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Monday, December 23, 2013

Sugar Spice (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:52 AM 0 comments

aloha :D
hao jiu bu jian teehee (:

Have not been updating all the events happening.
all i did was treating this bloggie as my emotion rubbish dump ,
am so sorry for making you dull and boring,
i got to make you cheerful now heh (:

hmm, so right after concert and exams was the Midsummer Masquerade
Still remember it rained heavily in the afternoon,
The field was so muddy that we actually planned to skip the event d:
But everything still turned up well (:

The theme was something related to hawaiian,
We girls actually planned to wear the same dress,
but it turned up different groups of people wearing different kind of dress ._.
however i still had my minionnnn to wore the same one as mine heh :D

Reached there super duper early with sooklynn and mun,
awkward enough to see all the committee who were still having rehearsals when we reached ._.
Sat at the cafeteria chit-chatting and looking at all sorts of costumes people wore,
thumbs up for their creativity heh (:

Nothing much during the whole event as i was careworn to care what was happening,
kept viewing through all sorts of minions with sheauyunnn heh (:
And most of all was nominating Benjamin Yew as iforgotwhatwasit d:
All the cheering and screaming from the s2 was undeniably the craziest (:


Next was celebrating Xinjing, Chloe , Lisyuen, Puilam , Eugene , Jijohn and mun's big day
That was the day i lied the most in my life ._.
Trying to copy all the wished from bunnn's phone,
and ended up like i am trying to escape from getting caught ._.
Not to forget how did I fail to make Lisyuen from going up the room,
Never succeed in making good stories ._.

As they planned to give Chloe a surprise with the idea of blind date d:
I forgot how to whole thing went,
but it just ended up with all of us hiding below the table 
and sang her a birthday song when she stepped into the shop heh (:
It was quite a success as the 5 of them didn't really realize the celebration was for all of them heh (:



Then then was the outing to bookfest with the R's :D
Waited at the LRT station for almost 2 hours with storybooks as my companion,
Played with AMA and bunny when we were waiting for rmama :P
We tried to bluffed her that we weren't there yet and trying to made fun of her when she was on the way to the platform but we eventually failed and even got tricked ._.

Walked around to bookfest with the super fail human navigator,
brought us to the wrong way or even lost her way d:
Then loitered around KLCC& the park and went for lunch at Secret Recipe (:
Laughed so hard when the 3 of us didn't know how to take a group selfie.

Then went for icecream and sat down playing with bunny :3
I bet people around was wondering what were we doing there heh (:
Forced rmama to take photo with bunny,
and taking photo with bunny and AMA too heh (:


Returned back to taman jaya,
and went to pyramid to meet up with the s1 to farewell Peijie (:
Nobody wanna bring me up to where they were,
and i couldn't contact any of them after a few phone calls ._.

I knew i should stop trying to contact anyone anymore,
Fear was starting to engulf me and i was going to teared up any soon,
I didn't know what kind of feeling i was having at that moment,
But I tried to calm myself and continue to read my storybook on a bench ._.

Anyway I still managed to meet up with them in the end,
Had dinner and waited for long for zhijie to settle his problem ._.
Then went jingxian's house for a visit,
His dog was following me when i was walking alone at his garden ._.

Then everyone sat at the poolside,
chit-chatting and joking around
with Amanda and a few boys started swimming,
and the boys trying to wet each other :3

Wasn't really in a good condition that night,
all sorts of thoughts were drowning me,
I do not know how to tell the others what happened,
because it just happened that I can't tell everything to everybody or just anyone ._.

Anyway still being grateful to those who cheered me up,
am so sorry for being so emotional everytime,
I should learned to control myself,
I have to by hook or by crook (:

After this was celebrating my cute minionnn and the evil minon's birthday (:
Both of them put lots of effort in surprising each other,
first with the warm and hearty cake that minionnn made,
then with the good planning to make the whole surprise success
and the cream smashing event for Theva, Yunkai and Dylan (:

Before i forget,
Running around with the cake with candles lit,
scattered the marshmallow on the corridor,
and lighting up the candles behind a door which almost scared the person who coincidentally walked out from the door,
all these were the highlight of my day *peace* 

These weren't all the mess i made yet,
I failed to delay the time for them to prepare the surprise for sheauyunn too :/
Couldn't stand the mosquitoes biting me in the cubicle anymore,
and most of all i forgot to bring my phone with me to contact them ._.

Anyway she's still touched with dylan with a ribbon on his head,
singing her songs, the bouquet of flowers and most of all the effort he made heh (:
And not to forget the flower delivery man a.k.a Wenzhe d:

Owh, i must say something about the graduation day they had (:
It kind of motivate me more to study hard and smart to achieve my goal,
Cause it really feels good to graduate with satisfiation after all the effort we had put in,
So I shall not let myself down right? (:

Okay let me make this as Part I hehe (:
random much to list out all the birthday celebrations,
but i am trying to recall all the incident happened,
they are kind of a big event despite all the boring exams and homeworks i had ._.

Be back soon (:
Tata ! <3 div="" nbsp="">

Friday, November 15, 2013

翻。反

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:22 AM 0 comments

对不起,
真的无法让自己不去折磨自己。
与其说我害怕得不到别人的肯定,
倒不如说是自己也对自己起了疑心。

心中的不安,
仿佛汪洋一般,
一波未平一波又起,
脑里想的,
更是深不可测。

迷茫的前方,
迷路的羔羊,
我该如何从自个儿的牢房解救出自我,
心智在何时才能成长?

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Prayer (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 11:05 PM 0 comments

I'll pray hard,
really hard that my prayers could be heard (:
I want you to be well,
and that is all i want (:

默默地为你祈祷,
希望您一切安好,
健康,快乐,
幸福,安康  (:

Friday, November 1, 2013

诚。孝

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:30 PM 0 comments
走在大街上,
总会觉得自己的身影好孤独。
有时候总爱胡思乱想,匪夷所思,
却殊不知是自己多虑了

纵然世事不是那般美好,
但只要仔细地往身后一看,
就会发现其实还有好多人的关照,
所有逆耳之言也只不过是出自于内心深处

要学会宽容,谅解
也要知道聆听,微笑
更要拥有一颗赤子之心,以诚待人
最重要的是懂得惜福,感恩 (:


Monday, October 7, 2013

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:32 PM 0 comments

忘了那个承诺吗?(:

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 5:16 PM 0 comments

好想回到过去,
一个让我有归宿感,又安全感的地方

每个早晨都有一群让我把烦恼抛诸脑后的朋友,
无厘头的炮轰也莫名地让我好想念,
课室里有着一群让我哭笑不得的同学,
能与我分享心事,一起哭,一起笑的同桌
下课后一起在人烟稀少的食堂里用餐说笑,
出了差错一定有一群人挺身而出,
放学后也有一群人陪我一同走出校门口,
回到空荡荡的家至少还有人隔空与我分享课堂里的趣事
考试时大家互相加油打气,
一起在课室外苦读、温习
还有好多好多的时刻都让我好怀念

有时候觉得自己就像在一个孤岛,
没有船只的停留、没有生命的足迹,  
就算在那儿不停的挥手求助也不会被发现
身旁有好多的利器,无人敢靠近,
心中的那朵曾茂盛的花朵也逐渐跟着生存的信念而凋零
不曾浇过水,因为害怕不知水的分量而导致它突然凋零
从站着到弯下身子,费尽了好多力气,
当我弯下的身子逐渐失去了支柱而蹲了下来,是窒息的感觉,
需要重获那生存的信念,让自己重新站起,

曾想过好多的为什么,但却从未获得让自己满意的答案
有时候宁愿与世隔绝,做一个什么也不知道的笨蛋,
因为知道的事实越多,心里就少一份快乐,
宁愿一个人行走,除去许多的假情假意,
但这个社会,这个世界不允许。

喜欢沉默,因为没有多少人能让我敞开心扉,
因为这个世界是充满着谎言的地带
心凉了半截,口里说的朋友大多都是莫须有,
因为当你真正有难时,你终究发现真正的朋友是自己
一朝被蛇咬,十年怕草绳,
已经不知道是否还有人能让我信任。

"有些人的一生,是直达车。有些人却是慢车,中间总要经过许多站,经历许多人。
有人总是下错站,坐过头,不是错失了窗外的风景,就是错过了身旁的人。
我不在乎坐上那一辆车,只想知道,能陪我坐到终点站的人,究竟是谁。"—— 张小娴

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

谧,秘

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:46 PM 0 comments

犹如微风吹拂着水面一般,
掀起的涟漪未入眼帘,
瞬间一切又如往常般地平静安谧,
但无奈水中波涛汹涌般的怒吼却仍然未能平复,
可又有谁能看透,去安抚?(:

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 12:06 AM 0 comments

因为从来就没有人了解真正的我需要的是什么

Friday, August 2, 2013

无国界(:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:44 PM 0 comments

倘若世界上有一颗沙子,
就这么一颗神奇的沙子,
能促使心里头另一棵幼苗茁壮成长,
或许心田会是肥沃的

无心的一道问题,
却一语惊醒梦中人,
回想起往事,
那些让我成长并改变的往事

童年的友人曾问过,
却无从回答,
到底是什么改变了这一切,
就算心里略知一二却不敢妄下定论

或许不善于表达,
但不勇于表达会更确切,
那埋在心田的孬胚除不了,
来龙去脉永远忘却不了

已经忘了到底有多久,
没像小孩子般一一叙述,
或许无意中的冷眼对待,
使我心灰意冷保持沉默

不想多说,
或许是害怕莫名的恐惧,
可能是厌倦了冷漠,
但很肯定的是习惯

迷失了方向,
在迷茫的人烟中踱步,
看着似近似远的炊烟,
却不知何去何从

或许时间会冲淡一切,
或许我能逆时而行,
回到最初的原点,
找回自己 (:

Ribbons (:

Posted by ....:::: Kai Qian =) ::::.... at 10:42 PM 0 comments

aloha (:
I have finally made sometime to take a visit to the bloggie heh (:
Was overwhelmed to get all the works done ,
it's like an achievement unlock :D

Days that i have been worried about various stuff,
has kind of the history now (:
Those were the tough days where now i found time,
precious, memorable and unforgettable :")

allow my randomness to type in another language :P
and uhm before that,
glad to be back to chs sports day,
and met the bunch of rppl who never fail to make my day :")



仍然记得起初的冲动,
盘算着如何度过那一个月的假期,
碰巧地发现了解闷的一线曙光,
就这样走进了这个大家庭

虽然曾经因为突如其来的更改
脑子里一直萌起了放弃的念头,
曾经累得不知道自己到底为了什么,
要这么般因兴趣而折磨自己,
但现在我知道了

脑里仍清晰地烙印着我对导师所说的话,
对自己的承诺也更是不可磨灭的,
因为那是可承诺,是个责任,
或许说是个磨练和考验 

犹记得一星期内好几天的练习,
再加上学业上的速成期,
功课堆积如山,但却仍旧避免缺席,
那时候真的有快垮的感觉,

那时候有点像是与世隔绝,
除了功课,排练,
剩下的就是无数次无意间睡着的时间,
那种感觉很辛苦但却很充实

第一次的彩排,
舞蹈部分一塌糊涂,
那时候真的对大家有着无限的歉意,
但能做的就只剩下勤加练习

集训营的时候,
当导演和舞监一直强调着细腻情感表达,
但也却未做到,更甭说是做好,
听着检讨会上的意见只能说是心有余而力不足

彩排和练习间,
喜怒哀乐尽融入了心中,
不知为何那一次的无理逼供,
会让我抵不住成了个兔子
忘却不了,但也未心存怨恨

在集训的那两天,
真的要感谢工作人员和演员们,
除了包容,体谅,
更给予关心及鼓励,

在无数次的彩排,
甚多的相处时间,
大家都在无意间建立了友谊之桥,
话题也逐渐增加,互相玩笑的次数也迅速飙升

在分享阶段,
听着大家依依不舍的感言,
看着逐渐熟悉的面孔,
一股伤感涌上心头

正如“医生”告诉舞蹈员们,
“我最希望看到的就是这种情况”
与晓春这位导师兼朋友集体拥抱,
除去误会,言归于好的情况也正是我期望的

虽然有不满,
但当尝试从别人的角度来看待事情的时候就能理解。
一个对不起,一句谢谢,
我们8个都哭花了妆,
但心里却如释重负

从演出开始前的祭拜祈祷,
到一起围着圆圈做热身运动,
到一起静下心来酝酿心情,
再到出场前的拥抱及打气,
直到最后的谢幕及检讨会
所有的阶段都有着不同的含义及回忆

庆功宴上,
让大家感动的是当事人的感言,
是看见无私奉献后,
能惠及社会不幸人士的那一刻

此时此刻,
我无法将细节一一道出,
我只能把“爱永续后群症”埋藏在心里头,
永远记得这非凡的回忆与机遇 (:


最后的最后,
衷心感谢一直支持及鼓励着我的每一个人,
从精神上到行动上,
一切的一切我将铭记于心(:

p/s: hello guardian :P i said i'll mention your name here,and am just going to tell you sorry that i typed in chinese again hehe (: forgive the rebellious angel of yours and thankyou :D