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Sunday, April 29, 2012

Asylum Homosapiens (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 2:11 AM 0 comments
bibobibo :D
it's 2 in the morning,
and you might thinking why on earth I'm here d:
well, it just happens that I'm still here d:

I am kind of insane by the time now,
is like leading an owl life,
not really owl, worse than owl 
I can't sleep early but I woke up very early -.-

how i wish sleeping is a reflex d:
everyone sleeps at the same time,
wake at the same time,
but it does sounds weird, heh (;

am talking nonsense now,
cause imma trying to make myself sleepy,
reading books ain't helping,
and i don know what should i do, hmmm.

I heard that band concert was awesome,
ain't going to say anything,
cause I'm always that imbalance,
went for both shifts last time,
and felt so tired and slept during the night shift,
and now I ain't going any of it.
u see, it's always that illogic and imbalance :E

saw rach super cute childhood photo :D
doesn't look like her,
but super cute, heeee
feel like pinching her now  d:

sleep sleep sleep :D
i must go off now.
tata (:

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Float Away (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:31 PM 0 comments
buuuuu (:
great thing to finish writing an essay
an essay with an insane story line,
if i got to write such essays every time,
surely i am destroying my brain,
with illogical so call twist in the story,
and intro with a bang and so on.

i couldn't believe that was what i write,
went to a dwarf world,
and creating lots of spell which is a real crap,
and i named it the awesome world,
and just in a blink of time,
everything just gone,
and back to another colourless wall,
and yes, paint it with magical paint.

too insane,
gor gor said the word " what ?!" so many times,
he said i'm crazy,
not really though, there was even crazier story than mine,
mine is just so so,
by writing 4 paras of i am so scare and scare and scare d:

" awesome " morning,
scream my lungs out like a girl in an asylum,
got tricked and that was seriously embarrassing,
i did not know whether to laugh or not,
cause there was tears at the same time.

i will never ever stand there like a dumb,
and answering questions when there is actually no questions,
but a trick with a fake centipede -.-
till now, i can still remember how i reacts,
and how they laughed -.-

next thing,
i really really pray that i will not have stomache anymore,
it is very very torturing to have it everyday ):
I can't sit properly in class to copy notes,
I can't take of my frown due to that tingeing feel
I can't sleep at night and got a terrible headache in the morning :/
pleaseeeeee, recover soon okay? (:

next next,
people are now kind of alluring me to go to band concert,
ahhhh, i'm on the fence right now,
if i go, i don't think no one wanna fetch me back at late night,
if i don't go , is like i'll miss their assuming awesome performance.
gahhhh, imma jumping down the fence as soon as i can d:

right, now i remember something d:
i can't imagine i wasted my precious one hour of sleeping time,
to find my two softtoys gor hidden -.-
is much more harder than hide and seek,
cause i found them at a really funny places, hmph 

then,
have a really turning round and round,
making circles with AMA d:
I won in the end, heh ;)
AMA said bunny is 7 already,
and i said gou gou is 2 , heeee (:
i will remember that i get to pinch bunny 100 times :D

okay,
done for today (:
forgotten many of the happenings,
so uhm, tata (:

Friday, April 20, 2012

bananaaaaaa :D

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:05 PM 0 comments
当你还认为世界上的人,
都是真诚的时候,
是时候从那南柯一梦中,
立即地被唤醒 (:

真诚的人,
仍然有,不多,
虚伪的俯拾即是,
下一秒,做在你左右的人,
都可能是另一个骗子

这种情景不怪,
人都会被利益蒙蔽了双眼,
血红色也会被淤血沾污,
人非圣贤,的确没错
知错能改的确很棒,
但很可悲地很少人会发觉
就算发觉了也不会觉悟,
这就是人,他们没有错 (:

成长和岁月就好像攫夺匪,
当你认为你在成长中得到很多很多时,
他得到的远胜你一筹,
因为它得到的是珍贵天真与单纯

小时候的友谊,
虽然很幼稚,但很真诚,
虽然口不对心,但仍然坚固。
每一次的“不要跟你好了”
到最后,还是想糨糊粘着对方 :D

现在的友谊,
确实还有真诚的,
就算话题少,至少还有的是关心与默契,
就算互相啼笑对方,至少没有谎言。
这种友谊凤毛麟角,值得珍惜 :")

茫然看到一段文字,
当“朋友”需要到你,
嘴巴就好比蜜糖一般,说什么都是好,
一旦目的达到了,
头也不回地,过河拆桥。

确实他们也没错,
那是人的本性,
但我想不透,
为什么人会被喻为万物之灵,
我觉得很不妥当,
因为我不苟同人互相利用,瞒骗的本性

打这篇领悟,
确实因为近来,
听到,看到及体验的谎言过多,
我确实认真思考过,
有这个必要吗?
我真的很希望世界不是这样的,
但这希望遥不可及,
或者已经破灭了,
正在跟我挥手道别 :)

不要讲这种,
很讨厌的东东,
我这种有点悲观的看法,
似乎很矛盾,
因为我曾说过
世界有时候是没有想象中的完美,但你可以让世界不一样 (: 

you'll never know,
any action of yours might change the world,
not the real world,
but the world in within you  (:

Friday friday (:
wanted to stay back for chs idol,
but i'll seriously "die" on my bed the moment i get home,
i'll be sticking on the table while having tuition.

went to "food fair" yesterday d:
i live there actually, how nice (:
daddy is so awesome to make all those stuff,
had fun to make all sorts of shapes, heh ;)
yummmyyyy :D

less than 3 weeks to exam,
actually planned to start it last last week,
who knows many works pop out all at once,
failed, and this week was obsessed with konserto terakhir d:
yesterday was a great start, heh (:
time to torture myself and become a panda d:
so uhm, goodluck (:

ba,ba,ba,bababanana
heeee (:
very very the cute :D
tata~

Monday, April 16, 2012

Singing dino (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:55 PM 0 comments
heee (:
I'm here again!
This post will be full of weird weird words d:

lalala (:
ni dong ah,
shi jie shang you yi ge ren,
ta yi zhi zai na bian emo emo de,
ran hou you shi hou you zai na bian sar sar de xiao,
shi bu shi hen qi guai? d:

ran hou,
wo xian zai yao da zhe ge post,
wo yao zhao ta de yi zhang hen pu tong de zhao pian,
zhao dao wo hen xiang bian cheng zai stalk ta jiang liao o d:
yin wei ta mei ci pa zhao hor,
dou bai na zhong qi qi guai guai ran hou you hen hao xiao de post de.

bu guo,
ta chang ge hen hao ting (:
ke shi ta jiu yi zhi jiang zi ji chang dao bu hao ting,
shi bu shi sar sar de, hmph!

na ge ren,
cong form 2 de shi hou,
jiu yi zhi zai na bian mermie wo,
ran hou wo zhen de shi bu dong mermie shi shen me dong dong,
ran hou wo ye bu dong zen yang la,
ta jiu bian cheng miemer (:

wo hai ji de,
ta form 3 de shi hou,
jiao wo na ge electricity,
wo jue de ru guo wo shi ta yi ding hui bei wo qi si,
yin wei wo zhen de shi physics de ben dan,
bu guo ta hen hao la,
yi zhi jiao wo ye bu hui sien de,
zhi shi yi zhi zai na bian jiang wo.
hao la, xie xie ni (:

hai you hai you,
na ge hen ke ai de nom nom,
wo hai ji de hai you yi ge nv peng you de leh :D
na tian zai chem lab kan dao ta,
wo jiu zai na bian jiang yi ding shi ta hua de d:

miemer ah,
wo zhi dao ni de di yi ge wish,
bu guo wo zhen de zhen de bu neng pei ni qu leh ):
wo zhi dao na ge band shi hen hao de,
bu guo wo zhen de pa liao ta men de nightmare he gu lu tou
ni huan yi huan b'day wish hao bu hao, heee (:

wo zhi dao wo hen huai la,
na li you ren jiao ren jia huan bday wish de,
bu guo biao jin la, jiu zhi you yi ci,
yi ci ba liao (:

wo gen ni jiang,
ru guo ni kan dao zhe ke post,
ni yi ding yi ding yao ji zhe
ru guo ni bu sar sar de xiao,
wo jiu biao zuo ni de mermie, hmph

ni yi ding yao kai kai xin xin,
biao zai na bian emo,
ran hou a,
ji de yao follow ur heart (:

zui hou,
all the best!
ni yi ding yi ding bu ke yi wang ji wo jiao mermie ah, heee
spm jia you (:

and then now i realize that,
i haven said out who is tat person d:
lalala (:

Happy Birthday Yi Zen (:

this is the only photo la,
so heeee (:

tata (:

When you know the happiness is in you (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:31 PM 0 comments
buuuuu (:
finally it has come to an end,
such a relief for me, heh (;

as usual,
i got nervous while talking to small amount of audience
imma weirdo,
people got nervous when talking to a huge crowd,
I won't but i will when it's a small crowd

my slide is so very the nice d:
i mean not very the nice, is more to organize
but i talked once which included 3 or 4 slides,
so is like so weird :/
a little bit disappointed with my performance,
but still at least i tried my best (:

Should have talk more,
i must remember to talk more,
train myself, heh (:
so uhmmm,
just hit me when i seal my mouth at the wrong time d:

A few of them is super cute, heh
especially the girl who kept talking to me
she doesn't look like a form 5,
more like a form 2 student,
but she's really outgoing (:

The first time i sweat from morning till almost evening,
sweat in an air-conditioned room d:
walking here and there,
solving all the sudden problems,
hectic much (:

back to last week (:
majlis anugerah cemerlang,
3 words : waste of time d:
wanted to do homework there,
ended up loitering around with rach, heeee

almost tripped while going up the stage,
luckily i bowed and it kind of stabilised me d:
If i really tripped and fall,
it would be so embarrassing :/

Then,
my friday afternoon was so ' awesome '
bombed by rach and pei x(
walked out the school,
and walked in to make a call,
walked out and walked in and walked out again

played frisbee for a while with rach (:
saw rmama run, hahaha :D
watched rach playing frisbee,
sat at the reading corner doing nothing,
and finally went off at 4 (:

next,
bunny and gou gou :D
gou gou went for school for 2 days, heh (:
gou gou met bunny like finally,
played with ama, like sar sar one d:
was like laughing and pinching bunny :D
halo bunny! (:

well,
the ungu people are really spirited,
super like for their optimistic spirit (:
i wonder how the world will be like,
if everyone has the same spirit as them, heh ;)

Last sukan tara on thursday,
as usual i failed 3 of them d:
actually laughed at myself for never succeed in shot put.
i really don't understand why i just can't take the ball with one hand,
i remembered some teachers laughed when they saw me throwing,
but that was in form 3 i guess d:

i kind of imagine,
to scream and run around the field,
when no one is around,
then lying on the green green grass,
where no one actually cares,
it sounds nice, heee (:

needa work on next post,
see ya later (:

Friday, April 13, 2012

bunny :D

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 7:23 PM 0 comments
heeee (:
bunny meets gou gou,
like finally :D

Will update soon,
very very soon (:

can i just skip tomorrow's the world most wasting time event? :")
heee, tell me yes please (:
tata!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Out of mind (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:00 PM 0 comments
heeee (:
very very the happy,
i mean that's yesterday d:
but still am happy as well for today :D

fully used the good friday, heh ;)
almost finished all my delayed tuition homeworks,
except i was really stuck with trigo :/
is like staring that paper for so long,
yet not even one question is solved,
I will solve it at last, no worries (:

the next wonderful thing is that,
finally managed to finish that whole pieces,
stepping pedals with both legs without tripping,
no more out of rhythm and so on :D
is like finished a super big project, heeee

Played many many Disney songs,
some songs that were played when i was small,
childhood memories :")
I'll never get tired of them, too nice (:

Am now addicted to 2 songs,
I see the lights and go the distance :D
Thought of this 2 songs when they were mentioning them in the classroom,
one of them is a peaceful one,
another is like giving me something like encouragement,
ahh, just can't stop listening to them,
keep repeating d:

Then then,
played some tricks yesterday,
I thought I'll fail,
cause i have not been doing them for so long,
but surprisingly I did not, heh ;)

Talked lots of rubbish with rp d:
just don know why that
i kept laughing when i see the 2 emoticons,
the angry doggy and the cute sobbing creature d:
just can't stop laughing,
too happy i guess d:

I actually forgot what else make me so happy d:
nevermind,
whether there is thing to make me happy or not,
i should always be happy :D

tata (:

Thursday, April 5, 2012

I see the lights (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:29 PM 0 comments


一个躯体,
曾经有过灵魂,
灵魂被大肆开拓,
慢慢地枯竭了,
剩下的只有一个没有感情的生命。

沉默,
可以是一种无声的抗议,
无声地表达方式,
沉默,
也可以是一种表达累熬得方式,
想平静自己的心,
放慢脚步,欣赏四周

微笑。
是两极化的,
含有褒贬义,
只看你如何去看待他。

有时觉得,
自己很像有灵魂却没有躯体的人,
人在一边做东西,听得却是四面八方的声音,
人家认为我不存在,
其实我就好像无处不在

也觉得,
自己很想宝丽龙,
别人要用到的时候,
就毫不犹豫地拿来用,
用完后,
好心的就会丢进垃圾桶里,
悲惨的就会被随意丢弃在街头。

有时觉得自己像空气,
自己在自己的世界里漫游,
旁边的人看不到我,
我也看不到他们,
只有科学家发现到我,
发现到我有重量 d:

其实,
我比较喜欢自己一个人,
做自己喜欢的事情,
静下心,看看四周,
仔细聆听每一个声音,
可是这个世界上,
有点容不下这种人,
一旦静下,
就会有许多的为什么,
许多的奇怪。

应该去把自己的时间,
填得满满,
让脑袋也被塞满,
就不会有许多的胡思乱想,
许多的胡言乱语。

我要加油,
就算距离多远,
都要保持镇静,
就算望不到天,看不到地,
也要做回自己
永远牢记着,
世界永远没有永远,
没有公平这个字眼,
没有承诺这回事,
要生存,
就要为自己而活 (:

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

无声的话语 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:49 PM 0 comments
一個人,
一輩子,
一條路,
隨著年齡的增長,觀點、
心態也隨之改變。
不一樣的環境醞釀不一樣的人,
不一樣的風景影響不一樣的心情,
不一樣的態度就會有不一樣的結局。
人往高處走,
水往低處流。
站得高,
才會看得遠。



要改變自己,
要學會偽裝,
一直裝,
即使不是真的,
裝久成了習慣,
最後也就變成你的了。



人生重要的,
不是所站的位置,
而是所朝的方向;
只要不失去方向,
就不會失去自己。



有時候放下所謂的自尊,
承認自己的錯誤,
這不叫失敗,
而是叫成長。



有時候,
我們等的不是什麼人,
什麼事,
我們等待的只是時間,
一個時機,
可以讓自己改變。



無論結果如何,
若是美好的,叫做精彩。
若是糟糕的,叫做經歷。
告訴自己不必遺憾,
至少,
精彩過,經歷過。



改一改,

无论最后如何 若是永恒的,叫做回忆,
若是短暂的,叫做曾经。
告诉自己不必可惜。
至少,
拥有过,追怀过 (:

不懂为何,
最近看到几米写的东西,
就有莫名的感触,
某名的有着同感.

有时候,
有种奇怪的感觉,
尝试面对,可是却失败地逃避现实。

那种微笑,
看了不再有发挥暖和心房的作用,
反之,
却流露出天动地寒的冰冷,
有着冷风从里头飘出,
让人不禁颤抖。

可能这些都是幻想,
幻想确实让人失去方向,
失去信心,
但同时也带来希望,
带来温暖。

很多人重视的是结局,
忽略了曾经走过的路途,
小事情多了也可以变大事情,
可是又有多少人会去注意这一些微不足道的小事情?

因为害怕失去
所以珍惜,
因此补救,
剩下的只能看缘份 (:

对我而言,
对于恐怖的等级而言,
冰冷及热情确实可以相提并论。
两极化之距离即近又远,
只看人怎么看待这一段距离。

最近,
确实一直在尝试做一些,
自己未曾作过的傻事,
可能会愚那短暂的几分几秒,
但换来的却是许多许多的回味。

就好像现在,
在说出一些自己也不是很明白的东西,
把许多几米的文章合起来,
有着秩序地道出自己的思维,
就好比借他人的脑袋来说出自己的心理。

读了记得微笑,
一面看,一面想,
很喜欢,因为很有道理。
那本书真的很有意思。

像是宝贵的光阴
像是一阵微风,
像是车站上的乘客,
像是一个在黑暗中的影子,
就那么无声地流逝,拂过脸颊,
一个微笑,一个背影,
背后却有许多故事 (: