw (:
At least tmrw will not be so boring , I think
And now i always hope Friday and weekend come as soon as possible
Because there is something keep me busy
Make me feel not lifeless at all :D

bai bai (:

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Sweet Serendipity (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 3:48 PM 0 comments
14.11.11
a5 gathering & birthday celebration (:

It might be the last birthday to be celebrate with friends
during the high school life :")
Next year I'm going to celebrate with books, hehe

For now,
I keep have a kind of fear
thinking what life would be like after graduation
In a new stage of life,
what things would happen?

Well,
back to yesterday (:

I'm really glad to celebrate birthday together with another birthday boy (:
When I was still a child, I often hope i can find one
cause I think it will be fun to double the happiness
And indeed it is a yes (:

Hope you have a blast (:
Always remember that there is a bunch of friends that will remember your day!

Being late for gathering d:
Super duper sorry :/
I'm kind of shocked to see so many of you there,
I'm really glad :D

Thanks for the celebration
As for the cake,
You guys make me felt really bashful :O
But still I really appreciated (:

I knew i didn't know how to use that knife to cut the cake,
Is not the right knife to use ,
I was like sawing the cake instead of cutting it d:

Thumbs up for Lian Jiet for organizing this (:
you looked tired and quiet yesterday,
ehehe, smile (:

Thank you Hsien Loong for providing me transport
Helping me to finish tat cheesy spaghetti and cake d:
Note that, I have grew up
And I'm not a kid anymore d:

Hello doggy!
You will get ur name soon ;) heee
Congrats pei for being the first one d:
You are even being the first one for early wishes, hee
I knew i trouble you much taking you as an emotion storage
But I'm super duper appreciated for you as my friend (:
Thank you for the doggy and the blog post ;)

Thank you Michelle for the blog post (:
As what you said in that post,
I can see that friendship often comes without us knowing ;)
I'll treasure it <3
Then, next time don't wear high heels, heee
And I still want to play that thing d:

Thank you to Rach (:
Talking craps with me in class,
Helping me and being a messenger for me & Kai Song (:
And also for the little doggy to scare of cats d:

Actually I want to thank everyone present d:
So, a very very very big thank you to them (:


Apart from them (:
Thank  you daddy, hehe
I got shock to see that picture message d:
I knew you must had wasted a lot of time just to send me that ;)

And thank you to my dears,
Giving me the card full of wishes ;)
I really really did have fun with you people ;)

After that few hours spending time with a5-ians
kind of blame myself for going there not for the purpose as stated , hehe
I always though that gathering will have many many silence occurred,
I am fear of that, but yesterday event proved I'm wrong
I promise not to have this kind of thinking anymore (:

Really had a great day yesterday,
although being woke by mummy in the early morning
I really got super hyper playing the circling thing with may xian & michelle ;)
I want to play again!
fall down also nevermind,  heh d:


With loves and gratitude ,
My life is colourful because of friends ;)
May the bonds get stronger :)
Tata ~

Monday, November 14, 2011

Time is being a friend stealer (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:59 PM 0 comments
Dumbo (:
I'm here again ,heee

Well, went gathering yesterday
It was awesome much,
Although i just kept quiet all the time 
I am really in the wrong channel with them
Everything they talked about their school 
is like a what and then another what 

As what he said,
I have changed quite a lot,
not physically , but mentally (:
But I can say that I am not shy as what you said
I just learned to keep myself quiet
after all those disastrous incident

I might be weird,
I might be too different from the old me,
But please accept for who I am now,
and bear with it (:

Going for a5 gathering tonight, heee
Not really very excited or have special feeling for it,
cause i am just too scare for all the silence that might be occur
And I know mummy is worried :/

Sorry mummy ,
I knew that incident that happened have a total impact to you,
But like what I have explained,
I got important stuff to do
Thank you for understanding (:
I promise I will be back safely, no worries ;)

Still got some other stuff,
I think it is better to leave it for next post , heee (:
Got to comply my promise to mummy
ciao for music and homework (:

Friday, November 11, 2011

One wants one's one wander wand (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 3:35 PM 0 comments
Hello!
11.11.11 , a great date (:

Well, last day of school
last day of my form 4's life (:
Although i have been not liking my class since the beginning
still I have spent one year with all of them

Sometimes, we really need to accept what we were given (:
Although I still miss my old classmates,
I still miss a5 more,
But still I have to accept the fact to have them as my classmates

I really got a weird morning today,
First is waking up 2 hours before the actual time
and cleaning up myself 
But at least I still manage to find out
And went back to sleep again d:

Then was thinking weird stuff
Did not even listen properly what people said,
And was bad enough to simply reply people questions
heee, sorry d:

Then using up my time in school
by doing lots of sudoku again (:
I mean i used to not playing it,
But I'm really too bored , heee

And I got my cert,
with an additional " h " -.-
I like the colour of the cert, colourful enough, heee
Got to get my allowance, ye bonus and that government thingy next year (:

Recently, I'm kind of have a mixed feeling,
I don't know why
Sometimes i feel like smiling or even shed tears -.-
Is just too random to do all these kind of things,
So uhm skip this (:

I supposed they are watching the movie right now (:
Didn't get to join them ):
well, i am just going to rot at home,
if mummy plan is going to fail again -.-

Then, farewell for Pn Joyce yesterday (:
My first impression of her is by my gor gor
Indeed it wasn't that well,
But undeniable she is really good (:

I appreciated her,
Helping me out,
Having faith in me,
Helping me to deal with the hard times,
Understanding my situations,
and yes giving me all kinds of opportunities (:

Working with her is indeed wonderful,
She wasn't being tricky,
indeed very nice to work with(:
All the best again,
and thank you for everything (:

And uhm, i got suprise (:
Thank you for the card, the early wishes and present!
* and thank you nuffnang too d: *
And I'm not going to see them now, few more days d:

I knew you guys is going to be miles away from me,
I hope mummy will take me as a teenager next time :")
Have fun in Taiwan my dears!
Remember to take many photos and I'll miss you guys (:

Bringing up to the issue of child ( Y )
Seriously, I don't look like a child 
Why are mummy colleagues asking me am I a primary student again?
And why are waiters asking me do I need a kid meal -.-
Hello people, I'm going to be officialy 16
Not a kid at all, so yeah (:

Holidays is here,
List to be fulfilled is here too (:
1. Read many many storybooks (:
2. Give chickles and teddy a bath
3. Solve all my problems on homeworks
4. Go outing ;)
5. Have a family trip. heee
6. Deal with impro and motif d:
7. Have fun, hehe
I'm not greedy,
Just a few here first, heh (:

Wishes for this great day :
Great day for everyday (:

Tata with lots of love (:
Happy Holidays!
* remember to look at the awesome title d: *


Monday, November 7, 2011

笑话

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 1:05 PM 0 comments
不喜欢这种感觉
沉默的感觉

我知道我不喜欢讲话
可是我也有讲话的时候
不要一直对我沉默不语
很讨厌!

不讲了,
生气你了 :S

Sunday, November 6, 2011

You've Got A Friend In Me (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:54 PM 0 comments
Peekabooo ;)
What a week i had, heh

Being in a mood typhoon
happy and moody mood interchange all the time
Yes, imma person who is low in EQ ;)
Still learning to improve on that, heheee

So uhm,
graduation day for the form 5s'
I do get touched deep in my heart when they sang songs
I got more of it when they sang for pn sim's retirement :")

The atmosphere around is like a happy one at first
But then when they started all the singing,
it went like so sad cause they will rarely see each other again,
the memories in high school will always be in their heart
and after the exams, the new page of life will start immediately :)

One more year in school (:
will I be able to load as much of good memories as I can?
I hope I can, and we'll see that ;)

I did see people posting on 2 of my juniors' wall
Touched enough to see that,
at least just in 2 years,
they have managed to build a friendship
like a sea that will never shattered, like a mirror that will never break (:

Well,
I just got some annoying symptoms that
Those VSOP is totally stuck in my head d:
I mean is a good thing, but too weird d:

Owh ya,
The cute little boy boy in the Popular (:
You're too cute that you distracted me from reading my books
You aren't disturbing me like ur mummy said,
your smile and laughter made my day ;)

I went for books again, heh
To be honest i felt so bad to see form 4 reference book in malay :/
That is a total disaster also to see form 5 ones published in bilingual
I could say that, I'm way too lucky to escape from that (:

Happy enough to finished 2 books
while my family went to walk around the mall (:
And I did learnt that,
Never gave up on myself,
So I will try to change my opinion towards me myself
Although I'm still disappointed, heee

To be honest, I'm regretting now :/
Why did I do that decision?
And is even for that disastrous finals.
Whatever it is, I'm going to find things to do
make my holiday a more meaningful one (:

My best friend's girl (:
Tata for now!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Candilliant

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:31 PM 0 comments
The truth is
I thought i have enough psychophysiology preparation
But I didn't (:

Every look, every words
seems to be a sword to me.

I have not enough bravery to pick all these stuff
too heavy for me.
Indeed, if i pick them up,
I would broke into pieces.

I did feel like screaming
on a gazing field where no one knows me
I feel like tear them into pieces,
and throw it in to the bin.
But even though i did that,
It will still be a scar

I don't know how to say,
But i just felt like there is a "ghost " 
yes, it does sound childish,
but this is what i feel 

I'm sorry i broke the promise
I promise i wouldn't take that hard,
But I failed.

I hope i could go back to the old times
where i was always free from that ghostly feeling
and when I'm still a person who talk much

Today isn't a good day,
ever since in the very early morning.
I'm just not having awesome day in this awesome month
cause I failed
in almost everything or even everything

And yes you,
stop saying something that can make yourself laugh
And make me looking at you weirdly 
hardly understand why would you say such things -.-

May the awesome month stay awesome
And don't ruin my day

cause' the people who care too much always lose in the end - bubu -
ciao~

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

You're the Apple of My Eye (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 3:59 PM 0 comments
No matter how many smiley i still need to spam on that paper
No matter how many times i need to calm myself down
I should stop doing that (:

Yes, it was much disappointed
Just like last time, maybe even worse
For me,
It isn't just disappointed myself,
but disappointed her :/

I'm sorry for that
But I need to rearrange everything in my brain (:

One more to go,
I hope it wouldn't be like this one (:
And yes, tomorrow is a good day!

不可以做皮皮(: - 鹅蛋 -

Rflamingo :D

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:00 AM 0 comments
November november!
Awesome month ;)

Happy Birthday to Kai Song :D
You were born on the first day of the awesome month, heh!


The photo i asked you to take with me ;")
Cause at that time, I really scare that when you left
I couldn't get to have a photo with you d:

I really missed the moment with you 
Teasing and made fun of each other
Although sometimes you really annoyed me
But still i missed you :")

Thank you bringing me fun during the old times
Although we quarrelled sometimes
but still memories ;)

I still remembered what you post on my wall:
Life's short, so dun be so emotional and traumatic. OK? :) Just accept whatever it is, and I guess it's already pretty good. 


Sometimes, you are similar to me- aiming for the best, but in some occasions, I just can't seem to reach my target, and I have to learn how to go along with what life has thrown to me. It might be hard to stay positive in a wind-whirl, but always believe that there will be a rainbow later :) Believe in yourself and I believe that you will score well in your exam :)


Undeniable,
I still can't get rid of my problem d:
And maybe you still face this problem too 
Typical rppl (:

Seriously,
I didn't know that rach updated you bout that 
I mean I don't even know that she noticed that d:
But still thank you for that piece of advice (:

All the best to you (:
Good luck in your tmrw exam
And don't get too tall d: