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Friday, November 6, 2015

听雨

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:34 AM 2 comments
雨,
滴答滴答地落在凡尘,
洗刷了世间万物,
也洗刷了那心中的尘埃

鞋,
踢踏踢踏地踩在草地,
溅起了一潭水花,
也拉响了心中的钟声

一桌子的白纸,
一脑袋的空白,
走到一个无声无色的时空,
看望那心空的璀璨

温暖的被窝,
冰冷的四肢,
犹若那人情,
冰寒刺骨

何必执着,
看重一切的偶然或机遇
镜子里的那个人,
是快乐的吗?

傲气的促使
始终不将就,
那是为何,
何苦为难地把腰弯下

望着远去的背影,
听着逐渐细微的声音,
时光却不停地加快脚步,
唆使你与它赛跑

微风吹拂,
树叶落了满地,
思绪飘落,
落在了万里之处

Sunday, July 26, 2015

回忆之旅

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:32 PM 2 comments
转眼间,九个月的光阴就如清风般拂过面颊,长扬而去。270天在异乡的生活,可谓让我做了无数次的过山车,时而空虚,时而充实。感恩有着这无独有偶的机遇,让我实现了到国外深造的幻想,也感恩在遥远的他乡有着心灵之家。

2014年9月:过山车

离开的前夕,辗转难眠,谢谢亲爱的他们牺牲了睡眠为我送行,也感恩所有为我送上一个个祝福的他们。照片里的自己都是眼泪泛光,原来每一个拥抱都好催泪 ; 不知道自己是哭红了眼睛还是哭红了整张面孔,但是别国身往回看的那一幕仍然是那么地深刻,哭了,但我还是很坚强的!



转机的新朋友,一同住了让我们彻底破产的酒店,一大清早就赶往机场闲荡,懵懂地就进入了让我们叹为观止的 waiting lounge :3 有了他们感觉的确不一样,至少大家都不是孤单的



 到了,Manchester International Airport Terminal 2 (: 一个字,冷!


St Gabriels Hall, 住了九个月的家,会想念你的。



抵达之际,空荡荡的房间,冰冷的床,只好由senior带着我和恩仪去购物。所幸遇到了志杰和TianYi 当我们的导游,否则我们俩一定变成迷途羔羊。整个九月的高潮就莫过于在开学的第一个星期就有4个小考及无数次的迷路,还有听着英国人叽叽嘎嘎地讲者自己听不懂的英文,还是省略了吧!抵达的第二个周末,三个迷途羔羊去办货,结果搬着如千金重的东西迷路了,狼狈啊!也感恩那带我们走回家的路人,谢谢啦!

2014 年10月:秋天

抵达的第二个星期,十月了。一切都仍然在起跑点,脑海里还是不断地播放着在机场的每分每秒,心里仍然惦记着故乡的一切。
4日下午,傻傻地跑到外头,为了拍张照吹了不少冷风。深怕忘了与他们的约定,虽然视频时的整个画面凌乱不堪,但至少祝福漂洋过海地到了他们耳边。


生活开始步入轨道,去了BPSA conference,虽然专心地在听,却听到一头雾水,好在有敬涵,teddy 和一群Nottingham的女生 :P 好吧,总的来说还是有获益的!

11日,偶然的生日惊喜,为我们旅途中第一个友谊致敬!


Week 5 : 
开始做药了,从一开始的战战兢兢到看到了成品,好有满足感! 
去了第一个 Community Pharmacy Visit , 一个晚上里学到了好多,也为UK完善的医药系统惊叹


Deeparaya Event : 因为我们还以为一定要穿 :3


Week 5 星期五下课后 :在Stophord 前拍了三人行的第一张合照


没看过黄红美景的我们跑到了AGLC 和 Main Library ,去逛书橱还有拍照 :P

Week 6:
一个星期的假期,Warwick的朋友们到访!导游兼游客的我们几个,到最后竟带错路,愧疚啊!所幸还有把他们带到几个著名的地标,还有跟外婆一起赚了一小时 :3 


First Aid Training : 我的新朋友 :P 学了新的常识与技能,不过别叫我帮你急救,因为我好像永远都使不出力来做好CPR T.T 



充实的十月,自我成长的一个月。在一次的Tutorial中踏出了第一步,第一次第一个也不怎么样,做得不好也不要紧,至少尽力了!在他乡的日子,也多了一群 hall mates 的陪伴,仍然记得在披萨店让大家的眼球都翻了360度的经典之句 -> “你不冷吗?” “不冷,因为我的心更冷”

11月:圣诞气氛莅临
5日 Guy Hawks Day,第一个在异国的Bon-fire及烟火表演。 想起了几年前生活营的营火会,怀念 :') 热闹的一晚,冰冷的天气有了疯狂的她们仍然温暖。


7日 Manchester Christmas Light Switch On
另一个熙来攘往的地点,Albert Square (: 与敬涵,Jenny, Angeline 还有好多好多人去凑热闹!看着璀璨的烟火,再看一看身旁无数一家人温馨的场面,又想家了。


15日,去了Christmas Market! 气氛,食物的色香味都到齐了;新的体验,不一样地共享着美食,看着琳琅满目的甜食还真是满足了童心未泯的自己 :P


特别的一个实验,DNAextraction~ 科学的神奇,生命的诡异;那里头有着我,有着变相的生命。


Week 8 : 好啦,另一个成品 Ear Drops (: 每两个星期最开心的时刻莫过于拍下自制的药品。


去KaiLing 家煮红豆汤的偶遇-- 可爱温馨的Olaf :D


煮红豆汤的原因--> 赴约去Bex 家的Scottish Dinner!
Scottish music + Haggis + Mash potato + stories + Laughter = 幸福 <3 p="">

 14日,简单快乐的生日,影片、祝福等等,感恩!


16日,延迟庆祝陈志杰先生的生日。我俩想到的最好礼物莫过于让他吃一顿有营养的午餐,结果幕后就是跟着facetime里恩仪mummy的指示,用着那不锐利的刀砍鸡肉。


12月:民以食为天
去了HIV Awareness Talk, 间中玩了个曾经玩过的教育性游戏。下意识的不将自己白净的水与拥有颜色水的人将水参半,虽然最终是让自己免过于被“传染”,可是心里却始终觉得自己好像没好好参与活动,怎么办啊,好矛盾 ._.
6日,去了meetup session, 但主讲人所讲的重点我全部没听进耳,原因是前晚失眠,彻夜没睡,结果光天化日下在钓鱼  :(

好吧,7日,就和敬涵,Jenny去了Santa Run,一个公益活动。
冰寒地洞,穿着手套、冬衣还有那个特大号的圣诞老人装,变身了,不过胡须被我们藏起来了~ 进到了MU球场,或许对我来说是一个球场,象征性的拍照,打了个勾,回到集聚地找真正的圣诞老人去:P  特别的一天也是迷路的一天,不过 终于看到Salford Quay漂亮的容貌啦!


不知何时下的冰雹,只知道买了Groceries 出来就变成这样了~
还记得下纷雪时,我没拿钥匙,也没拿电话就走了出去,回头想要告知Jenny的当儿,才发现自己被锁在外头 :P 所幸,她在那时冲了出来,得救了,我们俩的初雪也献给了对方。下雪了,许个愿吧!


13日,提前庆祝Kai Ling 的生日。一行人煮了椰浆饭,蛋糕等,惊喜算是成功 :D 难忘的夜晚,友谊进一步了,假期也开始了!


第一个Volunteering Event -  MAHSC.
一个曼彻斯特医药领域人才集聚的一天, 认识了一群泛泛之交,人生的过客。一起合作,一起分享,一起学习,共勉之。


Catered Hall的圣诞晚餐, carol service,似炭黑的马铃薯,还有许多难以入口的圣诞佳肴,我就不多说了~
25日- 在Weston的圣诞晚餐


26日:Hulme & St Gabs 的巧克力宴


31日:在Weston的除夕夜晚餐。去了Picaddily,变成了沙丁鱼,烟花在漂亮我也不会再去第二次。


2014年的最后一章,见识了欧美国家的圣诞气氛,也认识了在异国他乡能得到自家人的照顾是多么的幸运。在冰寒地洞的十二月里,从没想象一个异族朋友的父母在一星期内不断为我送上马来西亚的食物解饿,解乡愁,一盒三文治只能是我的心意,心里的感激之情是非笔墨所能形容。感恩有朋友与我一起探索英国之美,走过了不长不短的7天之旅,也感恩与我躲在小厨房里一起煮晚餐的她们。104天终~

Thursday, April 30, 2015

糖;堂

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:47 AM 0 comments

幽静的深夜,
外头寒风刺骨,
悦耳的音乐陪伴着,
那独自一人的身影

享受夜晚的谧静,
扰乱的心绪,
像只萤火虫,
也像只羔羊

翻阅着日历,
憧憬着那一天的到来,
蹒跚匍匐了许久,
是时候回巢寻找温暖

记载着一点一滴,
迫不及待想诉说,
但心里也很清楚,
到头来也只有一句,还好。

脑海永远是空白,
心里依旧在挣扎。
一切历历在目,
或许历史会重演。

Friday, March 13, 2015

钟。剑

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 1:53 AM 0 comments

好久没有颤抖着手,
一笔一划地在白纸上涂鸦。

压抑着自己,
不许让害怕吞噬

眼角不断地闪烁着泪光,
可我不允许它落下

橡皮擦牺牲了自己,
鼓起了勇气争取一线希望

可希望却让我重重地跌落谷底,
所幸仍有一曙阳光

手一送,
把手上所有的东西往桌上一抛

脑里专注着,
我,必须重振旗鼓

倒抽了一口气,
继续琢磨问题的根源

如此简单的战略,
又无粗心鬼的捣乱

问题出在哪儿?
还是个谜

心里有几十个吊桶,
持续地与荷尔蒙作战

叮铃一响,
第一战溃不成军

蹒跚地向第二场前进,
可却心乱如麻

如鹰盘旋在空中,
斟酌许久后终于找到了猎物

一切是如此地风平浪静,
平静得让我放下了戒备

眨眼间却乌云密布,
暗潮汹涌

颤抖的手,
一条直线也成了挑战

不断地质疑,
不断地有着放弃的念头

朝天一看,
紧接着低头继续赶路

叮铃,
战争结束 - 落荒而逃

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从人群中攒开,
寻回了那原来的自己

无需压抑,
无需顾虑他人的眼光

不再是战场,
是心里的另一场交战

一步一脚印,
呼吸着那能让人放松的气体

已忘了何时以龟速在路上行走,
更预算不了错过了多少的风景

兜兜转转,
却找不了一个能暖心的角落

踏着极冷又硬的地面,
又回到了那四面墙

看着熟悉的面孔,
终于败给了心中的自己

是,我累了,
眼睛累了

那是善意的谎言,
因为没有曝露自己软弱的必要

芝麻绿豆,
又何必在乎?

回过神,
伤心,失望有用吗?

弥补得了往事,
追究得了问题吗?

没用,不能,
那怎么还在钻牛角尖?

不知道,
或许一个暖心的拥抱可以解答

又或许不能,
因为那是催泪剂

情绪上的折磨,
无人能解答

只有心态能,
往前看,你还是行的!

Thursday, March 12, 2015

花;画

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:13 AM 0 comments


读了好多方块字,
脑里酝酿着好多的情绪。
听着一首又一首的古典乐,
心里平静了不少

烦躁的来袭,
让我放下了手上的书,
回想起下午的自己,
那个不断查看钟表的自己

一星期的时间,
不长不短,
忙碌的时刻,疲惫的身心,
始终无法消减心中的那份挂念

始终如一地与世界脱轨,
心跳与地球不再同一个频率
跟不上社会的脚步,
或许是因为微笑总会是我的答案

改变才能带来全新的生活,
找回自信才能带来更多的机遇,
这一切无形的讯息,
是无可否认的暗示与明示

心态与性格,
两者息息相关,
性格牵连着心态,
而心态却可以让性格转型

步入社会大学的门槛,
仍然是个留级生,
蹒跚的前进,
但绝不放弃

*允许自己与文章脱轨*
方块字在我的滥用之下,
似乎变成了忧郁的代名词,
下一次我要让他重生,
变成活蹦乱跳的小人儿

明天的考试,
加油!(:

Sunday, February 22, 2015

心、新、辛

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 7:37 AM 0 comments
总觉得自己在地球上,
像个外星人,
在外星世界里,
像个地球人


在家靠父母,
出外靠朋友。
这话确实无误,
但总觉得格格不入

当好强胜于心里的忐忑,
当假装被内心完全吞噬。
当你是一个不会寻找新事物
既不会保养拥有的奇珍异宝
你就是个正正当当的废物

内心已被吞噬得零碎不已,
何时才能摆脱这恶魔,
何时才能找寻从前心里那份自然的快乐
又能够在何时才能凑足往日的自信心

倘若有本书,
可以启发自己,
又倘若有个人,有件事,
可以改变自己

或许,
预言是对的,
需要做出好多的改变才得以安顿,
又或许,
该学习宽其心,听天下难忍之言

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

累。泪

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 6:25 AM 0 comments


暗涌,
让人在里头找到了海豚,
也找到了鱼群

窗外明媚的阳光,
始终照耀不了人类内心的黑暗处,
火炉般的热能,
也始终温暖不了心中的寒冬

往往对事情经过的不经意,
却是带来空雷不雨的源头
社会上的对与错存在于一线之间,
没有人永远会在世界的极端处

人类乃万物之灵,
却过不了关己则乱的门槛
当一个人想要当个秤时,
总会变成个倒地翁

语言是人与人之间沟通的桥梁,
模棱两可是个绊脚石,
假设性的隐藏处是颗计时炸弹,
而当桥梁出现了裂痕,
一切都将如陨石般从天而降

恶魔与天使的战争,
终究抵不过心里头的执着与信念
解铃终须系铃人,
青翠的白菜总得洗净了才能咽下肚里

话筒一端的寂静,
话筒另一端的忐忑,
要保全的事物到底有多少,
要顾虑的大局又是多深的坑洞

大街上的人群,
徘徊的都是妇孺,家庭
灵魂之窗所不能承受的,
都交给了心底

人造漩涡,
天崩地裂,
当象牙塔出现裂缝,
牢固的地基仍然会崩塌

心里不愿做的事,
总是被情况所逼,
含着泪,心撕裂,
也得做,
何谈良心?

常说,海底是最诡异的区域,
那人心更可畏
当人心被绝望吞噬时,
又该那什么来替代?

退一步,海阔天空,
心有多宽,就有多广阔的退路
那世界的和平与内心的和平,
是否又是同等的?

望向窗外,
总觉得看清了外头的一切,
却殊不知一切都隔了层纱,
若隐若现,让人琢磨不清

知我者谓我心忧,
不知我者谓我何求,
把打结的绒线解开,
至少还有重织梦的希望

在海上行驶,
虽不能恳求永远能够风平浪静,
更不会希望永远处在波涛汹涌处,
只要有黑白琴键的交响乐,就知足了

暗涌退了,
海面上风平浪静,
乌云散了,
白棉花点缀着碧蓝的天空
也愿心中的空洞能够被填补上

也愿有一日,
能笑谈那些曾经令人落泪的往事,
当心中的苦味若茶叶般苦中带甜,
也证明与见证了自己的成长

Monday, January 26, 2015

Living Life (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 8:25 AM 0 comments

Bello! (:
Time to swipe the grey clouds away,
Updates on what have I done ever since a thousand years ago :3
*I need to appreciate life*

Well,
Let me start from post A-Levels :P
Didn't really make full use of my break,
Indulged myself in the fantasy of novels,
Paid off all my sleep debt * or maybe not *
and most of all having more quality time with family

Did not get the chance to do any part time jobs,
because of transport problem again :3
Did surveys on universities and trying to sort out scholarship thingy,
even did my UQ application during end of June,
but who knows I will end up in here :3


#1
Well, first outing was with the R's :D
Everyone had a tough time to agree on what time to be spaced out,
But at least we made it before Rach went back to Aussie (;

Stayed in Sunway uni with gor early in the morning,
storybooks accompanied me till pei reached :3
I was lost in Sunway Pyramid while trying to meet up with pei * don't judge :P *
Loitered around while waiting for bubu, huien and rach (:

Went for ' how to train your dragon 2' with them (:
sat in the cinema to talk when everyone left after the show,
I forgot what r stuff we did in there,
but toothless is super duper cuteee heheh <3 br=""> Then lunch with them at iforgotwhatshop,
It's a really weird lunch but nobody cares :3
Bombed pei and updated each other,
reminiscing all the memories back in high school,
then went to cafeteria to take photos? hehe :P

Overally,
two words to describe --> awesome much
Not to forget bunny and gou gou who joined us
heheheeee :D



#2
Then I promised to join Inti Run with KaiSong during A2,
I actually totally forgot about I joined a 7km run instead of 5km,
Felt like dying since I'm lack of stamina and being so rusty
But I still made it by fast walking in the end:P

Did not wait for the whole ceremony to end,
cause we assumed it to be boring :P
Ate our brunch at Shakespeare's,
and had a really good talk with the crazy girl after so many years :")

#3
Had a random meet up with mun, shu, HaoLu, MingZhao and Yanyee
Went to pick up shu at her house with mun,
then headed to Sunway to meet the others up (:
Went to a lunch buffet with them,
The food was nice but I just couldn't finish everything ._.

Had no idea what we have talked about,
mostly regarding where to go and how's A-Level,
listening to all the experiences shu got from her exchange programme,
and had some small talks with HaoLu too (:

Went for some mango desserts,
which I remember it's nice too,
talked till mun, shu and HaoLu gotta go home,
and waited for gor with Zhao and Yanyee and left (:

#4
Had another lunch meetup with yjr before the famine 30 meeting,
Ordered some ramen which i found it different and not really what I like,
However, it's the companion that counts (:

Then went to KBU for the meeting,
we arrived late and it was so awkward to enter the lecture theater full of people
Totally have no idea what I did there,
mainly sending the messages out right after receiving it :P

Separated into different groups for second round briefing
then things just went on with the flow,
despite that we, the station masters were not concentrating,
thus we forgot most of the things that they told us :P

Nothing much that day,
just get to met a lot of CHS-ians,
especially the juniors which turned out to be the committees now
Had some random chats with people around while waiting for daddy to pick me up :3



#5
Went Famine 30 for the third time,
but as a volunteer this time (:
Station masters in the underground car park and in the totally blackout room,
pretty fun and made new friends there :3

It's a really different experience to be a volunteer compared to being a camper,
the need to take care of the others other than take care of myself,
the responsibility that was given from the committee
and the need to learn how to collaborate and communicate well
glad that I have learnt something new (:

Not to forget spending the times with yjr,
scrolling insta for food photos and making ourselves hungrier,
did some sort of hyper stuff at the back of the crowd,
have a quick walk to mcd at late night,
sleeping at the corridor and etc :")




#6
Next will be Chiazheng's farewell at Wanli's
Bet that was the only gathering we had that everyone managed to make it (;
Went to wanli's before she came back from intern,
have some small little chat with eshen,zongxuan,mun, zhiqi and zhining.

yushu, tart, chiazheng came after that,
Went in the Karaoke room for small chat and some singing,
enjoyed baking by eshen &zx, nasi lemak by kakak Mira and shu's authentic Sweden dishes :")
Yuhang joined in later on and had a fun-filled random chit-chatting (:

Then, went back to the room with some of them singing,
some of us having some conversations and etc
Sent off tart and chiazheng after taking photos and having the icecream cake as a form of farewell :")
singing song by song from the list and yuhang's singing is undeniably awesome~
Had a crazy night and went to sleep off at 3 or 4am :P
No idea when will be the next gathering where everyone is present ._.

#7
It was 3 days after A2 results were announced,
Went back to CHS with KaiSong and meet up with Eshen & Zx
It's good to be back but I have lost some sense of belonging in there,
Things changed so quickly that I can hardly cope.

Went to walked around the school compound,
talking about the crazy little things we did before Kaisong transferred.
Then had some small little talks with Pn Chee, Pn Tan, Pn Fong, Pn Tang and etc
I can feel that they're really happy that we graduates went back,
It's a different but simple way to show our gratitude I guess

Did not really get to meet up with lots of people,
More like meeting people by chance :3
Rushed back to MCKL right after the visit back to CHS,
and the nightmare starts.




#8
Another meet up day (:
Finally get to meet up with the farm house buddies a.k.a car-pooling buddies
Shinyin, Le'Vena, Isabel and me turned up,
as jun fall sick that day ._.

Went Fish & Co,
We girls literally ate so little things but yet feeling full :3
Our conversations were more towards the UCAS topic,
and who went where and for what,
I actually realized that I couldn't recognize most people are from YC *feeling meh*

So we went to a toy shop which i forgot the name
Took photos with plushies and played lego on the spot :P
We always did kiddy things like these,
but that's who we actually are :D

Then went for the RM1 McD icecream,
sat and continue our conversation,
then walked up and down the whole mall without any destination
they sent me and bel off when mummy arrived :3
p/s: we still need to meet up in UK as what we have planned hehe

#9
Wanted to skip off this part,
But I guess it's time for me to clarify some misunderstanding (:
I have been ignorant to people who asked me what I was doing when I seldom reply,
Doing nothing is what I always said though I have been on a crazy track at the moment.

I chose to apply UCAS for the 2014 Sept intake,
Yes, only after I got my results and knowing that there is a system called clearing.
It's too complicated to explain why,
But this is how I ended up here in one month time since my late application.

I have been spamming tweets in this period of time,
stressed up by having the need to modify my personal statement in one night time,
to make international calls on my own,
to bear with the time difference,
and to be patient while waiting for news when time is ticking away

I chose not to tell anyone who cared to know where I'm planning to go
and to keep everything within myself,
It's not that I'm being ignorant,
Bur I dislike to give news with uncertainties or I can say false hope to me myself,
I chose to be silent which I still have no idea whether I did the correct decision.

Insomnia was my bestie in that one month,
It's like a mind war in me,
Hoping for a good news yet being emotional that I have to leave home for 9 months in such a short notice

To say or not to say?
News are hard to be covered when I have to asked around to solve my problems,
People got furious or shocked to know the news when they heard it from some other people,
But I couldn't explain these complicated issues,
and I chose to flipped through the pages by muting myself

However,
I would really like to thank my parents and gor,
for being so supportive mentally and physically.
I would be so stuck if it wasn't them to sacrifice their time to drive me to putrajaya several time so that things will be sorted out faster,
Having gor to spend one whole day to drive me around to sort things out when he's busy,
and to have parents taking leave just to make sure I can be safe while settling visa and all
I would also like to thank to all the people that have guide and support me all the way long
I'm really blessed and grateful (:




#10
My 4th graduation in my academic journey (:
Still remembered they sent us invitation card even before the results are out
Was expecting to go graduation on my own again,
but it turned out mummy and gor being able to attend,
totally overwhelmed at that moment :D

Saw Ms Yee at the entrance and had a small talk,
Met up with yanyee, mun, kawei, yunn and the others in the hall,
Flipped through the booklet while trying to concentrate to all the speeches and prayers,
Everything went smoothly until I did something super duper embarrassing

I'm still feeling lucky that I was still able to walked down the stairs and up the stage
and give them a big sunshine smile although I sprained my ankle :3
Kinda had a mixed feeling when everything came to an end,
couldn't believe that I'll miss all the tough college moments :')

Was really glad that mummy enjoyed the whole ceremony,
I guess she was in a really good mood that day
cause she even made fun of me in front of my friends :
ohmy, I should have run away that time :3

*rewind*
Another epic incident during the rehearsal for graduation day
Wanted to give mun a surprise birthday at MCKL since I couldn't join the girls at SS15,
Bought cake with yanyee and took train there,
reached on time which the rehearsal is supposed to start

BUT we made a spontaneous decision to wait for mun's arrival,
and we ended up stalking the IMU's medicine students name list in the canteen
Successfully surprised mun when she arrived * but forgot to take photos *
and when we was about to join in the rehearsal,
groups of people came out --> rehearsal ended :3

*rewind further more*
I have no idea how many times I have went back to MCKL after A2 ends,
to filled up the claim forms, to certify certs and etc,
planned to meet up with bun, yunn, yanyee and Dylan at MCKL one of the days,
on the day to sell my maths textbook and take photos i guess :3

Went to Nu Sentral after we have settled most of the stuff,
Had lunch and we began the Moseb-Kawei thingy,
Quite a blur image on what we really did that afternoon,
I think I went back to look for Mr Joshua and Mr Chung with yanyee after that :3

Remembered we walked from 2nd to 4th floor again and again,
just to find where the 2 of them were , funny much :3
Not sure whether it's the same day where WenZhe appeared from nowhere,
and went to Shiok cafe to have desserts with them :3
*sorry for the pieces of memories i have had *




#11
We, the ' No More A-Levels ' had finally made a day out
All of us had so many after A2 plans to motivate ourselves beforehand,
But we only got to carry out one of the plan only after graduation,
and this is the reality vs imagination

Like what my bunbuncow said,
we started off with ' triplets', ' couple' and ' ribbon girl '
We have no idea how did we stick together,
but we just turn out to be good hehee :D

Well, was late to meet them up at 'breakout'
Luckily the session started late too :P
We literally had no clue what to do in the 'crime scene'
failed the whole investigation but still enjoyed the time spent (:
Conclusion : is a right choice to not be an investigator

Couldn't really remember all the details in it,
Sorting code with the use of periodic table,
Hidden computer in a big big drawer,
Hint generated as light source using bicycle wheel and etc,
Really amazed by all these!

Headed to bun's for baking session after lunch,
baked cupcakes with oversugary icing of the cupcake kit,
and also flour smelled cookies :P
It's my first time baking not so successful cookies,
but still it tasted awesome instead of awful cause we baked it :P



#12
Almost missed this out,
day out with the R's on a Saturday (:
Went to Village Park nasi lemak with Pei, Angeline, HuiEn & HuiXian
Watched them ate their food  while they're bombing me and pei *potong much *

Then, Angeline drove us around the whole uptown just to get a parking lot,
we couldn't decide where to go and ended up at iforgotwhatshop :P
Had some desserts and continued our conversation,
Ann Yee joined in after that and we went Wondermilk

Took lots of random selfies with pei,
then have some small little chat before I left,
Wonderful afternoon spent with them though :D


#13
Meet up with bun and Nicole several days after the baking session,
Touched that bun made it all the way from her place,
Went Lavender for an afternoon tea,
The food is nice but fancy and expensive at the time :3

Updated them regarding my current state at that time,
had some leisure talk ranging from their medicine course
to teasing bun to future evil plans and many more
Short but splendid time spent! (:

Bun passed me the not-to-be-opened letter,
or I should name it as the crying enhancer :P
Took photo and have a small chat with Nicole's mum,
and off we go :')




#14
18th of September --> Exciting much day
Went out early in the morning with gor,
He sent me to Taylor's Subang before he went to uni,
Walked up and down from Inti to Taylor's while waiting for HaoLu,
I bet the guard was wondering what am I doing there :3

Met up with KahMun at McD,
then Zech and HaoLu turned up later on (:
Went to have quite a heavy breakfast,
had the usual talk which old friends had:P
Despite that they have a really huge interest while the topic is regarding some video games and also parking issues around their uni * i found it funny, idk why *

See Yee turned up when we almost finished our breakfast,
didn't get to stay long with them since I gotta meet KaiSong :3
Walked SeeYee back to get his car with HaoLu,
but it got clamped ._.
So we accompanied him till he settled the case
I felt so bad though ._.

Then meet up with KaiSong and pei heh (;
We ended up at Shakespeare's again after being so indecisive on what to eat
Saw Bei-Zhen and shuu when we got in!
So surprised to see them heheh :D

Ate while talking nonsense with the two r
and taking random selfies with pei too :3
Got the email and phone call that I'm gonna fly to UK the next morning,
bravo much, went over to inform shu after that
and everyone was like "WHAT?! " ._.

Went to Sunway with pei and JingWei after that,
Met up with bubu, JiaLee and HsienLoong,
Went to Sushi Zanmai if I am not wrong,
and the 'when old friends meet' talk starts all over again :P

Waited for gor's class to end,
and he literally couldn't find where I was,
so the whole bunch of them walked me to meet him up,
and he's my photographer again to take group photos :P

*rewind back *
Talking about gor being my photographer again,
here's another meet up that I left out :P
There was an unplanned meet up with miemer and HaoLu,
I forgot what happened that leaded to miemer fetching me from my health check

Anyway, funny much unplanned meet up,
Headed to Zen * if I'm not wrong again :P *
because he said it's his shop lol,
HaoLu joined in after that which I don't even know how he came

Got zat again by the two,
but I think I have get used to it,
waited for gor to send me back again,
and he couldn't locate where I was again :P

So I took the big X-ray I have got,
and walked through the crowd in Sunway ._.
Then there he is,
being my so not professional photographer *peace*

Back to the reality of hectic life I have had after all the meet ups,
daddy took leave to ensure my luggage is well packed,
Realized that my luggage is overweight even without weighing scales,
unpacked and repacked for so many times till I was exhausted.

Was on the edge of breaking down when it's almost 1am,
Too many emotions that are munching me up.
Not to mention the chaos before checking in my luggage on the 19th early morning,
and now daddy got a weighing scale at home HAHAHAHA
* I shall have another post by starting from the 19th *

Not even sure whether I have missed anything out :3
But as a conclusion,
a not so fully used yet hectic post A-levels life I have had before uni starts.


Appreciate that I get to spend more time with family,
especially a long awaited family vacation,
really enjoyed the one week time spent in Japan,
made two photobooks so yea not gonna be long winded here :3

Happy to being able to go for a walk in Bukit Kiara,
to not being isolated with the past years anymore,
to be able to cook some simple things as lunch.
to have lunch with mummy and many many more :')

Relieved that I was able to go back to Kedah too during late May,
Didn't expect that I will be missing the CNY celebration at that time ._.
Spending time with popo in the kitchen was heart-warming,
and glad that she came down to KL before I left :')

throwback since i didn't update :P
#marchperformance

Spent sometime to be back to dancing classes again,
and to touch my electone which is full of dust,
not to mention how I have lost some of my flexibility,
and being so lost in the class ._.
* I forgot half of my chord progression too :( *

Glad to be able to meet some of the high school mates up too,
although I have missed quite a lot of their gathering,
and am thankful that I have been given helping hand when I was so lost,
indeed, I treasure them a lot :')
*hope I didn't missed out any*

These sums up my long awaited holidays during A-levels,
Another 3 months break in 5 months time,
I shall fully used them this time * I hope*
Can't wait to be home <3 nbsp="" p=""> Semester 2 starts later in the morning,
I shall focus back on my studies again,
Screwed my first sem consolidated paper,
I shall work towards a improvement and do my best ! (:

Monday, January 12, 2015

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 1:43 AM 1 comments
I'm so sorry,
But i really have to express all my bad emotions out here.

I seriously can't take this anymore,
I do not know what else can I do to make this situation better.
Reading all the lecture notes again and again,
but nothing goes into my mind

I feel like tearing up after doing that
so horrible online test.
It's less than 21 hours till I need to step in the hall,
to put in all my effort and time I have spent
to face the computer that eats me up
or eventually makes me into a zombie  

It just doesn't make sense,
I'm a past year freak,
it's not because I like to do them,
but it's where I can learn where I am weak at,
to learn which part I did not gain the correct or sufficient understanding.

But here it is,
2 papers without answers.
What do you want me to do with it?
To finish it and tell myself
' You got everything right, no problem anymore '
BUT NO THIS IS NOT THE FACT T.T

It's an integrated paper,
to cramp in all 4 modules.
It's a good way to train us to apply all the knowledge we had,
but I seriously can't take this anymore.
It's just the first year first semester

I keep telling myself that as long as I do my best.
But the devil in my head keep telling me that,
You must do well if not you are screwed for all 4 modules,
you are dead, you are so going to fail everything -.-

So what now?
Take a small break,
and go back to the piles of papers,
to continue to stress myself up.

Whatever it is,
I hope it doesn't turn up horrible in tomorrow's real exam
Wishing all the best and all is well for tomorrow.
Well angel said as long as you do your best.

Friday, January 2, 2015

二:五

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 7:50 AM 0 comments

十,九,八,七,六,五,四,三,二,一
‘新年快乐!’
此话此起彼落,
身旁的人都兴奋不已

跨年,
新的一年,
另一个说法是,
另外一天

或许,
心底深处还有些期盼,
期盼着一天比一天快乐,
一天比一天接近梦想,
但事实终究不是如此

新年前夕,
飞机上,房间里,工作处,空屋里,
是个怎样的境况,
还是为未来而牺牲?

一直算计着时间,
尝试着微笑,
却始终掩盖不了心中的担忧,
还有永无止境的罪恶感

又或许,
看望着环绕在身边的
又熟悉,又陌生的他们
还是温暖的

回顾2014年,
心里头有太多的感触,
一切的一切都来得太突然,
其中还有许许多多的误会仍然为解除
更参杂了好多的滋味

2015年,
期许大家幸福,平安,快乐
也盼望自己在学习、健康、人际的提升,安好 (: