月光 (:

aloha (:

there's lots of happening in these few weeks

making my life lifeless but hectic,

and i shall be grateful for everything (:

The lungs and throat are being naughty again,

almost cough my lungs out these few days -.-

honey lemon doesn't help,

and now am hoping that the maduka do works ._.

I shall start my plan to sleep earlier now,

though i guess it'll be kind of fail d:

But I shall give a try,

for the sake of my health (:

Last saturday was Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang,

went back to get the trophies and certs (:

there's so little s1 ppl showed up 

and the outing plan is like so fail ._.

talked all the way long during the ceromony,

and not to forget zat-ing each other as usual d:

went up the stage for thrice,

and smiling awkwardly at the camera while helping becca and mun to receive the trophies ._.

Talked to Pn Hoon as she approached us,

congratulated us and started to comment on the pelajar cemerlang.

the whole thing ended up funnily

as she approached kuokren and take a close look at him d:

Before i forgot,

Had my first google plus talk with the s1, heh (:

I have no idea what we were doing,

but it's still fun :D

Then then,

Sunday test really made me nervous ._.

the CD ain't working and luckily Angie chose the same song as me 

if not am really in deep trouble ._.

Did well for the first and second part,

but screwed the third part :(

Anyway am still satisfied with the results,

at least i tried my best and get to know my mistakes (:

Driving test is just few hours away ._.
am pretty nervous right now.
I hope that lady luck will shines on me,
pretty pleaseeee (:

Next,

Tuesday was so gloomy after the meeting,

everything just happened too fast,

is like a tornado sweeping all the earthlings away,

and leaving all the stuff to be cleared up 

The changes in Edexcel board,

are too fast without a long time interval notice and thus unfair.

I really lost my compass in the alevel path that day

and had a really hard time considering to leave or not ._.

Things didn't really go well on the day after that,

the girls were crying early in the morning and throughout the maths lesson

the atmosphere was so gloomy,

cause everyone was asking the same question "are you leaving? "

This issue became better when the ceo called for another meeting,

some people decided to stay on,

but still there is people decided to leave :(

Indeed it's true to say that,

the leaving of valerie, nicole, uva and brandon did make me sad ._.

i feel even sad than leaving the high school friends,

which I have no idea why ._.

It's been 4 months,

I have never been in a class as bonded as the s2,

indeed this is a truth that,

we are feeling sad cause we are too attached.

Unlike the others,

we went for every classes together,

is like back to high school,

it's more like a family than a class :")

we shared everything,

no matter through people or through class page.
everyone in there are selfless,
I can really said that they are really good :")

真的好不舍得他们，
从陌生人到挚友，
短暂的四个月，
承载的却是心头上永远美好的回忆 :")

如浮萍般的人生里聚散无常
但茫茫人海中，
就算无法携手与时光流逝，
擦肩而过也算是缘分 (:

千言万语涌上心头，
脑海里存有的是无数还未一同携手走过的旅途，
一个暖心的拥抱，
还有好多好多温馨的话语

少了他们的日子，
真的会好奇怪，
各个角落都烙印着他们的脚印，
有着他们漂亮的倩影 (:

无论在何方，
总有一种默契叫心照不宣，
无论距离有多远，
回忆会让人彼此相连

桃花谢了又在开的时候，
杨柳枯了有在青的时候，
燕子飞了有归返的时刻，
咱们也将有在聚的一天 (:

再见不是再也不见，
它是有缘再见，
衷心献上那小小的祝福，
祝愿大家前程似锦，
一同编制同一个梦

谢谢你们在这些日子里，
与我共同建立了
清淡却香醇如茶的友谊，
我将慢慢地品茗这壶好茶 :")

Spring (:

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breeze (:

i have no idea what is happening to my EQ again

can't i just control my emotion ._. 

everything is so wrong now,

my thoughts are totally negatively charged :/

i do really have to keep them in a safety box,

pleaseeeee control yourself, pretty please (:

p/s: bunny and gougou meet up made my day <3 nbsp="" p="">

东北 (:

墙角下那朵平凡的花，

黯然无光，

但当有一天它被发现的时候，

他仍然平凡却平凡得非凡脱俗

它拥有的是无价的坚持与毅力

不要喧张自己付出多少，

默默付出既是贡献，

不需渴望得到多少的回报

问问自己可以付出多少，

毋需得到成千的赞赏，

偶然的嘉许更为珍品(:

昨天那堂课，

领悟的道理甚多。

需在这条道路上继续加油，

好好的作出改变 (:

一星期的时间，

基本，韵律，身韵，

歌曲，编排，融合

加油！ (:

茫 忙 (:

dido (:
Semester exam has finally ended,
I guess i found a new third law pair x)
sem exam screwed me, i screwed sem exam *yay*

Sir asked how's the paper,
and I really had a hard time what to reply him ._.
I screwed and that means i am going to disappoint him again :/
I knew saying sorry and try harder next time is not a good reply,
but that's the only thing i can say
at least not to disappoint him that much ._.

The feeling after the very first paper ,
that was the most terrible feeling i have had,
that's a feel of guilt,
I had to emphasis that apology can't make any change,
because what is done is done ._.

I knew what was happening,
but i ain't going to say, maybe never ._.
I shall get over this as soon as I can,
and find the old me back again (:

Well,
back to the 21st of march (:
that was the judgement day,
and indeed a tiring but happy day (:

Reached chs super duper early,
walked around the school compound,
contributed something to the boards of prefects,
and finally sat down and rushed for maths homeworks -___-

Wasn't feeling nervous at first,
started to feel butterflies in the stomach while waiting for stats,
ended up walked around the school compound with AMA
while everyone was in the hall d:

Listening to all the stats was scary enough,
analyzing each of them with karen,
scaring ourselves by calculating the probabilities,
and making ourselves even nervous ._.

was the fifth to get the precious slip,
saw jiachi showing a thumbs up while walking forward
but i was too nervous to figure out who was she signalling to ._.

Was happy enough to see my slip,
felt funny when i figured out which was the one
that made my slip looks a little not nice d:
don't ask me why is it that subject,
I bet is because i live in the present and not the past d:

Hugged shanna out of happiness,
and called mummy as i walked out (:
I have no idea why was i so emotional when i went to find pn hoon to thank her ._.
But i was really grateful for all her guidance and encouragement (:

went to s1 outing,
which they said that it was my first very outing with them -.-
ended up had lunch seperately with the s1,
and went for porridge with qinyi and zhixin d:

was great to meet them up again (:
despite the fact that,
they are no longer calling my name,
but calling me xiaohaizi ._.

Then went for haagen dazz
with the two hl(s), letheng and hongfatt (:
thank you rmama for the treat :D
and thankyou bigfatpanda for sending me home (:

Great day with the great ones (:
Not to forget everyone who have aided me in these 5 years,
thankyou for having faith in me when i had lost my confidence.
and thank you pn.chee for giving me a really warm and hearty hug :")

Next was the annual treasure hunt of MCKL (:
pairing up with the cutest AMA,
started being r ever since at the registration counter,
and laughed all the way long heh (:

went to the wrong registration counter,
and forgot what's our group name,
thought it was carrot bunny,
but ended up it was candilliant d:

Walked around the route,
without having much idea what's the answer,
drawing the "easy" logo,
and laughing at random stuff d:

Too r that we almost got bang by a bus._.
no idea where the monorail to go hang tuah,
walked all the way back to the opposite direction,
got kind of got bluff by the one minute left thing ._.

Then then,
the fun part was the almost one hour time in times square :D
taking our own sweet time to play the music stairs,
walking up and down when there is no people passing by, heh (:
I shall play a song there if i get the chance to get there again :D

Sitting all the way back during both opening and closing ceremony,
cause we need wind to cool us d:
talking random stuff with xinjing,
while ongboonpuah was giving speech d:
was a great experience after all (:

After that was the filming of moral video,
which was due 2 days after treasure hunt ._.
we are absolutely doing last minute work,
as the 3 of us had been overthinking previously ._.

Thinking of suitable storyline,
which does not need costumes and could be capture in the college compound,
and eventually our storyline was super duper limited,
and it was related to studies again ._.

Due to lack of time,
started to film with a draft without a complete ending d:
Took lots of fail shots in the beginning
as we cant resist from laughing d:

The whole filming was done in within 4 hours,
and it was around 6 by that time ._.
Was really into it that i wasn't feeling tired,
until i got home and became a sleepy head ._.

Really wanna thanks to people who helped us out (:
xinjing, gary, eunice and mrchung :')
We would have been into big trouble
if they did not lend us a helping hand ._.

Met up with mun and yanyee the other day at 1u,
transferring video clips, discussing both homeworks and video d:
discussed all the important stuff to put in it,
and did last minute intro with a really noisy background

Video editing was the most tiring part,
spent 8 hours or  more just for one video which is about 10 minutes long ._.
have not been facing editor for such a long time ever since the animation competition ._.

Had been putting lots of efforts in it,
though the production was really not good :/
The moment when the programme told me that it was unable to save and there is errors and data lost,
was really going to be really mad ._.

was 4 something in the morning,
and if it is really unable to save my precious work there,
i would really cry my lungs out ._.
But luckily my prayer did work, heh (:

Though it was tiring,
but at least all the NG video was making my work more cheerful (:
It was also good to have people to be with me the whole night,
at least i know that i am not alone (:

Everything was done by the time of 5 in the morning,
uploading to youtube and saving the files was the most 'exciting' part
sending the files through email at such an odd hour
really shows that how last minute we are ._.
I think i shall do one video for behind the scenes if possible d:

The next morning after the sleepless night,
was really torturing ._.
migraine, loss of appetite and shivering :/
was forced to eat 2 pills and drank a cup of idk what was that ._.

brought problems to the others again ._.
am super duper sorry :/
but still am really grateful to have them with me (:
thank you yanyee for sacrificing her jacket too :")

Then then,
recently bunny is trending in the class :D
bunny here and there,
and not to forget using bunny and carrot to memorise proving for logarithms (;

The bunny and pig family,
built during the very last lesson of bio before sem exam :D
and now we have 3 bunnies, angel and piggies d:
it's good to have a bunch of cute friends heh (:

Planning with ama to bring bunny and gou gou :D
it has been a long time they both meet up, heh
hope that there will be time for us (:

Then uhm,
i think i got to start preparing for my exam on next sunday
and start to work out something else other than stretching
since it was kind of injured again ._.

Before I end,
I shall say life's is neither good nor bad,
as long as I try my best to make everyday a fruitful one,
i bet that is good enough for me (:

如潮水般，有进有退，
如山峦般，有高有矮。
它，或许可以很崎岖，
但需紧记的还需是
回首向来萧瑟处，
也无风雨也无晴 (:

该提醒自己，
对别人也得好一点，
是时候报答恩人，
因为没有人有义务对你好，
更何况施比受更有福

或许，
吾严重欠缺表达能力及交际技巧，
偶然粗枝大叶地打碎了玻璃心，
刺伤了已淌着血的心，
在这里先说声对不起

倘若说理解我，
别现下定论，
因为你理解的必定不是那个我，
原因无他 (:

微笑并不完全代表着内心的愉快，
它，如不过是用来掩饰内心的一切(:
永远忧虑的是，
为什么轻易的透露所有，
却留下许多的不安

不曾是个好演员，
也不曾是个魔术师
在广阔的舞台上，
也无法淋漓尽致地表达一切

好多好多的事情，
就好比小丑的心态般，
所有的掩饰，
就如那脸上的粉底般
把一切埋藏在人群里

或许有一天，
当微风吹拂的时候，
杨柳仍旧与它欢乐地对答

祈祷着，
未知数 (:

R Bunny (:

Hello (:
*waves*
It's time to meet up with bloggie after so long (:

This is not suppose to be the latest post,
But due to the pretty smart apps
which auto clear everything I typed yesterday,
So here I am to update a totally different thing ._.

Am supposed to update bout college life
As what I had promised kaisong since the beginning of jan d:
But life turns out to be super hectic,
So uhm do forgive me, heh (:

Well,
Am happy enough to be able being part of the new buddies I have met,
Despite that am not the one who starts the conversation as usual,
And I still give people the scary first impression d:

Talked to bel the other day,
Both of us missed mrs Wong and mrs hew really much,
We missed all the moment accompanying each other in tuition classes,
All the fun tagged along with the tuition mates,
And the best thing was extra things that we had been taught have been really helpful in our studies now :')

Studies is like the biggest portion in my daily routine now,
In fact I should say that there is test now and then,
Which I am really lack of time to prepare for them,
Cause the timeline is so tight,
That we have to puke out everything before we digest them ._.

There are moments where I got frustrated,
Felt like giving up in understanding all the illogic things for me,
But am glad to have encouragements and help from the others,
And to have people work out everything together (:

Discussing all the assignments,
Capturing photos and sending them as reference,
Stay up late just to finish homeworks,
It Sounds awful but it is better when I know that I am not alone in the silent night where everyone has gone to bed (:

Though am currently exhausted and careworn
But I believe that all the hard work will paid off (:
I do have my own expectations to myself,
And I'll try my best to achieve and enjoy the process too (:

Joined Latin with AMA (:
Skipped the first few lesson due to the busy routine d:
Had lots of fun partnering with her,
Kept laughing without reasons show how r we both are heh (:

Is not a burden to join clubs,
Is kind of a way to force me to relax myself just for a little while (:
And it's good to spend time with one of the good friends,
It really makes my day (:

Despite that,
Bio sketch was one of the best thing for now (:
Really had lots of fun working with the group members,
And to be honest that was the best sketch from all the sketches that i had been involved in :D

Had previously struggling whether to skip camp with the fellow classmates,
Turned out that only me and sooklynn was the only 2 girls ._.
I don't regret to make that choice,
Cause it was fun in some ways though I still prefer the awesome prefects camp heh (:

On the contrary,
being unable to contribute do make me feel guilty ._.
Am really sorry but I can hardly commit myself,
I promise I will do so at the end of the year (:

Beside that am really have no idea now,
Whether to give a try for the Odonata thing ._.
It's the second last year,
Should I eliminate all the things I am worrying about and just give a try ._.

Results are out next thurs,
Still not feeling tense or nervous ._.
I bet is due to the fact that I have even finished qt
But still praying hard that all is well (:

I think I really missed high school a lot d:
All the random things did with the awesome people,
Laughing and sharing all kinds of things with each other,
That was like the best thing during the schooling days
I can't wait to meet them up heh (:

The next random thing is that,
Msn has finally ended its service ._.
Unable to use it at its very last day due to my my laptop which is still in a sick mode ._.
And pei is still too hl too realize that,
But still I'll miss the day delala-ing :')

Then then,
People have came back from their respective ns camp,
But here I am stuck in the middle,
Not knowing whether am I that unlucky one who will keep receiving letters,
And I really hope not ._.

And not to mention my driving lesson,
I have no idea why am I doing different kinds of weird stuff during lessons ._.
Being short in every part of my body is being another problem too,
But still am doing quite okay by looking at the bright side d:
I must believe I can heh (:

Semester exam in 2 weeks time,
Undone assignments,video,revisions and etc ._.
My zombie life has started again,
So hello headache and little dots on my face :(

Before I end,
I do really hope that all the problems that I am facing now can be solve as soon as possible,
Especially the special issue that we are facing now ._.
I really want to thank people that really care about me and am sorry to make you people worried
I'll be optimistic, be happy, be patient and try to talk more :D

Goodnight (:
With lots of loves <3 p="">

Sound of souls (:

The clouds are clear,
The sky is blue.
My minds are full of dark clouds,
Hinting me something bad is going to happen.

I just realize that,
My attitude towards life has gone way too wrong.
I'm not in the right frequency with people,
And this same goes to all the events in life.

My apologies it not worth anymore,
Cause it is just not about the times of apology said,
But is what did I do after that to make things right,
And the truth is i did nothing.

I don't blame people for giving me all sorts of negative comments,
Cause that is how people see me,
And maybe the real me which i do not know,
Everyone is my educator in life.

Being focused on something not that important,
Is not a good choice at all.
But who knows the truth of all the story behind the choices,
Nobody knows indeed.

I do really thank people who really cares about me,
I knew that I can never pay u guys back in any means,
I am always that hard to handle,
And always that stubborn to listen to anyone of you.

Reminiscing all the events happened,
All the ups and downs,
Am always the trouble,
I never mend things in a right way ._.

I dislike to make people worry,
But I always do without me myself noticing.
Maybe I should try harder to hide my emotions,
It shall be a good way to make a change.

The 3rd topic of year 2013
I am hardly surviving now.
I do really hope that I can get used of this tight schedule as soon as I can.
I can't stand the tiredness everyday not due to works,
But due to the severe lack of sleep.

I do believe if I want to make a change,
I should start doing something.
But me myself will never know when will I start taking actions,
And I guess that is the main problem ._.

I do not want to make my parents worried about the way I study,
They are just too worried that one day
I'll gone mad and just jump off from any of the skyscraper,
And left this world irresponsibly.

Reduce the time of studying is what they asked me to do so,
And that is what a parents will hardly said.
Being stressful just by looking at me staring at my homeworks everyday,
And I doubt that do I look that stressful?

Sometimes I do wonder,
If I really leave home for ns,
Will my 3 months there less stressful than where I am standing now,
Or I'll cry more than now due to homesick?

That's just my doubt,
I am too tired to do anything,
But to think all the random things that are pondering in my minds all the time,
Indeed I have to get a rest.

People are leaving to a few hundreds miles away,
Sometimes I do think that I will be able to survive without communicating to anyone,
But whenever anyone is leaving I really doubt that.
Anyway still all the best to them (:

I should be cheerful,
I want to be a kid again.
I want to laugh as hard as I can,
But I think I should treasure every now and then with a big wide grin on my face (:
Agree? (;

降落伞 (:

真的累了，

累得好颓丧，

还未看到尽头，

但我会继续加油 (:

Ulala (:

Happy Chinese New Year (:
Have a great year ahead!

Though the jam was so long,
But all of us managed to reached home safely (:
Grateful for everything
And this symbolize that we can win over all the obstacles in out life
If we have enough patience and confidence (:

Reunion dinner was awesome,
The feeling of everyone sat together,
All the jokes and talking,
Does made our heart felt warm (:

Fireworks were not as many as the previous years,
Spending time in the cold hotel room,
Sending wishes to each others,
Doesn't sounds bad too (:

Getting rid of all the stress and home works ,
Feeding me myself fat d:
All the Homecook traditional dishes
Was undeniably awesome which no one could resist :D

Playing with the first ever niece of mine,
Surprisingly she likes me the most x)
Cute and tiny,
Just felt like playing with her all day long :D

Though this will be a short cny,
It's still a meaningful days
To spend some marvelous time with the dearest family,
Just keep away all the complaint towards everyone of them,
They are still awesome as treasure (:

May everyone have a prosperous year,
Have an awesome year ahead (:

Sarcasm (:

I know,
It's just nothing to u.
Nothing,
Such an easy word.

It's not normal,
Not typical,
It's just way too weird,
And nobody has any clues

It's predictable,
Not really a guess,
Swear at anytime,
you are too sure that you won't even regret

Taking a step,
Giving and unpredictable results,
You shall see a positive parabolic curve,
Hoping hard for that day to come

Giving 100% out,
Is a never for now.
Too risky for that,
Cause there is no words of safe these days

Whatever that comes out from there,
You shall take your words,
There is word call limits,
And don't ever get over the fence

knowing which are jokes
And which are not,
But even jokes can't go too far,
Though there is no mouth but there are ears and eyes (:

That's how people see,
And how I see.
Is better to know that,
There is always stories behind all the reasons

Training for everything,
I shall be patience.
I should learn more than I can,
To live in all the sarcasm

Just a reminder,
Don't expect much from others.
Cause nobody is born to treat u well,
But to teach u in a hard way (:

Don't be too sure,
That's overconfidence.
Be wise and learn,
Cause that is what people taught me (: