Unglaublich Genial

It's 12 in the midnight

And I am here (:

The reason is I am too hyper since yesterday

very very hyper :D

Could not attend musical night 

planned to finish my music stuff

but ended up having a super awesome spamming 

with Michelle (: 

Yet, memories flooded in my mind again

Days studying hard together

Moment that we being crazy together (":

Now a new legacy has started

Friends being busy with curriculum

The Form 5's and 3's busy with academic

It is like a Ferris wheel, 

Goes round by round (:

Too many things happened in this few month

And I hope it will come to an end as soon as possible

In order to let me take a breath (:

And there is another thing bugging me ):

Take exam or not?

I don't want to take the risk ):

Is either November or next June

And I am still not prepared yet ):

I don't want to fail ):

Motif , improvisation and sight reading 

Was like Oh my God

Take or not? :(

Ehehe (:

Next week going to Famine 30 

Hope to have a great experience (:

And erm

I also hope mummy allow me to go the activity on Sunday :D

Owh ya!

Next Monday is holidayyyy !

Gor gor envies me for this d:

Must plan my day properly (:

I got new aim! ehehe

I will try to achieve that :D

The seventh month has started :O

So uhm I want to sleep now!

Bye everyone! 

* Bruno Mars - Today my life begins *

The fray ;)

I might sound crazy (:
I might seems abnormal
But I know what I really want :)

I might lose some respect or greetings
I might be a nobody
But I don't mind (:

I swear I have no regrets on the decision made by myself (:
And I am now carefree * Whee! *

Bye bye awesome readers :D

Music Speaks (:

bibobibo (:
Is Wednesday already :(
I don't like days after Wednesday every week
Cause is too busy for me (:

Nowadays kept rushing for tuition homeworks
Missed too many lesson and got to catch up
and is not more than 2 months to exam
I didn't realise this until teacher mentioned it :"(

Nowadays kept talking with mummy (:
Listening her telling me all the childhood stories
Seeing her flipping through the photo albums <3

I want to become a small kid again :D
No one is going to scold me for doing nothing
I can do anything I like * hehe*

Recently being very deep in thoughts
Always thinking about many things (:
I might seems to be emoing but I am not :D

I really missed Kai Song :P
Especially having a non-physical chat with her
I miss her annoying sounds and actions
Although I used to give her a hatred look when she disturbed me :")

This is a total random post d:
Off to meet with motif :)

Jia you Eshennnn! You will never walk alone <3

Sharing is caring :D

Always smile and silence at the right time (:

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Cute :D

Smile (:

Tumblr quotes are awesome (:

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bubu (:
I just feel like coming here
I don know why (:
This will be a random post d:

Yesterday was super duper busy
Stayed back then tuition and then tuition ):
I feel like stop 2 of my tuitions now
One of it mummy said depends on
Another one I am still considering d:

I don't know what will be the consequences for not going
I can't said that I didn't learn anything
But I was very tired on Friday
since Thursday is always the busy day for me

I am trying very hard to keep myself awake
Doing things to distract me
Listening to people gossips when writing karangan d:
But all I felt was I am not concentrating d:
*skip*

My brain is again flooded with bad memories
Whenever a few people reminded me about the same thing
Those memories will be popping out
It's a cycle that I really hate it ):

To be clear to friends, seniors and teachers who are concern to me (:
I really thank you all for approving my ability
Telling me that I was the good ones
And telling me to gambateh
I appreciated it (:

But please stop asking me the same questions
telling me that some other people felt so and so
and of course not to ask me to be happy -.-

I am very happy for who I am now (:
I don't care about it
cause i had a very disgusted memories on those things
I do not want to have another try anymore
So, I am satisfied now (:

Owh, 4S1 (:
I really got fed up with some of you ):
I do not want to feel that
But I just got that feeling

I know that you all like to make fun of teachers
But still there is a limit (:
Taking things without permission
Making teachers to be angry everyday to the whole class

This is really BAD ):
We all want to have a nice and cheerful environment to study (:
And not teachers came in and scold us everyday
If we all want to make our class proud and famous
Let it be famous in a positive way instead of negative (:

Sometimes is not that I can't see or hear anything
I just don't want to know it
Please don't ever make me feel awkward (:
I want to be a normal student who learn in class
not against anyone of you (:

I really missed 2/3A5
Even though not everyone of us being very close to each other
At least we seems to like a big family
Have fun, have punishments together (:
I really hope that S1 will be another A5
cause i really missed all the memories we had :")

Whatever it is
I am hungrryyyyy :P
Nowadays feel super hungry *hehe*

Delala (:
Got to stop crapping here d:
Vale * goodbye*
*wave*
:D

Gino =D

Whee!
Had a very superb friday and saturday (:

Flash back for friday first :D
Not in class for whole day again
Went to interact with the Tanjung Sepat prefects (:

Scribbling on Jordan's minit mesyarat book d:
wrote something very very funny!
Wan and zhao drawing pigs,
writing funny comments
and made us laugh like mad :D

Wan also got addicted to

" grandmother likes *something*

  grandmother doen't like *something*

  Does grandmother like *something* "

I still can't get the logic in it :O

Sharing experiences with them
made me feel very lucky to be in CHS (:

Stayed back for YE production
and i skipped tuition d:
talking craps in SLAD meeting.
Went to production super late *hehe*

And beans again *sighs*
luckily there is people around for me to talk with
if not i will really got frustrated d:

reached home at about 9.30.
mummy was there nagging me for staying back so late in school :P

SATURDAY SATURDAY :D
what a hectic day!

reached empire at the nine something
setting up booth for grand sale (:
walked around all the booth for 4th time with different shirts d:
Super proud of our own product!

Persuading customers to buy something was really hard
I have to repeat many times the same phrases to different customers
and 1 or 2 of them might be buying :O
But some of them got pawned by some of the achievers d:

went to mun's house for a rest (:
and Gino doesn't bark at me anymore :D

Next stop: Bon Odori
The crowd there was really scary
and stuffs sold there was very expensive :O
Saw many friends there (:

It was more like picnicking there (:
And once again Hao Lu made me did something crazy again -.-
kind of fake dancing at the end with all the crowds
and the "roller coaster" by zhi jie
made me said the most sorry ever -.-

Went back to school waiting for mun's bro
The darkness in school made me thought of 2009 Teachers Day
Made a Oscar which looked more like a Christmas Tree
Took nap on the floor with seniors *ouch*

Overnight at mun's house (:
Having girls' talk while doing homework (:
Finished most of the homework there *yay*

Stayed up till 4 :P
Felt super sleepy and left Eshen and mun.

Sunday was very miserable :(
Woke up with sore throat
Went home and got tortured by my stomach -.-
Fever and headache
" Awesome !"

And i haven't collected my donations yet ):
Did not work on it for too long
and thursday is the dateline. :"(

And RMAMA dumped me :(
nevermind, she will bring me story :P

Ciao~

Over the days (:

bibobibo d:

Yesterday was report card day

Daddy came at 8 something and waited me till 9 something

sorryyyyy (:

Teacher kept on telling daddy that i am not weak -.-

She told him i should make everything up one more grade

Most epic thing is that

daddy helped her to complete a sentence by a word MALAS ):

Luckily she said i was not d:

Daddy,

U promise me not to say anything

bad or good , you will just listen 

U broke ur promise d:

But nxt year you might not have chance to take from me ad *hehe*

Mummy said she wants to see how bad the teacher is :D

Well... 

I needed one mark to achieve 80 ):

Actually I improved in most of the subjects

just Phy and Bio drop like don know what d:

For teacher's comment

I was thinking who will not love to have better grades?

Blah d:

Yesterday was the first time i stayed so late on report card day

Seeing all the face expressions of students and parents

is super fun d:

I even heard one of the parents saying 

" I very scare. Is ur class teacher fierce ?"

HAHA. Super super funny :D

Stayed back for ye production.

Is quite boring though ):

But grand sales is coming up

Quite excited for it :D

And here is a letter for my dear stomach (:

Dear stomach (:

           I know you have been working for 15+ years. But since the 10th year, you are giving me so much problems. Unbearable problems ): I don want stomache! Why are you torturing me? I am good enough to you. I don't eat spicy, bitter and sour things. I did not even like to eat those internal organs of the animals! Treat me well , pretty please (:

Yours faithfully,

Kai Qian 

Ciao~

Not my day

Well...
Today was totally a disaster
Woke up earlier than usual
but ended up late for school -.-

First time getting late was totally embarrassing  ):
Standing out there was not really weird
But asking me to sit down with my blazers on
and sitting on the road was totally a NO!

Well...
Uncle car broke down -.-
No one is awake in my house
So have to follow my friends to school

But if people did not give me that kind of look
and gave me a smile after i nod after their
" are you late ? " questions
I won't feel so bad right?

Sawing the juniors,seniors and teachers looking at you
asking you the same questions
and at the same time did not hear the explanation ):
I feel super bad!
And some of my friends even asked what happen to me
cause i did not raise that flag -.-

I wanted to
But i were not allowed to in -.-
Even i wanted to stand up
Is also a no ):

Fine...
Another time i got late because of my dear transporter
I won't know what i will do to him d:

Indeed,
I got scolded by several people for no reason ):
I knew you were all in a bad mood
So am I.
So don't spilt all your anger to me
this is super unfair ):

And I kept falling down today -.-
I don know what is my problem
Twice from stairs, once was when walking
How weird :O
And several times were almost fall down -.-
This is very very abnormal!

The haze is back ):
I am going to let mummy & daddy nag again d:
I will drink as much as i can
I promise (:
And daddy please don do what you did last year this wednesday again d:
Thank you!

Today is going to end :D
Tmrw will be a good good day * whee*
Ciao~

He found me :D

So , I am back!

(: d: =D ;) c; ^^ :D xP

Out of control

I can't fake a smile anymore
Not even a small positive curve on my face

The angel & demon is fighting in my mind today
I can't bear with it
Every words seems to like a sword to me
No matter a joke or whatever
It is the same for me

I am totally out of control
I always said that it will be a nice day tmrw
But it will never be ):

My tear glands is too hardworking
And totally out of control
I am trying very hard to concentrate on other things
But i failed !

I don't feel like go to school
Cause something will made me cry eventually
I have been shedding my tears since the last 2 period till now
I don't know what is my problem ):

To you who are concerned to me
I really wanted to thank you
Giving me emblazonment , appreciation
And letting me know that I am capable and so on
And a hug from you  is really nice (:

I knew that what you told me was true
You said that is was a waste
You don't understand why
I don't understand why too...
But I don't mind (:

But telling you that i don't mind
and you told me that
I can't said i don't mind
cause I am capable and you felt pity for me

You are telling me the truth
which is the differences in it
and since that the angel n demon is fighting in my head
I can't concentrate on anything
I really broke down
I never knew what I am doing now ):

A phrase " good for you" and a word " thank you"
Have been spinning in my head
is like one demon and angel
trying to kick their opponent out

There is too many things happen at once
I don't want anyone to ask me the same few questions anymore
I am tired of it
Why can't I be the one to have a simple life?

I really need distractions
I need someone to pull me out from this swirl
I can't have a life like this ):

And to you who have eyesight problem
GET A LIFE !

I have to go to calm myself down
And if you felt I am totally out of control
Leave here and don't get in my swirl (: