We Belong Together (:

peekaboo!

didn't update for so long despite things that i wanna tell rmama and daddy (:

well,

sports day have came to an end last saturday (:

the very last sports day,

and indeed a special an memorable one (":

folding roses, painting petals,

adjusting the butterfly's head,

writing scripts for marchers and deco,

practice with yuning they all,

all these weren't what i did for the past few years,

and yet i did them all at once :D

first time felt so nervous before running,

kept breathing in and out, heh (:

then relay was actually quite fun :D

and am happy enough to get the 4th, heeee ;)

am also being lucky enough to meet kai song :D

but this girl has become even skinnier and yet taller,

rflamingo, eat more!

and nice to meet you, heh ;)

last sports day,

need not run here and there under instructions,

walk here and there freely,

ate ice cream with friends after events,

cheering for merah and classmates,

awesome much :D

Red house, 805 and buddies, heh (:

sports day (:

then then, monday was *thumb down*

first time felt so scared and lost,

was like suddenly i knew no one in the school,

everyone in school were strangers,

no one picked up my phone,

and i felt like i could not go home anymore ):

walked up and down,

from public phone to public phone,

and each of them spoilt one by one,

cursing my ownself with tears drowning out,

rubbing works over and over again,

that's was the first time i felt so hopeless

the only buddy's phone number that i remember was rmama's

kept  phoning and phoning until she picked up,

but luck was not with me and the phone just showed low battery and it died off,

and that was when i felt like the whole world was bullying me

she was cute enough,

to phone back the public phone :D

and of course no one picked up,

but i really laughed when khai qi said

no wonder the phone kept ringing yesterday :D

still, thank you pei (:

and a really big big big thank you to 

my big panda gor gor and ms shirlena (:

I wouldn't know when i will stop crying,

i doubt my maths book will be like a rubbish after that,

and i wouldn't know what is going to happen next.

zhen de hen xie xie ni men san ge (:

Yesterday assembly was quite fun, heh (:

talked all the way with becca,

not listening to any of the announcement d:

agree-ing with this and that which we'll rarely tell anyone else,

laughing with all the funny stuff, heh 

and is actually quite fun to ignore everything, heeee :D

then pjk period was totally boring :/

am good at running away from ball,

so it seemed like everytime the ball came towards my direction,

my reaction will make everyone laughed d:

rach and yuning were playing outside of the toilet yesterday

seriously super funny and i can't stop laughing d:

then the others just took away other people bags,

playing with handprints, heh (:

okay, stop for now (:

i really wish that no more nightmares,

lesser decision to be made which i really can't predict what will happen in the future,

lesser lies from people cause am really tired of it,

and i must be happy and have a big wide grin all the time =D

tata (:

The story of a panther (:

Gonna tell a story again, heh (:

once upon a time,

a panther just hop into a city,

the twins of the pink panther d:

but the panther was in black :D

hop hop hop,

hop into the class of 2a5 :D

then the panther met a bunch of hf people (:

and got a name called the rpanther, rp :D

then, the panther got a company,

the 3d-ps company,

which is like so dead now d:

at least haven bankrupt yet, heh (:

then a r-family is formed (:

the panther got lots of child,

and most of all there is a hf rchild x)

the panther is called the rmama, heh (:

didn't know why,

the panther has now tranformed

and becoma a hl, mxw and sy x)

but still the panther is still the hf rchild rmama :D

okay la,

to that rmama, rpanther, hl de rp and many many more,

thank you for being such a good friend (:

the one and only one i can talk whatever rubbish,

with no limits and all the freedom (:

your happy and go lucky style really cheers up lots of people around you (:

with all the splashed or ice,

hf rpills and many many more (:

too awesome :D

mant things don know how to express them out here,

cause i don't used to use all the formal way to talk to you,

very qi guai you know, haha :D

But still, 

all the best,

stay happy and stay pretty (:

eat more so that wnf wont say that wind blow jiu fly x)

Happy Birthday Pei Pei x)

accept the panther up there, hahahahaha :D

say hi to dino :D

don't ever give me dino as sm

TREAT THE DINO WELL :D

The only one (:

It's daddy day (:

time to say things i will not say out literally again d:

typical me, heee (:

well,

i knew i just have rows with you for one whole week -.-

but seriously I don't mean it,

and you don't mean it too (:

the way you talk always seems to be not so friendly,

i knew that but,

i just can't stand the tone of it,

cause am not a person with good temper too :/

gosh, just so sorry about that 

seldom spent my time with you 

since I am small,

used to have lunch and dinner with you everyday

but not anymore,

not even during sunday ):

just like every daddy,

you are like superman who doesn't know how to fly,

always helped me to sort out all the stuff for kh,

the electrical ones and the wood stuff (:

sent me here and there whenever you are free,

and even you are not free you'll try,

you took photos of me, gor and mummy,

during trips but never wanted to take one of yours,

it have been so long i never have a photo with you ):

too many things you have done,

i can't list all them out (:

i knew you really care about me,

drinking water is a really big issue for you,

i knew that and am trying very hard now to remind myself to drink more,

sometimes mummy ask why don't i get tired to hear all the reminders,

from person to person and through phone calls everyday

i just some how of getting use to it,

maybe is another way that daddy shows his care,

although he get tired and angry to do that everyday,

but I don't really feel that,

somehow i think i'll feel empty it just stop like that 

no matter what,
you're still my dearest daddy (:
Happy daddy day :D

The Lady and The Tramp (:

aloha (:
am back here again, heh ;)

well,
am very the tired,
I don't know why ):
Too many incidents happened due to my blur-ness d:
nevermind, am energetic enough now,
at least i think so d:

Teachers' day was boring enough,
despite a few interesting performance,
talked lots of craps with mun and zhao (:
is like back to form 2, heh ;)

then, miracles do happen (:
I managed to get one goal for basketball :D
never thought of that.
i thought the ball will just hit the board and come down,
but ended up it went in :D

i know it sounds ridiculous enough
to be so happy to get one goal,
but for me it is like miracle,
heeeee (:

then, exam results was as usual,
ruined some and did well in some of it,
seriously lots of careless mistakes,
and i doubt why i wrote so many words with a additional r in it -.-

anyway, got to work harder next time,
i mean as soon as i have got time to study,
energetic enough to study,
I think I'll start,
if not i would be so dead :/

and i really want to salute to all the head for deco,
i felt so very idonknowwhat'sthatword for being there for a short while,
I can't said it's boring, it's not tiring,
but the commitment and the time sacrifice for it,
is really like woah, so * salute *

then, ran for saringan this year,
with an intense muscle pain -.-
but at least is fun enough to run with the classmates :D
at least no one is going to isolate us,
cause the s1's is always together :D

two more events to go,
didn't really have hope on it,
but still will try my very best,
and make it a very memorable last sports day (:

by the way,
nightmares please go away (:
i have too many sleepless night already,
give me a sweet dream please (:

will update for shu's belated b'day post later on
stay tuned (:

raindrops (:

dido (:
last day of holidays (:
Lots of stuff happened,
and kinda fully used my holidays, heh (:

Painting days were over,
glad to see the junior having fun doing all the jobs,
cleaning, scrapping, drawing and painting (:
The way they used the paint,
kinda shocked and scared us d:

one bucket of paint can just finished in a blink of time,
is like even faster than drinking water :O
ended up taking a bus to oldtown,
and now i know where's oldtown, heee :D
walked all the way to a hawker stall,
bought paints and it used up 3 hours d:

First time saw people used sponge to paint -.-
and that was great for me to have my whole hands,
becoming so white and hi thinner :D
The feeling when the hands felt like burning,
and yet still could not get rid of those sticky paints,
ended up playing hand prints on newspapers :D

Saw people using thinner to clean the floor in new malls,
and gor was like laughing like mad :/
no wonder i felt a little not right with my hands,
not really sensitive with hot stuff anymore,
get well soon, dear hand (:

owh well,
i guess no more painting day for me anymore, heh ;)

finally sat down there again (:
never have such feelings before,
is like stress less and yet a little bit of unwillingness,
at least not much of fear ;)

I wouldn't agree,
If i have put it a stop,
it'll means i gave up,
I'll never agree, not even now (:

That was not a topic for now,
at least for now only (:
Maybe I'll dare myself one day,
to discuss about the topic (:

Bonded a little back with family (:
at least not that left out anymore,
from all the lifeless cycles,
I hope it's worth for me to keep going on (:

I believe June will be a tough one,
I can actually sense it,
from the weird dream I had,
am actually still figuring what does that mean, heeee
wish I can make through it (:

bai bai (:

莫名 (:

一张照片，
引发的是一场不可收拾的风暴，
内心的战争与争执，
脑海里再次波涛汹涌，
思绪再次被垄断

如果有一天，
真的真的可以跟一个很要好的朋友，
躺在一个绿草地上，
无边无际地东家长，西家短，
看着天空的星星，
不断地眨着眼睛，
慢慢地有着默契地静下来，
那种感觉应该会很好

这种心情，
那种心境，
因该很特别，

就像从手指间溜过的香油，
它即不会完全流失，
也不会保留在手指间，
留下的是那香气，
即使洗了几百遍，
那香味依然在那，
只不过香气逐渐淡化

早晨，
走进那人声鼎沸的小箱子，
脑里必然在挣扎着，
去或留
不怕寂寞，但惧尴尬
选择了当鸵鸟，
最终跑出了箱子

窗外放晴了。屋内仍继续下雨。我微笑。并不等于我快乐。我撑伞，并非只是为了避雨。

你永远都不懂我在想什么。我想拥抱每个人，但我得先温暖我自己，请容忍我。因为我已在练习容忍你。

我的心常下雪，不管天气如何。它总是突然的冻结，无法商量。

我望向繁花盛开的世界，固定缺席。我的心开始下雪，雪无声的覆盖了所有。

湮灭了迷茫，骄傲和哀痛。当一切归于寂静，世界突然变的清凉明朗。

所以，别为我忧伤，我有我的美丽。它正要开始

没有世界，
没有屋舍，
只有茅屋，
一个避风遮雨的破茅屋

不慎跌入窟窿中，
墨水四溅，
斑点狗顿时出现

不平凡，
怪奇特，
不善言，
口里涩

想要走回原点，
却烟雨蒙蒙，
一溜烟却出现无数的路口，
转左，转右，
最终停怠不前

永远做不到的就是，
忘记一切，
从头开始奋斗，
无论如何都会有洗不净的污垢

曾是不倒翁，
曾是个蛮横的小家伙，
却何时被磨练成，
水制的泥娃娃，
把所有所有都藏在尘土里

曾是竹林，
曾是魔术师，
却又何时演变成，
空心菜，豆腐花？

扭转乾坤，
是非黑白，
知己知彼，
总是一团糟

下一次，
祈祷的一定会是，
未知数 (:

To The Fair (:

heee (:
this picture reminded of my childhood (:
I don't know why,
it makes me thought of the small little me having fun time with mummy, hehe (:

Happy Birthday mummy =D

you were once so proud that you have the same birthday with agong
and this year is another you are having the big day with him d:

have been a long time didn't take photo with u,
but still nvm, i can see you everyday (:
I won't scare your looks will change,
cause you're always that young, heh ;)

not much thing to say cause i have say it all out for mothers' day post (:
still i hope you to be healthy and happy always,
no matter what, I'll always be there like you do :D

再次体会到，
决定没有对和错 (:

不管做了什么决定，
终究会得罪人，
所以最主要的还是
自己开心就好 ;)

一个人不会被每一个人喜欢，
也不会被每个人感到讨厌，
所以做会自己最好 (:

在绝望中，
总会有一丝微弱的光亮，
在反对声浪中，
总会有一群人在背后支持着你

理解一个人，
就像剥洋葱般，
总会让人流泪，
剥完了，
泪却还未停止

人生总会有许多巧合，
就像月食和日食的现象，
人生总会有意外的恶发生，
握在手里的风筝也会突然断了线，
随风飘去，
后续有一天你会在另一座城市找到它

那篇文章，
就像断了线的风筝，
没有去向，只能随风向而飘，
最终卡在大树上，
等待着另一阵风带它回家

围着圈圈，
一直兜着走，
没有方向，
看见路口却胆怯地往后退，
那时成人的做法，

有时候，
做会小孩子更好
没有所谓的害怕，
说做就做，
做错了换来的是哄堂大笑，
做对了心里也甜滋滋

打开心扉，
突破心理障碍，
不会如此罢休，
就算多么的不喜欢，
既然选择了坚持，
就要成功 (:

一块玉佩，
一个信心，
你，行！