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Sunday, September 30, 2012

玉兔

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:42 PM 0 comments


八月圆圆是中秋,
月亮圆圆天上挂,
月饼圆圆桌上摆,
杯子圆圆盛茶香,
灯笼圆圆放光芒,
饭桌圆圆人团圆,
万事圆圆又满满,
中秋节快乐!

中秋节,
不一定要有茶香,月饼,菱角和柚子,
只要有一家人的感觉,
开心就好 (:

Saturday, September 29, 2012

会过去的 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:21 PM 0 comments
这种感觉,
真的很好(:

不知道外面的世界发生了什么大战,
不理会到底谁是赢家,
也不晓得任何人做了什么事,
惊喜仿佛就会无所不在 :D

终于冷静下来,
慢慢地思考,
不再继续地折磨自己,
也认为自己想通了,
是否真真的想通了,
我自己也不晓得

我只想在剩余的校园生活里,
与真正的朋友一起划上美好的句点,
披着狼皮的非生物,
我也不想掀开,
眼不见为尽 (:

至于如何去面对,
该以什么身份继续沟通,
是友,还是个陌生人,
一切随缘(:

像个玻璃,
只要小心地处理 ,
一定可以完美无缺,
但只要一不小心,
就会有缺口,
或者支离破碎
所以请小心轻放 (:

感谢你,
让我知道何谓朋友,
朋友从不问你飞得高不高,
只问你飞的累不累 :")

感谢你,
让我看清身旁的人,
更加珍惜关心我的人,
因为他们就是世界上另一个我。

知我者谓我心忧,
不知我者谓我何求
众里寻她千百度,
蓦然回首,
那人却在灯火阑珊处

我由衷感谢
佩,裕,宁
最美的风景,
最璀璨的烟火(:

坐在我旁那可爱,开朗的小姐,
谢谢你对我的理解,
对我的支持及关怀,我感激不尽
也真的好对不起,
我让你也哭红了眼。

那个把我炸得粉身碎骨的“损友”
你的。。。在当时对我来说是个无声的支持
我就像个疯子一直把火药抛向你,
你也像个疯子把冰块抛给我,
跟你说废话好像成了我的空气,
说了心情也会好点,
好吧,就给你个(Y)x)

还有谢谢,
我心中永远的那盏明灯,
虽然我不善于告诉你发生的一切,
我怕你担心,怕你因为我的幼稚而痛骂我,
但我会学习,一定会

好吧,
就让我继续消失在那复杂的地带,
我想在自己的世界继续旅行,
做自己想做的事,
还有继续做个不择不扣的,鸵鸟

Friday, September 28, 2012

山谷 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 7:06 PM 1 comments
我真的很想与世隔绝,
厌倦了人的虚伪,
对自私自利的行为已经憎恨到极点。
到底谁才是真正能够被信任的人?

不知道自己做得对不对,
但是那是我认为理智的做法,
我不明白我到底错在哪,
我这叫自私吗?

都快毕业了,
为什么就因为好胜,
就因为那区区的一张废纸,
要让彼此产生隔膜,
要在这白纸张洒上一滩墨水?

我不能停止哭泣,
我觉得好冤枉,
也觉得好可悲,
我觉得自己就好像个千古罪人,
像个过街老鼠

我是一个友情毫无自信心的人,
我没有任何的安全感,
我就好像赤裸裸地站在路中,
继续地被日晒雨淋
我建立不会曾经属于我的信心,
我做不到。

有人说过,
我是个很有利用价值的人,
可是那并不代表我是个宝丽龙,
我有利用价值,
那朋友之间的友谊就不如那张废纸的价值吗?

我已经被无形中贬得一文不值,
已经被那隐性刀乱俑了几百刀,
被杯葛了整整一天半,
我已经不知道要怎么在班上继续地待下去 ,
不能在以正常的心情和心态去面对每一个他。

不是每一句的对不起,
都能换来一句没关系,
不是哀求就能换来原谅,
并非我心胸狭隘,
只是我真的很失望,
失望至自己也被严重打击,
我对朋友这个词,
有着反感及恐惧。

破碎了的东西,
就算将他拼会原貌,
也始终会有缺陷,
会有被打碎的痕迹,
友情亦是如此

无可否认,在这两年里
你们俩是我在班上较好的朋友,
一起讨论功课,互相解闷,
这一次的结果会如何,
我自己也料想不到,
因为我真的好乱,好烦

读着那封direct message,
我崩溃了,
我彻底的崩溃了,
我不知道要如何回复,
更不知道自己该修复或放弃。

我终于忍心让自己哭,
在眼眶的泪水,
涌出了,
让他们放肆地打滚,
闭上双眼做在楼梯上,
我告诉自己不要再想了。

昨天的我,
告诉自己无需去惋惜这段友情,
因为它不真实,就像个没有灵魂的空壳,
我甚至下了决心不再想尽办法,
去尽身为班上一分子的责任,去classtrip

告诉自己要硬下心肠,
不要在想了,
但为什么我做不到,
我不解,也不想理解,
因为这世界很复杂

不知道自己该如何找理由,
离开班上,在校园溜达,
所有的东西或许都不重要了,
或许我该做的是做个自私的人。

我已经变得语无伦次,
不能在这种境况下,
做出任何决定,
因为一切的决定都不会理智

我需要一盏 明灯,
为我照亮前方,
我需要一个能让我信任的人,
为我分析这个我认为是个悲剧的悲剧。
Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 2:50 PM 0 comments

I am out of this foolish game,
hypocritical game which is full of nonsense,
really disappointed,
shame on the both of you (:

(:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 2:39 PM 0 comments
I met him 17 years ago,
i bet when i was busying crying,
he was busying smiling at me (:

doesn't like things like ultraman or whatever man
when he was small,
watching all the cute cute stuff with me,
except dexter's laboratory is not my cartoon d:

used to be a big bully,
most significant ones are the rubber band and stamp pad thing
i mean now he is still one,
but am smart enough not to bluff by him x)

played all the kiddo games, heh (:
i remembered am always the waiter,
cause i hated just sitting there being a dumb dumb d:
and lots of stuff which i can't list them out

being normal enough to have rows most of the time d:
hiding each other stuff when we got angry, hmmm
not being that childish anymore,
we just kept silent until we really have to talk d:

well,
i admit that you are good and bad sometimes,
but can you just lower down your voice and slow down a little
when you are teaching me those maths? (:
am a slow learner and don't blame me for angry with u d:

nowadays,
i didn't know why that you are not that sensible like how u used to be ):
things u did just don't make sense,
and we can't agree on some of the things u did,
so uhm i hope you'll be back :D

i knew that am not going to be your first priority anymore,
friends are more important to you i guess,
maybe i should also learn to be more tolerant with things like that,
i can't be forever thinking that how i think things should be (:

but still thank you for keeping me accompanied for all these years,
teaching me maths eventhough you got exam on the next day,
bearing with my temper until i really made you real angry,
and being a brother of mine (:

is weird to thank and praise u d:
so just remember that i'll keep everything
either good or bad in both my heart and memory d:

Happy awesome 19th (:
wish you all the best in your studies and ahemmm d:
i know you wouldn't see this,
but still remember to treat me better and stop playing tricks on me x)



ahahahaha, 
you looks funny here d: 
and somehow looks like that monk behind, lalala
i knew this is a photo taken n years ago,
but i think this is the latest one already,
so hehe

Happy Birthday(:

from your super good sister x)

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 3:13 PM 0 comments

原来一张纸可以衡量那么多的东西,真的看错了。就是那么有利用价值,也那么没有价值。为何要让良性竞争变得那么地可悲,又为何要如此地践踏这纯净之地?

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Magnified (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:03 PM 0 comments

It's always better to keep your mind busy (:
never let it be free and spare.
and it's also better to find a minimum point on your face,
never allow a maximum point to appear (:

by the awesome rubbish bin (:

Sunday, September 23, 2012

蒲公英的旅程 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:11 AM 0 comments
是时候学习,
学习如何控制自己 (:

或许该找一个人,
来管制自己。

像只狂奔的野马,
难以驯服.

或许这一次的冲动,
值得我去深思,想一想前因后果

为了一棵树放弃整个树林,
真的好不值,
所以凡是三思而后行 (:

就好像用果实换来的蘑菇,
走得越长的路,
学习到的更多,
体会到更多不一样的东西 (:

还有很多很多,
等着我去学习,
体验对于错,
才能在这旅途中继续加油 (:

Friday, September 21, 2012

Gone

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:53 PM 0 comments

Depreciated
Finagled.

End of story.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

尘埃

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:01 PM 0 comments
只想告诉你,
你,没有资格给予评论,
完全没有 (:

那是你对他的不满,
不要连我也扯下纠纷,
不要一有色眼镜看待事情,
请你对事不对人 (:

问心无愧,
有麝自然香,
我无须靠关系来证明自己,
请别一小人之腹度君子之心 (:

不想与你争论,
至少我知道在你心里,
我是这么的一个人,
一个会为芝麻小事,
舍弃尊严的人

你的心态,
我完全理解,
因为只有四个字可以形容,
心胸狭隘.

好走 (:

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

bamboo (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 9:08 PM 0 comments
像断了线的风筝,
不知如何在继续往高处飞,
像被折断了的竹子,
该如何继续常青。

常青树不再青,
风筝不再像往常般,
在高空翱翔,
竹子也不再挺立

未必是件坏事
或许是件好事,
不就答应了自己,
不管如何最重要的是从中学习 (:

强欢言笑,
还是按奈不住那失望的心情,
给予了无数的强心剂,
始终于事无补。

就那么一丁点,
感觉好像从马背上,
重重地摔下,
因为就差那么一点。

不解为何尴尬的局面会出现,
可能是期望太高,
若不在众人前提起,
或许不会摔得那么重。

不知为何,
就有那种很对不起她的感觉,
三番四次地斟酌着,
对她可能是个折磨吧

就连她被批评的当儿,
也不自觉地为她辩护,
真的觉得是自己的失误,
她尽了责任 (:

是时候改变方法,
精益求精,
与别人取长补短,
应该会减少阴沟里翻船的几率吧

我学会了在跌倒的当儿,
以笑容看待,
即时旁人都等着看热闹,
也绝不让那好戏上演,
自个儿的承诺必定遵守 (:

好吧,
学学小草,
经的起风雨
毅力不倒 (:

it may be the quite unlucky day for me,
but there is always rainbow after the rain (:
I should just put aside all the unlucky happenings today,
and remind myself that there is also things to be happy about.

things will never go smooth in life,
just accept the fact,
learn from the mistakes (:
who knows you will get stronger, heh (:

before that,
i do really hope that people will just stop bugging me -.-
i found you weird and i don't really know you,
i felt bad not to response and
felt really -___- to response to you.
putting a smiley beside my name means nothing okay,
just get over it cause i really felt funny enough to see all these.

whatsoever,
the wind will bring the dark clouds away,
so better days await me (:

Monday, September 17, 2012

candies (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:02 PM 0 comments
*waves*
hehe, hello again :D

it's one year after participating the Malaysia Day celebration (:
fully used both of my 916, heh (;
still being super grateful towards the opportunity given,
lucky enough to be one of then, heh (:

okay, back for updates
trials is over,
and now what i have to do is keep the momentum going,
not to slack or procrastinate anymore (:

not to mention how the results will turn out,
i knew what I did,
no point to babbling and grumbling,
the most important thing is learn from mistakes (:

finally back for class after more than one month,
am still stucking at that that part -.-
i got no idea why is that so hard for me,
i just cant get through that part,
i'll never get through it i guess ._.

whatever it is,
i still like the funny expression of hers,
it's like those "not again" expression
when i told her am going to be absent next week again,
i really felt funny d:

awesome 5 hours to be back with them (:
though i have became a total wood again ._.
i can't feel myself now,
even laughing is hard for me cause it hurts.

but it's good to have that feeling back again,
better than sticking on the chair whole day long d:
and there is more and more newbies coming in,
so uhm hello :D

Hope to see the bunch of them this saturday (:
i have been longing for that,
the encouragements and conversations,
good memories and i'll be back next year, heh (:

did not get to meet them today,
nobody is free to send me there :/
i bet they had put lots of effort there today (:
all the best for this sat :D

not to forget the rflamingo d:
have a great chat with her :D
she is kind of getting mature as day goes by,
but i wonder when can I meet her back ._.

and uhm,
i should stop being so blur nowadays :y
almost fall down for a few times today
got my toes bruise and pain :(
and i just felt like i got hit by people ._.

owh ya,
get well soon daddy and rach :D
and congrats for the hl rp for her hl aural x)

back to school,
school on saturday -___-
tuition is back,
and it's time for bed,
nights (:
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enough of dots d:
tata (:

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:07 PM 0 comments

can't you just stop bullying me,
you little monster ._.

涟漪 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 1:34 PM 0 comments

转左,转右,
你只能够选择左或右
有时候,我在想
为什么不可以同时向左和向右转,
分身术其实也很不错

已经习以为常,
或当事物相反过来的当儿是个奇迹,
一次次的对不起和没关系,
已经不再重要,
因为没有人想失败或失望千百次。

缅怀及怀念,
或者后悔,
出现的几率都很大,
三者同时出现的几率更大。

你说改变,
改变不是一朝一夕的事,
改变需要毅力,勇气,鼓励
还有很多很多。

你说这非是个错误,
这些都不在掌控内,不能改变,
该认同与否,
只能耸耸肩,继续思考。

或许会有后续,
或许会有更多的转折点出现,
但不是每一个都能被发现,
不是每一个都能被好好掌握。

顺其自然,
或是激发改变的心态,
继续胡思乱想,
或是停止一切的思绪,
只有藕断丝连能形容。

偶然的发泄,
就是这般地无谓。

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

with loves (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 8:18 PM 0 comments

I'll bring you clover leaves,
to wish you luck,
and bring you happiness(:

superman in my heart,
forever and always.
you must get well soon (:

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Clover Leaves (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:07 PM 0 comments
hello (:
this'll be a really short one.

Just wanted to pray hard that,
luck will always be with me throughout this whole trials ;)
i currently having deficiency of luck,
hello good luck :D

Hope that all is well everyday,
i knew there is still hope in this world,
so hello hopes (:

stop torturing me,
dear stomach (:
sincerely,
your owner x)

back to study,
tata (: