Atlas (:

Bello (:

So here i am to write part 2 d:

The month of October and November were meant for exams,

the be more precise is that 2013 is the year of examinations ._.

The fear of facing AS was really haunting me,

how am I going to deal with all unsolved problems in such a short time.

Fortunately, the timetable was quite organized for my class,

at least we have break in between to prepare for each papers (:

Indeed i enjoyed doing past year more than doing homeworks,

all the physics assignments and maths are really drowning me.

Practical session are both fun and scary due to all the uncertainties,

and I don't know how should i describe the written papers,

Not going to imagine how my AS is going to be,

i shall just pray for all is well (:

Daddy and mummy went for vacation while i was left with 3 papers ._.

Though i get used to being alone at home,

but still I do really miss them, especially all the naggings,

okay i know I'm weird ._.

Counting down the days for them to be back,

cause i really need some sounds to cheer me up,

Things are running in my mind all the time,

but luckily there were exams to occupy me (:

I was also really glad to have a bunch of friends,

who remembered my big day,

spent some time to celebrate with me in the midst of exam or even after their classes,

and giving me,sooklynn and kawei a belated surprise (:

Mummy was even asking me,

why do i have so many birthday celebrations.

And as usual gor is saying that my birthday always lasted more than a month ._.

okay it's only true that it lasted one day kay (:

Not to mention all the awkward stuffs that had happened,

Am just going to simplify everything heh (:

Celebrated a early birthday with mun,bun, sooklynn and gary,

Went to Pepper's Lunch,

and i still don't like pepper cause they're too spicyy ._.

waited super long for bunnn and sooklynn to buy cakes,

and i was actually wondering why not we go together,

but  they were actually buying that for me ._.

Was a really lovely cake,

and they sang a really funny but warming birthday song :")

Then celebrated another one with the R's,

Read storybooks while waiting for Pei at the Popular,

Then went to meet up with Khaiqi, Shurui and miemer,

We ended up doing revision for exams together d:

And finally waiting for AMA to show up hehe :D

Went to buy a cake,

laughed so hard when the person packing up the cakes in front of me d:

Couldnt decide where to had our lunch,

so they brought me to KimGary for some reasons ._.

Flipped through the menu and ended up walked out from the restaurant _.

Loitering around and finally went to Manhanttan's

The waiter was dumbfounded when the four of us only ordered one set of meal.

But luckily we did that *peace* 

Their service was really (Y) and their food has a weird taste ._.

Went back to McD and tried to find a lighter.

In the meanwhile, all the plushies were put on the table ._.

The hf girraffes, bunny, kittys and gou gou :3

I wonder what the people around us would think haha d:

They sang me another funny but hearty birthday song,

and after eating the cakes,

the photosession with the plushies started :3

That;s all for the day heh (:

Next was the belated surprise for me, sooklynn and bunn with the s2's (:

Wanted to get the cake with sheauyunn,

when they were chasing after bunnn around d:

Didn't realize that sheauyunn is trying to keep me away ._.

Anyway settled down with bun and sooklynn at the agora after all the chasings,

and lam came down and started with all the plots which we believed ._.

Went back to class and saw the cake,

Trying to make bunnn stand around the cake,

Then that was the time sheauyunnn told me that what the animals on the cake indicate,

i was so blur and shocked which makes me looks funny :3

Viewed the video that lam make for sooklynn,

and luckily she didn't kill me for recording that particular video heeee :D

Then yea as usual the singing and cutting cakes part,

and owh thankyou xinjing for the really lovely card :")

So that summarizes my 18th birthday (:

Simple but touching :")

Despite all the celebrations from the lovely friends out there,

What makes me touched is that mummy wished me on time :")

I really teared a little that moment, 

That wished really meant a lot to me, xiexieni :")

Then, on the last day of AS Bio,

Went to celebrate bun early birthday with mun and gary (:

Unfortunately their refrigerator was spoilt ,

and bunnn couldnt get to eat her favourite cake ._.

Then went to watch frozen hehe :D

Me super duper like the movie,

all the melodious songs and cute character,

and not to forget how they try to show that sibling's love is a true love :")

So after all the exams and a 2 days break,

we were back to our normal lifeless routine ._.

Trying to cover up as many A2 syllabus as we can during the break,

and yea we have tons of extra classes :/

Yes, we are all careworn,

Trying to understand all the new stuffs taught and finished up all the works given,

But thinking of our future we know we got to sacrifice,

and I believe is worth to do so (:

Then finally,

we finally get to have a almost 3 weeks break before sem 3 starts (:

It has been since January since we really had a break,

and i actually don't know what it feels do have holidays anymore ._.

Okay, back to work (:

To be continue later with the meet ups with the s1 (:

*waves*

我需要一些人来为我指点迷津，

更希望有人能指导我说话的艺术。

Sugar Spice (:

aloha :D

hao jiu bu jian teehee (:

Have not been updating all the events happening.

all i did was treating this bloggie as my emotion rubbish dump ,

am so sorry for making you dull and boring,

i got to make you cheerful now heh (:

hmm, so right after concert and exams was the Midsummer Masquerade

Still remember it rained heavily in the afternoon,

The field was so muddy that we actually planned to skip the event d:

But everything still turned up well (:

The theme was something related to hawaiian,

We girls actually planned to wear the same dress,

but it turned up different groups of people wearing different kind of dress ._.

however i still had my minionnnn to wore the same one as mine heh :D

Reached there super duper early with sooklynn and mun,

awkward enough to see all the committee who were still having rehearsals when we reached ._.

Sat at the cafeteria chit-chatting and looking at all sorts of costumes people wore,

thumbs up for their creativity heh (:

Nothing much during the whole event as i was careworn to care what was happening,

kept viewing through all sorts of minions with sheauyunnn heh (:

And most of all was nominating Benjamin Yew as iforgotwhatwasit d:

All the cheering and screaming from the s2 was undeniably the craziest (:

Next was celebrating Xinjing, Chloe , Lisyuen, Puilam , Eugene , Jijohn and mun's big day

That was the day i lied the most in my life ._.

Trying to copy all the wished from bunnn's phone,

and ended up like i am trying to escape from getting caught ._.

Not to forget how did I fail to make Lisyuen from going up the room,

Never succeed in making good stories ._.

As they planned to give Chloe a surprise with the idea of blind date d:

I forgot how to whole thing went,

but it just ended up with all of us hiding below the table 

and sang her a birthday song when she stepped into the shop heh (:

It was quite a success as the 5 of them didn't really realize the celebration was for all of them heh (:

Then then was the outing to bookfest with the R's :D

Waited at the LRT station for almost 2 hours with storybooks as my companion,

Played with AMA and bunny when we were waiting for rmama :P

We tried to bluffed her that we weren't there yet and trying to made fun of her when she was on the way to the platform but we eventually failed and even got tricked ._.

Walked around to bookfest with the super fail human navigator,

brought us to the wrong way or even lost her way d:

Then loitered around KLCC& the park and went for lunch at Secret Recipe (:

Laughed so hard when the 3 of us didn't know how to take a group selfie.

Then went for icecream and sat down playing with bunny :3

I bet people around was wondering what were we doing there heh (:

Forced rmama to take photo with bunny,

and taking photo with bunny and AMA too heh (:

Returned back to taman jaya,

and went to pyramid to meet up with the s1 to farewell Peijie (:

Nobody wanna bring me up to where they were,

and i couldn't contact any of them after a few phone calls ._.

I knew i should stop trying to contact anyone anymore,

Fear was starting to engulf me and i was going to teared up any soon,

I didn't know what kind of feeling i was having at that moment,

But I tried to calm myself and continue to read my storybook on a bench ._.

Anyway I still managed to meet up with them in the end,

Had dinner and waited for long for zhijie to settle his problem ._.

Then went jingxian's house for a visit,

His dog was following me when i was walking alone at his garden ._.

Then everyone sat at the poolside,

chit-chatting and joking around

with Amanda and a few boys started swimming,

and the boys trying to wet each other :3

Wasn't really in a good condition that night,

all sorts of thoughts were drowning me,

I do not know how to tell the others what happened,

because it just happened that I can't tell everything to everybody or just anyone ._.

Anyway still being grateful to those who cheered me up,

am so sorry for being so emotional everytime,

I should learned to control myself,

I have to by hook or by crook (:

After this was celebrating my cute minionnn and the evil minon's birthday (:

Both of them put lots of effort in surprising each other,

first with the warm and hearty cake that minionnn made,

then with the good planning to make the whole surprise success

and the cream smashing event for Theva, Yunkai and Dylan (:

Before i forget,

Running around with the cake with candles lit,

scattered the marshmallow on the corridor,

and lighting up the candles behind a door which almost scared the person who coincidentally walked out from the door,

all these were the highlight of my day *peace* 

These weren't all the mess i made yet,

I failed to delay the time for them to prepare the surprise for sheauyunn too :/

Couldn't stand the mosquitoes biting me in the cubicle anymore,

and most of all i forgot to bring my phone with me to contact them ._.

Anyway she's still touched with dylan with a ribbon on his head,

singing her songs, the bouquet of flowers and most of all the effort he made heh (:

And not to forget the flower delivery man a.k.a Wenzhe d:

Owh, i must say something about the graduation day they had (:

It kind of motivate me more to study hard and smart to achieve my goal,

Cause it really feels good to graduate with satisfiation after all the effort we had put in,

So I shall not let myself down right? (:

Okay let me make this as Part I hehe (:

random much to list out all the birthday celebrations,

but i am trying to recall all the incident happened,

they are kind of a big event despite all the boring exams and homeworks i had ._.

Be back soon (:

Tata ! <3 div="" nbsp="">

翻。反

对不起，

真的无法让自己不去折磨自己。

与其说我害怕得不到别人的肯定，

倒不如说是自己也对自己起了疑心。

心中的不安，

仿佛汪洋一般，

一波未平一波又起，

脑里想的，

更是深不可测。

迷茫的前方，

迷路的羔羊，

我该如何从自个儿的牢房解救出自我，

心智在何时才能成长？

Prayer (:

I'll pray hard,

really hard that my prayers could be heard (:

I want you to be well,

and that is all i want (:

默默地为你祈祷，

希望您一切安好，

健康，快乐，

幸福，安康  (:

诚。孝

走在大街上，

总会觉得自己的身影好孤独。

有时候总爱胡思乱想，匪夷所思，

却殊不知是自己多虑了

纵然世事不是那般美好，

但只要仔细地往身后一看，

就会发现其实还有好多人的关照，

所有逆耳之言也只不过是出自于内心深处

要学会宽容，谅解

也要知道聆听，微笑

更要拥有一颗赤子之心，以诚待人

最重要的是懂得惜福，感恩 (:

忘了那个承诺吗？(:

好想回到过去，

一个让我有归宿感，又安全感的地方

每个早晨都有一群让我把烦恼抛诸脑后的朋友，

无厘头的炮轰也莫名地让我好想念，

课室里有着一群让我哭笑不得的同学，

能与我分享心事，一起哭，一起笑的同桌

下课后一起在人烟稀少的食堂里用餐说笑，

出了差错一定有一群人挺身而出，

放学后也有一群人陪我一同走出校门口，

回到空荡荡的家至少还有人隔空与我分享课堂里的趣事

考试时大家互相加油打气，

一起在课室外苦读、温习

还有好多好多的时刻都让我好怀念

有时候觉得自己就像在一个孤岛，

没有船只的停留、没有生命的足迹，  

就算在那儿不停的挥手求助也不会被发现

身旁有好多的利器，无人敢靠近，

心中的那朵曾茂盛的花朵也逐渐跟着生存的信念而凋零

不曾浇过水，因为害怕不知水的分量而导致它突然凋零

从站着到弯下身子，费尽了好多力气，

当我弯下的身子逐渐失去了支柱而蹲了下来，是窒息的感觉，

需要重获那生存的信念，让自己重新站起，

曾想过好多的为什么，但却从未获得让自己满意的答案

有时候宁愿与世隔绝，做一个什么也不知道的笨蛋，

因为知道的事实越多，心里就少一份快乐,

宁愿一个人行走，除去许多的假情假意，

但这个社会，这个世界不允许。

喜欢沉默，因为没有多少人能让我敞开心扉，

因为这个世界是充满着谎言的地带

心凉了半截，口里说的朋友大多都是莫须有，

因为当你真正有难时，你终究发现真正的朋友是自己

一朝被蛇咬，十年怕草绳，

已经不知道是否还有人能让我信任。

"有些人的一生，是直达车。有些人却是慢车，中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人。

有人总是下错站，坐过头，不是错失了窗外的风景，就是错过了身旁的人。

我不在乎坐上那一辆车，只想知道，能陪我坐到终点站的人，究竟是谁。"—— 张小娴

谧，秘

犹如微风吹拂着水面一般，

掀起的涟漪未入眼帘，

瞬间一切又如往常般地平静安谧，

但无奈水中波涛汹涌般的怒吼却仍然未能平复，

可又有谁能看透，去安抚？(:

厥

因为从来就没有人了解真正的我需要的是什么