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Friday, October 26, 2012

triple one (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:42 AM 0 comments
dumbo,
keep on imagining where it is now -.-
me feel super uneasy without it ,
i bet nobody is free enough to send me there

i don't know is this call predicting or imagining,
consequences of found or not found
keep popping in my head
me dislike this feeling, hmph

finger crossed that i can get it back (:
it's not only the slip,
yet lots of photo that i put in it,
i will be so guilty if i really lost it ._.

not progressing well enough,
with this kind of rubbish in my mind,
and with the little monster torturing me -.-
need some distractions now,
i can't spend my next 3 days like this :/

i think i just made people angry at me,
recently or even everytime
I can't help being like that,
that's me i guess

people are saying nonsense,
pure nonsense which is so pointless.
and hello monster,
am not being deceiving,
just stop trying to make me angry,
which you think that's the real me -.-

time is ticking away,
with me procrastinating here
i do better hurry up,
to catch the train (:

praying hard,
i need my treasure back (:

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 4:16 PM 0 comments
should learn to be more careful
in everything at anytime ._.

second time in this year already ):
why so blur and careless ._.

really got to learn not to trouble other people anymore,
i wish i can fly there now :/

lost the memory of after putting the slip in,
dumbo, i can't trace back ):

how can i forgot my treasure, hmph
finger-crossed ._.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

妙雨

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:18 PM 0 comments
雨季,
狂风骤雨的夜晚,
冷风吹袭而来,
心里凉了半截

如果可以回到原点,
我必定重新策划所有,
上不接下的吊桶,
真的好想把他剪断 

明天的天空,
不知道会有多少的彩霞,
更不知道会否再次布满乌云,
这是个雨季

自己到底要的是什么,
就犹如在沙子里找米,
怎么摸也摸不清,
也犹如打结的头发,
怎么理也理不清

这是一部戏剧,
木偶众多的场景,
到底谁的钢丝线能耐得最久,
无人知晓,
因为这是个没有终止的剧情

断了线的风筝,
主人会想尽办法让它找回原有的风采,
但事实是残酷的,
再次翱翔的它终究失去了昔日的风采

雨声,
像音符般,
让我想着好多好多的东西,
那是音乐的魅力,
也是它对我的影响力

安全的地方,
不再是零危机,
是时候转移阵地,
寻找另一个可安家的地方

大考跫音,
是时候尝试让自己静下心,
除去杂念及无谓的思想,
专心应考

大雨仍未有停止的意念,
脑袋也似乎没有休息的意念,
这是个古怪的疯子脑袋,
或许说它很特别

Thursday, October 11, 2012

名字的幻影 (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 1:50 PM 0 comments
如果可以,
我想要用回旧的名字 :D

有着快乐和漂亮的含义,
那包涵着很多很多的爱意,
那个不期望什么,
只希望我健康快乐的期盼 (:

现在的名字,
似乎没什么意思,
就只为了凑足那讨厌的笔画,
要说成功,
我只不过是个失败的例子 d:

小时候,
还搞到自己的名字被弄得乱七八糟,
什么花名都有,
至今我想我都忘了一半,
两个读音的名字,
有时更让我气煞不已

就连字形,
我也比较喜欢旧的,
有种看了很温馨的感觉,
最喜欢那个倩影的倩字,
嘻嘻 (:

不知道为何 ,
就突然想起这件事,
那算命佬的故事,
那笔划真的会有差别吗?

说大好大坏,
人生不就会这样吗?
可有时候,
这些东西不信也得信

脑力老是有些零零碎碎的东西, 
都不知自己何时才能专心,
读书读到一半,
却想起名字

就让自己继续游荡吧,
就算施压也不可以过多
加油吧 (:

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Journey (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 2:42 PM 0 comments
iwanttowatchbraveeee :(
I guess there is too much space in it,
hello little monster,
can you please stop letting the air in ._.
cause i don't like to eat air
and you are not allow to let them in

frankly speaking,
this is the second day am procrastinating already -.-
couldn't concentrate on one subject only,
kept changing subjects,
which made my day so unproductive :/

got the mood to play spirited away,
but i just don have that portable thing ):
oh well, i used to ignore that song,
cause i felt so fish to think about it,
but eventually something just make me feel that,
it's pretty amazing, heh (:

the day before yesterday was just simply nothing much,
seminar was so crowded with people,
was melting in there :O
eating sweets as my lunch was pretty amazing,
and that was when i realize
i will never survive if i ever going for
either NS, matrik or even kyuem

I guess i was super duper weak physically
that's not really how i think,
but how people see me as, heh
am i suppose to do anything to change their view
and at the same time make myself physically stronger than now

and now i knew am totally out of topic,
cause i don't even know what's the topic,
am procrastinating,
am not doing things that i am suppose to do -____-

the weather is so hot,
made me feel a little frustrated,
how i wish i could be a natural rubber
to melt under this temperature,
became sticky enough to stick myself on to bio

and i need stronger gravitational force,
am not sitting still on the chair,
kept walking around looking nothing,
okay, sit still and concentrate.

buh-bye (:

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Red (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:15 PM 0 comments

am never good at that,
and i just ruined things ._.

while the little monster is out of control again,
i shall threw it into a forest
if i can afford to do so

is just a fact that,
the little monster ruined me
and i ruined things eventually

with another fact that,
i always got my plan failed,
cause i never want to disappoint you,
I'll help even though i feel like saying no

but at least,
there is still music to cheer me up a little (:
and red is seriously stuck in my head,
kept humming it, heh (:

heard the story told by mummy,
and i thought of yesterday's recess,
different people have different nature,
and yeah that made me feel like laughing now
when i thought of the reaction and the face emotion 

Time to sleep,
hope that tmrw's seminar will not make me regret to attend it (:
all is well,
everyday anytime any place (:

Friday, October 5, 2012

Candle in the wind (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:56 PM 0 comments
dumbo (:
had been going to school for the whole week,
with half of the class missing in action

It can be a good and bad thing at the same time,
good thing is that i can concentrate on studies,
and also have a better study environment.
Being more disciplined than at being at home,
discussing and exchanging questions among each other.

Bad thing was that,
it is just way too bored,
and teachers always ask whether to teach or not,
and they always throw the ball to me ._.

Within this week,
i was actually wondering,
whether self study or group study by the time now,
i used to not considering group study,
but seems like my very first study group last few months,
was a little effective although we talked much after some hours d:

Like what teachers said,
i just got to be more careful and have a clear mind during exams,
but sometimes i do get really blur not even during exams,
am even very blur while studying :/
so i have been thinking maybe through group study will prevent me from doing so,
but am i right?

self study is more like an effective way for me,
though i am not very sure about it,
hmm, so it is true for the statement
many hands make works light
when comes to study ._.

okay,
i got to stop that question of mine d:
well, 11 days of holiday,
i do better scheduled my things well (:

2 more weeks to retirement :D
am very anticipated for it,
really wish that the school magazine will be out on time
and my students corner is so uglyyyy ):
why can't they add one more page to make it perfect :/

andfromnowonwards,
imustknowwhatamiactuallydoing
andwhatistheconsequencesofit,
stopbeingablurfella x)

To all the people out there,
do forgive me on the mistakes i made,
tell and remind me if i didn't know,
I'll be returning you with truly apologies and lots of thanks you ;)

*waves*
tata :D

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Faithfully (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:37 PM 0 comments

Why do things people said nowadays
made so much sense to me ._.

Monday, October 1, 2012

freshman (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:34 PM 0 comments
有些朋友,
就是那么的可爱

有时候,
就算笑不出,
也会被他们挤出笑容

班上那群人,
偶然会让你气冒三丈,
但却不会让你气很久,
因为他们总有办法惹得你似笑非笑
怎么也生气不久

有时候,
坐在后头,
听着那班 好友说笑,
就算是个旁听者,
也会突然很有默契的说出同样的东西,
接下来的便是一阵暴笑

他们发出的声音,
虽然很莫名其妙,
但还是会让你忍不住地想笑,
有些朋友,
就是那么的可爱

还有一些,
虽然听不明白他们到底在说什么,
或者是在笑什么,
可是他们狂笑的样子,
就足以让你笑不停

有些天真的朋友,
告诉你他的伟大志向,
要做这做那,
看着他们形容的样子,
刻意地忍着不笑,
当他们以认真的表情告诉你
是真的,我没骗你,
那时的你更加想笑

现在的我,
更想嘲笑自己一番,
一点失望,
可以让我想出许多乱七八糟的东西,
稍微好转时,
竟也可以让我忆起无数的小片段

好像海浪般,
起伏不定,
好像天上的云朵,
变化无常

34天的倒数,
尽力而为,
这次那33的教训,
就让自己吸取吧

Ferris Wheel (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:49 PM 0 comments
一定要面对现实,
不可以再做鸵鸟了

怎么就出现转折点,
又乱了阵脚
不对,转折点其实早已出现,
只是自己不敢去面对

他说的也没错,
每个人都有自私的一面,
但当放下公事时,
自然地大家又是那个没有心机的朋友

不是我不接受那道歉,
只是我真的不知道
如何再次如往常般地面对,
我承认我很奇怪,
只要你一开口,
就会想要流泪

仍然在犹豫,
他们几人的劝说又让我动摇了。
或许说我本来就不坚定,
我的出现往往在聚会上都是个奇迹,
那几个帮我换了名字的人,
又何尝没有希望我能参与最后一次的活动

是该一竹竿打翻全船人吗?
他俩说你迫切地想修复这段友情,
因为你在乎也不想这么可惜地了结,
虽然很失望,但的却我也有同感。

失望归失望,
心底下始终是原谅了,
既然他俩能够尝试去破冰,
那为何就不能不想往事,
将这隔膜给去除?

至今我才晓得,
原来那天的我逃不出众人的眼光,
始终被发现了,
今天也是如此。

明天的练习,
该否出席,我不知道,
再次无聊地准备以甲或乙让别人帮我做选择,
但这只不过是自欺欺人的方式,
为什么只有我自个儿知道

话说回来,
在生气和沮丧的时候,
的确不该作出任何评论,
因为往往事情并非想象中的那样

想一想,
自己可能也有因冲动而无意间划伤了他人的时候,
何尝不学习别人,
以谅解之心来解除彼此的尴尬局面?

是时候成长了,
就如浩禄和永裕所说的 ,
我始终要面对现实,
怎么逃也逃不了

既然心底原谅了,
就勇敢地以行动原谅吧,
虽然是件小事,
但我相信这是塑造一个
更加能够承受这些无谓小事的我