Rainbow Colours =)

Clover (:

2012-01-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

选择，

听起来是给予机会，

事实上它是残酷的

不论选择了哪一个，

终究会被谴责，

往好的方面想，

至少有些人会因为这个选择而高兴。

作了选择，

你所经过的路口就会消失，

在面前的会是更多的路口。

走进哪一个，

就勇敢的走下去，

对于其他的除了对不起还是对不起 (:

It is always hard to make a decision,

to be fair or unfair,

is just how you see it.

I have choose the path which i think

is better for me,

it might not be the right path u think it is,

but it might be the right path for me (:

There is no use for you to mumbling,

to make me feel bad,

cause i live to be myself,

i live to have my own way to be in this earth (:

I'm sorry to disappoint you,

Have fun there,

And just to be honest,

I wish i could be there too,

I swear (:

To infinity and beyond (:

2012-01-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hello (:

3rd day of dragon year.

Well, cny is not ended yet,

But i guess i can do a summary for it now d:

First day,

I have got a super sumptuous breakfast.

It's very tasty,

but still I missed popo dishes :"(

Did not go for visit relatives this year,

indeed went to some neighbours' house d:

One word : bored

All i can do there was staring at the tv,

talked to the grandparents in their house, heh ;)

Cousins came for overnight,

I thought it will make my cny not that bored,

yes, i thought.

All they did was talking to gor gor,

universities and so on.

I don't even feel like sitting there as I was a shadow or what,

so uhm, skip this annoying part (:

Before I forgot,

Saw my neighbours children flying 孔明灯,

very very nice :)
is like the moment u say the thing fly up high ;)

Also had a continuous burning of firecrackers with them :D
Very bery fun but :

The result was the whole street was full of smoke d:

2nd and 3rd day were equally bored

Walking here and there,

after sending bro to exam.

and now i am sitting here (:

candy lollipop sweets (:

I declared tmrw as my homework day d:

I supposed it is going to work,

since I am going to home alone again.

yes, again and it is even during cny (y)

And to my dear family,

I'm sorry i did not play cny songs this year,

Cause I don't feel like playing,

There is not even any new year mood in me

Is like just another day.

Am loitering here,

because I'm bored with physics d:

Everyone in my house is asleep,

Well, this happens almost everyday in this cny

You see, that is why I don't even have that mood

小时后，幸福是件简单的事；
长大后，简单是件幸福的事 (:
成长终究是不堪的事实，
因为简单的道理也会变得很复杂，
我真的真的很想回到那个简单的童年时光 :")

梅花 (:

2012-01-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

2012 的团圆饭，

真的很不一样。

没有往常般地看到外婆还有亲戚，

只有四个人，

那同样的四个人。

虽然不能围着那熟悉的圆桌子，

吃着每一年热腾腾的火锅，

但还是一句，

四个人一起吃，

不管感觉在不在，

最重要的还是身旁的每一个人都还在 (:

今年，

读了一篇篇的报道，

北上的车龙果真像条龙

走紧急车道的全被罚，

倘若今年又回乡，

必定中“头奖”d:

说真的，

没回乡的感觉很奇怪，

我长这么大了，

这还是第一次

我真的真的不希望有下一次

现在的我，

简直没有过年的感觉

不要讲到好像很sad，

要过年就要开开心心，

不要不爽不爽的过年

昨天，真的很有成就感 :D

我的第一个新年大扫除。

看到全部东东都干干净净，

那种感觉真的很爽

还有把全部的饼干和柑，

摆美美，也很有满足感。

daddy 刚才讲，

如果有朋友来，

可以拿这个那个给他们，

我跑去跟他讲，

没朋友会来的，

他没好气地看着我，

然后就给我那种表情

真的有一点点笑死我,heeee

不知道今年的初一会怎样过，

没有外婆甜滋滋的白果汤，

没有她的春卷，

没有她的笑声和声音，

看不见那边许多游子的车，

不能到那些熟悉的地方拜年，

不讲了，期待期待明天也会很特别 (:

今天，一定有很多很多的烟花，
没有亲戚的除夕夜，
我不想过到将奇怪，
我觉得还是跑去看烟花比较好
烟花小姐，
你今天一定要很美很美，
因为有我在等着你 (:

Bunny 要跳回去了，

12年后在跟他讲halo!

龙要飞来了，

龙龙，你好 (:

我跟你打招呼，记得对我好一点 d:

gor gor 的兔子 d:
那个我认为很像blablabla的猪
兔子要跑掉了，
所以猪要跟它拍照，
然后龙就来客串一下下 d:
我知道我很无聊，
可是我真的很闷，
所以忍耐一下 (:

新年快乐，

希望大家，

龙年行大运，

龙马精神，

威武如龙，

龙到成功（不懂有没有这个 d: ）

最主要的是开心乐龙龙 :D

marshmallow (:

2012-01-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

Owh well,

my dear leg can't wait to take ang pau's

It got more excited as day goes by,

I think I'll have to chill it down d:

And I need to use the law of attraction (:

I know I can bear with that,

The pain is NOT killing me,

I'll with win over you , mr pain (:

Very quickly indeed x)

Get well soon dear leg!

Mixing Cups (:

2012-01-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

Hello (:
12.30a.m. in the morning.
am still having some insane meeting,
blogging here to pass time, hehe (:

Happy Belated Birthday wan li li (:

Did not get to join to give you a surprise party,
Did not have time to celebrate with you too,
dui bu qi :(
Still, I am sure that you have a great one (:

Remembered the first time I saw you,
was in the dewan,
Pei Pei was sitting behind you,
while you were playing a little compass on my bag ;)

I dont remember how we get together,
I think is through Eshen and mun (:
First trip with you is still Sekinchang trip,
a memory that i could not recall much.

I have not been going out much with you,
due to lack of time and transport.
I hope in the future,
I can always make my time and try my best,
so that it wont be 5-1 (:

There is always laughter and stories wherever you are,
you are like the one who will always have many many things to say (:
And the expression and the way when you say story is like,
super super cute and funny ;)

You have a sunny smile (:
You wont easily got panicked when problems occurred.
You can always handle them very steadily,
and solve them nicely (:

Thank you for making my life cheerful,
always being there to make the surroundings an enjoyable one (:
Be who you are,
and that is your best personality that I like ;)

Remember to relax yourself when u get tension,
always remember that there will be people around you,
to help you out,
to share the happiness and sadness with you ;)

wan li li,
dear cawan ;)
together we strive for perfection and wo ai ni <3

House of hopes (:

2012-01-14T23:57:00.005+08:00

dido (:
Hello everyone!

1 more week till cny (:
I got a little bit excited only,
cause it'll be a different cny this year
but still finger crossed that i won't get bored again (:

well,
finally managed to handle homework better (:
is like i wont see there is a tower of books stacking up anymore,
but just a small stack of it, heh ;)

Being assigned to in charge of games for camp,
Seriously, am not experience on this at all,
to be more accurate is no experience at all :O
But still, hope to have a great cooperation with them,
I hope it will be an enjoyable one,
and of course a successful one (:

Ran 8 rounds of sports centre that day,
not a very long one,
but after running stomache and coughing creature visited me ):
Then house practice starts next week,
hwaiting (:

gerko day (:
a special one this year,
not staying back and not busying around d:
cause is like i don belong to any of it,
although i am actually belong to some of it
But still loitered around with pei (:

AMA, xiao r sunnn wanna say sorry sorry sorry
dui bu qi ah, xiao r sunnnn mei you bang ni mai ):
bu guo ni mai de na ge bunny hen ke ai
xiao r sunnn hen xi huan :D

dido lala bunny buu (:
seriously epic failed.
not to say data loss for one,
but three of it (Y)

is like being a dumb dumb,
not knowing anything,
or even like a people sleeping,
did not know who is moving him away

data loss for 3 diskette,
need to redo everything again ):
andihatetodoregistrationverymuchcauseitissuperhard !
miracles please do appear now,
pretty please (":

By the way,
Happy Diary Valentines (:
sugar said goodnight!

Magnificent (:

2012-01-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

heh (:

another post to keep me awake d:

Well,

second week of school already,

and I am very very dislike to wake up early in the morning.

U know what,

that is a torture after a long holiday :/

Well,

Changed PJK teacher.

And every Thursday with rumah practice,

will be a seriously running day.

3 or 4 rounds per PJK lesson,

how wonderful (:

I'd prefer to run in the afternoon instead of morning.

I swear d:

and, yes you (:

My "dearest" class teacher.

I am so going to tell you,

no matter what or who or whatever it is,

The class will still be that noisy.

Can't you just bear with it ?

Stop making changes to our places or else it'll get worse

I don't like to " so nice " place you planned,

It makes me started to hate you, hmph!

homeworks are piling up,

and tuition homeworks is making the tower getting taller

I was like rushing for the homeworks everyday :/

naps is mostly being snatched away by time,

and my sleeping time is getting later and later,

which makes me total drowsy.

Next,

I am getting bruise again -.-

this time is on the knee,

And now i hate walking ,

cause whenever i walk there will be like a invisible needle keep poking me ):

And that really irritated a lot.

Music class changed to early morning,

gah, one word- blur d:

somehow i am thinking how long i could manage to have enough time to practice.

The " deadline" is so far yet so near,

and teacher is still telling me individual grade is higher,

and i want to say unfair ):

Haven did the hearing that miemer gave d:

Cause i really have no time,

even gor gor said my timetable is scary d:

But still I'll make it through, I believe (:

Got to go (:

Have a nice week!

The cutest sweets (:

2012-01-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

*waves*
Am lack of time yesterday,
so uhm here I am (:

Ang Eshennnn (:
Happy Belated Birthday!

Was supposed to surprise you more,
but too bad that the guard phoned you ):
But I still like the expression of yours,
and kept saying : yer, 你们很坏，很奇怪哩.
eheheeee d:

I still remembered i was sitting in front of you,
in the first day in CHS (:
I was thinking why are you so white and chubby d:
I don know how we end up to be good friends,
But still I love how the way goes (;

First trip with you was the Sekinchang trip,
I don't remember how was the trip like,
I only remembered me n zhao was quarreling all the way d:

I remembered having baking session with you, bel and hui en (:
It was truly fun having time with all of you,
talking stuff leisurely,
laughing for some funny stuff,
playing like idk what,
I hope the time can go back :")

You are always the cheerful one,
whenever I see you smile,
I will like heheeee :D
you made me smile!

Another thing is that you are super cute :D
no matter your face expression,
the way you talk or type,
they always make people feel warm and happy ;)

Thank you for always being there for me,
making my second chapter of life a memorable one (:
I'll treasure the time we spent together,
because the memories will always last!

Be more confidence to yourself,
and all the best in everything.
remember that you are always awesome :D

hong yi xuan, wo ai ni (:

jia youuu o!

The Fray (:

2012-01-04T19:42:00.000+08:00

Ello (:

School reopened,

and I survived ;)

It has been after 2 weeks to wake up so early in the morning,

when the sun haven't show up,

when the cooling breeze was still blowing gently

and when I am still feeling drowsy d:

Back to school,

back to hectic life (:

Saw friends and teachers ,

not much different though, hehe

Our new headmaster talked pretty long,

I hoped it is because of this is the first time,

If not there will be lots more dull assembly to go

fingers crossed (:

Changed some subjects' teachers,

Satisfied with some and not for some,

But is a true thing that there is always good and bad on one thing,

But still I hoped they can be better than the previous one (:

It's the first schooling day,

But teachers are started to stress on SPM :/

Is true that we have to start working on it,

cause it is just 10 months away,

or to be specific,

is only 8 to 9 months away (:

One thing I found out 2 years ago,

which is students used to choose seating at the back

in the form 1 to form 4 life,

is now preferring sitting in the front,

how weird :/

Another thing is that,

I really got to try my best to contact Sue Ying ,

I don't want to redo the whole file,

which is a total waste of time

and again fingers crossed that she will remember where she puts it (:

给亲爱的你：

不知道为何看到今天的你眉头深锁，

看了又一点不知道怎样说的感觉，

但是希望你能够笑一笑，

因为不管什么事都会有人守护着你。

笑一笑，没烦恼哦!

bye bye (:

风中的一朵花 (:

2011-12-31T00:18:00.001+08:00

2011年的最后一天
我坐在这里打心里话,
这也是续09年后,
很想说出心里话的一次
上次打了没有post,
今天就勇敢一点啦 :D

回顾2011，
一程疯狂的过山车之旅
一个旋风不断侵袭之地
一帘匪夷所思的幽梦
一个让我成长的年份 (：

先从我那一班开始说起
四理一
不知道在毕业后会不会想念在这一班的日子
但这一班有时确实让我又爱又恨，
侥幸的是有一些可爱的朋友们一直陪伴着我，
不幸的呢，我就不要讲 d:

我还记得开学的第一天，
在周会上真的很愚，
现在想起，
一定会暗自嘲笑自己，
因为我觉得没有另一个人会跟我做一样傻的事 d：
就当着是趣事吧！

还有去camp 的时候，
被人家当白老鼠
结果从高高的地方跌下来 :/
还有从那个高高的地方爬下来，
真的很恐怖，
但是我还记得下面为我打气的人，
还有那个让我对他有信心的大哥哥，
真的真的很谢谢他们 (:

在年中假期的时候，
差不多天天跑回学校，
看着一大堆的红豆和绿豆，
一直从新地做豆包，
一直转动着缝纫机，穿针引线
虽然很累，但也算获益不浅 (:

最记得6，7月时，
是这一年的低谷，
谢谢那一些关心我的人
也想对于我很差的情绪管理说声：“ 对不起 (: "

第一次参加了饥饿30,
终于知道为什么会有人冷死,
因为那种感觉真的很恐怖 :/
说实在,我感觉不到饥饿,
我感觉晕眩和冷比较多 d:

麻烦了许多筹委,
剥夺了他们的冷衣和睡眠,
很像很坏哦?
不过谢谢你们, 也非常对不起让你们担心
不过我决定下一次再战,
我要健康地去,健康的回来 :D

在9月的时候，
旷课跑去独立广场
在那边认识了很多很多人
印象最深的是那个Pandu Puteri，黄颖
我喜欢看她笑，因为他有酒窝
两个人可以傻傻地在那边乱走，
不是去看庆典，是去找雨伞 :D
结果到庆典结束了都找不到

还有那些中二的小瓜，
大多数都很热情，
看到我就问了很多很多问题，
有些还会跑过来问我闷不闷
每次都笑应他们，
但是他们还是会跑来跟我讲话
他们真的很好 (:

今年，也做了一次trip
从迷茫到失望然后到绝望，
突然出现的一线希望，
在直到最后的成功
很像在做梦，很像奇迹

从trip回来，
看到他们都很开心，心里真的很欣慰
不过我真的真的要特别谢谢两个人，
洺鐥&贤龙
我知道上次我谢过了，
不过我还要谢多一次
因为如果他们没帮我，
我真的会崩溃 :/

上面的全部是让我印象很深刻的事迹,

琐琐碎碎的不能列出来,

但是我要做个总结 (:

谢谢朋友们一直以来的陪伴和支持, 倘若我真的让你很厌烦, 请多多包涵(:

对于自己的情绪管理方面,我会多多加油,做一个高EQ 的人

或许我给你的第一印象是不苟言笑, 不妨告诉我, 你会认识不一样的我 ;)

我可能不是很会说话或者不善于表达自己, 希望你能够谅解 (:

最后, 如果对我有任何意见, 就告诉我吧!

2012 是新的一年,

愿大家有个美好的一年,

一个顺利的17岁 ( 或者其他 d: )

SPM 一起加油!

如果你很认真地看完这一篇方块字,

谢谢你, 你很有耐心 (:

拜拜!

Hakuna Matata (:

2011-12-30T16:09:00.000+08:00

ni hao (:

* waves *

Finally done the header last night :D

Flowers as theme this time

Am actually thinking which background suits it most

But seems like both of it is nice ._.

But this time i must decide by myself , heh

Thank you to RP x)

Photoscape you gave is so awesome

The header is much more better than the previous one

The one I did using photoshop d:

I guess you will be the only one who saw that

nevermind, am still more hf than you x)

Saw AMA's blog post yesterday

Is true that I always had fun while skyping with her

It is funny to imagine RP's face expression while we are playing ;)

I like the way we interact,

I hope it will always remains the same (:

And then bu yao jin, xiao r sunnn bu guai ni (:

Then, had a short conversation with rach ;)

Long time didn't see her,

Kinda miss her already :")

Will be seeing her soon in 4 more days,heee!

Well,

saw lots of small little kid today (:

most of them are very very chubby that I felt like pinching them

I saw a girl with a very beautiful eyes and cute smile :D

She's super super cute and I like her ;)

Nothing much happened today,

But i was very very blur ):

What an embarrassing incident,

and it really hurts, physically :/

*skip skip *

As we know,

School is going to reopen

And i have dumped all my works for so long

Got to start writing some words so that they won't look so ugly d:

But then I have a good news here!

My class teacher is no longer her :D

I hope they had changed a better one for us,

at least better than her 50 percent ;)

Ciao for now!

Post for review of 2011 will be up tmrw (:

*opps, forgotten that it's still a privated blog d: *

The Chain (:

2011-12-28T18:00:00.002+08:00

Hello (:

Imma posting on a privated blog

How funny, heh (:

Still working out on my new header,

" Blessed Blossom "

Hope for a blessed life,

Life that always blossom like a flower (:

I could not imagine,

how life will be when school reopens.

Especially all the tuitions that I'll be having

It is the first time having such tight schedule,

I hope I can make it out ;)

Nowadays,

I am feeling rather strange.

My mind is full of unknown things,

I did not know what am I actually thinking of

But I am pretty sure that,

it makes my emotion having a roller coaster ride.

I don't know is that a small reminder,

a tension or even stress.

I don't feel well either,

I need to stare at the ceiling fan for more than one hour,

to get myself to sleep :E

I read many of the blogs,

some are writing about friends,

the way they pictured their friendship

it really touched my feelings,

we never knew how much people care for us,

until we look back and realize (:

I have been receiving postcards, cards and small gifts from them,

I always smile no matter when i see them (:

Is not the thing that matters,

is the matter that they really care much about you

There is also some,

who talked to you whenever you get bored,

cared for what happened towards you,

whenever there is something weird happend

and doing stuff that you'll never expect

Gor gor always ask : 这种朋友到哪里去找？

and my answer is always : 在这里找，我找到了！

I did not know whether there is " forever "

But i know that i have to appreciate what I have now (:

友谊和亲情是无法用价值来衡量，

而是看你对它的真诚和关心
有时候简简单单的问候语也可以很感人 (:

Never look back,

and never regret (:

Muffin man (:

2011-12-28T12:05:00.002+08:00

" Even if the path is a little blurry,

keep walking.

You'll focus in when you know

what you want.

Then the picture of your life

will be crystal clear. "

Just don't ever give up (:

Maybe it's too late to realize,

But there is never too late ;)

Flying Dandelions (:

2011-12-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

停下脚步，

四处看望

外面的天空似乎特别漂亮

天空不再单调，

被披上了五颜六色的色彩，

孕育了无数的生物，

云朵在玩着变身术

很美，真的很美。

我很少仰望天空，

上课天时，

每天庸庸碌碌地过，

有时累得连站着都想倒下；

只有假期才能慢慢看看四周

也许我错过了许多美丽的天空

但至少我没有错过这一天的天空

每次假期来临，

我总会很期待，

小时候，

就算会外婆家也很开心，

现在对我来说和在家没分别

我仍然喜欢回去与外婆一起过生活，

但是在那边的日子一样很寂寞

表兄弟姐妹都有了各自的生活圈子，

思想有区别，话题也少了

甚至都没看到多少次，

我真的很怀念小时候的日子

最近看到小时候的照片，

在回想我如何度过这个假期，

我觉得这个假期真的是非常空虚

每天用故事书麻醉自己，

对这一大堆的非生物，

看着计划如泡影般消失

那种感觉很奇怪

为什么现实和想象的永远都是天渊之别?

那一天，

我看到了蒲公英，

不知道为什么我很羡慕它

但是我喜欢看它在空中轻盈的飞舞，

那种感觉很妙

我喜欢！

蒲公英，

你可以帮我实现一个愿望吗？

就算在梦里也行

你听好哦

请把我载回童年的时光，好吗？

我就当作你默应啦

这是胡思乱想后的结果

梦想，

使人发光，

而勇往直前；

幻灭，

使人成长，

而不畏艰难；

失意时，

转个弯，

又是一片海阔天空。

不知合不合逻辑，

呵呵 (:

今年的圣诞节，
也特别得很 d：

可爱吗？

圣诞快乐！

Belated Merry X'mas & Happy Boxing Day (:

汤圆 (:

2011-12-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

冬至快乐！

吃了汤圆要团团圆圆,

长大了一岁要变圆滑.

吃了甜甜的汤圆心里要天天甜滋滋,

心里甜滋滋，脸上就有甜美的笑容!

Enchanted (:

2011-12-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

Aloha (:
I'm exhausted ,
But I'm here d:

Back to yesterday,
Was in KLCC for 13 hours :O
Helped out in the booth (:

Well,
I supposed those events they had was an awesome one
For those anime fans , but absolutely not me d:
I was kinda bored there :/
I don't know who are those characters
And I don't understand Japanese language (Y)

But I found that,
those people there were surprisingly friendly
Or maybe I can said that it is good socializing skills
And that is how people see it (:

And then,
they are also very professional in drawing
They can draw a very nice thing out
without thinking much, i guess ;)

One thing I got annoyed is that
Their hair colour and their acting cute voices -.-
I can't stand it,
It's too weird and yuckish :S

By the way,
Met Lian Jiet, Dickson and another guy there (:
I guess they were like working very hard
cause they don't get to walk around like me d:

Then then,
I ate kids meal d:
They are always nicer than the normal one,
heeee (:

One more thing,
I went to disturb gor gor in his room again d:
Not really disturb, is playing with
super fun eh ;)

Come back come back !
It's today, not yesterday anymore d:

Well,
Woke up with a super annoying disturbance
Then I don't know why my right shoulder is aching :/
It can't be because of i carried my heavy bag for the whole day
Could it be?
And my left hand is really bruising
Fine, Get well soon dear hand (:

But the good thing is that,
Mummy is getting well already :D
Is like after 2 weeks,
So Hooray!

Lalala ;)
I watched Alvin and the Chipmunks :D
They all are very very cute, heeee
I like the chubby one!
Theodore and Eleanor
hehe ;)

Owh ya!
Go google " Let it Snow "
If can try to leave the tab for some moment
Try it out (:

Time to stop loitering here .
Tata ;)

乡城

2011-12-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

虚拟世界总是比较美
现实世界就是比较不美

这是青蛙给我的觉悟 (:

晚安!

Fluffy puffy goofy :D

2011-12-10T22:33:00.001+08:00

da jia hao !
heeee (:

短短3天，
就上了值差不多四张紫老虎的课
不可以说是马马虎虎，
因为我有很努力去练习，
真的很努力，
虽然还是失败了 :/

不管，
继续加油
不要加油加到起火燃烧就可以了 d:
我行！

还有，
整天在家，
故事书都要给我读完了，
闷到要变傻傻了
不过至少星星日还有东西做 (:

明天会很充实，
有一点点期待
啦啦啦，
明天会更好？
嘻嘻！

今晚，
有太阳味道的宝贝陪我
早知道不要留恋另一个香味
因为太阳味道也不错 :D

拜拜之前，
读一读这个，很有意思 (:

放下壓力，獲得輕鬆；

放下煩惱，獲得快樂；

放下自卑，獲得自信；

放下懶惰，獲得充實；

放下消極，獲得進取；

放下抱怨，獲得舒坦；

放下猶豫，獲得瀟灑；

放下狹隘，獲得自在。

放下，是一種心態的選擇；

放下，是一門心靈的學問；

放下，是一種生活的智慧。

bai bai (:
bujela!

I'll miss you (:

2011-12-08T15:22:00.001+08:00

dido (:
Came back from home town
Have lots of fun walking in and out the kitchen
Took all kinds of ingredient and played magic trick on them ;)

Grandma cooked a lot of food, heee
The fun thing is
whatever she cooked, she'll tell me that's mummy favourite
And looks like is my favourite too (:

First time walked past the railway road (:
I saw children throwing stones,
Some of them took the stone for idk what
But is quite nice to walk past there ;)

Went to Penang as usual (:
Gurney Drive!
That day was much more windy that the other night
Running at the pavement was superb ;)

Saw the other part of Penang,
All the important department gathered at a small place,
the traffic is so congested :/
Ended up walking is faster ;)

Took ferry back again :D
I like the sea breeze,
and also to see the splashes of water
heeee ;)

Back to now,
I was totally exhausted from travelling
I don't feel like doing anything,
And I'm like rotting now d;

2 hours of music class later :/
I'll survive (:

take a breath,
take a rest
and get going on ;)

tata (:
p/s: Jess Lee 离场 nice one ;)

Back To December (:

2011-12-01T15:27:00.001+08:00

Hello!
Have step into the first day of the last month ;)

Back to December (:
I do not know whether i will have an interesting one
But I'll hope i will have one, hee

I hope,
When i have finished my last stack of story books,
I can still find more to read (:
Cause I don't think I'll have time to read them next year

Secondly,
I hope mummy can change her plan d:
I really really really want to celebrate dong zhi with grandma (:
I miss the time doing the glutinous rice ball with her,
making the green colouring by using pandan,
creating all sorts of different shape tang yuan ;)
I want to do it again :D

Thirdly,
I hope my brother to make up his mind as soon as he can,
When do he want to go and do his survey or whatsoever
just make up his mind (:

Fourthly,
I don know when am I going to watch Happy Feet ;S
And RRP said that it was nice,
especially when there is songs (:
I want to watch :D

Then,
Looking forward for 17th and 18th ;)
At least I don't have to rot at home that two days
Hope I'll have fun helping out!

Okay,
Back to reality ;)

Plan with Kai Song,
Is almost going to success , i guess (:
But I think it will only start next year,
Just a maybe,
Hope can make it out as soon as i can ;)

I still left 4 books,
For the series of story books (:
That storyline sounds a bit sorrowful,
But indeed is a very different kind of books
Cause it is unlike the others,
It doesn't have an happy ending till now
Kind of the reality,
Wait till i read the last book,
Then I'll know ;)

Owh ya ,
The doggy that rrp gave me (:
Finally, I'll name it puppup <3

Dido says:
Have an awesome December
tata (:

我们的歌 (:

2011-11-29T11:28:00.001+08:00

感觉很奇怪，
不知道是什么导致我有这种感觉

整个假期，
可能过于无聊，
整天胡思乱想
整个头脑乱七八糟的
越想越高兴还不要紧，
问题是越想越恐怖

听着家人一直围绕着的课题，
虽然暂时不关我的事，
但过不久就会到我走到那种窘境
奇怪，我到底在想什么？

父母问哥哥的问题，
倘若得不到一个答案，
每次就反过来问我，
又是那些很讨厌的问题。

每次说不知道，
又说我每次都讲什么都不知道，
讨厌，要讲也先讲那个灾难当头的人
不要每次都扯到我这里

然后，
不要一直以为，
我很想读烦死人的理科
如果我知道我的理想是没有与理科有关联的
我也不会无聊地折磨自己

我不想管，
因为我下一个目标不是那些，
那些是下下目标，
船到桥头自然直，
所以去问那个人，不要问我

讲了这么多，
那些讨厌的问题就是
“ 你以后要读什么？”
“ 你以后要做什么? ”
“ 你到底要去哪里升学? ”

不要问我好不好？
如果我知道答案，
我早就说了我伟大的计划
就不用再这里埋怨

就算问多少次，
倘若我还是没有想过这种问题，
结果还是一样--- 白问
所以不要问！

不讲了，
越讲越生气，
而且还有要跌到的感觉 -.-
奇怪，很奇怪!
再见！

Waiting Outside The Line ;)

2011-11-26T22:20:00.001+08:00

Hello!
Had an unusual Saturday (:

Received postcards from Yushu they all
Postcard from Taiwan (:
Like the little girl taking balloon they drawn
Very very cute, heeeee ;)

The green green background,
with a girl sitting on the log (:
Meaningful quote on it :
好好爱自己是寻找幸福的第一步 ;)

Well,
That background reminded me of the wonderful walk
At the lost world of Tambun last month (:
That was when I walked around alone,
Looking at trees, people and the surrounding
Sitting on a fake log made bridge,
Talking to friends whom swam by (:
I like that very much and hope to do it again ;)

Did not attend tuition and music class as usual d:
Instead I went to an awesome event,
" The Poetic Raphsody " (:

Well,
I can say that was truly awesome (:
At least they had bring out most of the message through their movements
which means that it was a success one.

Got shouted by my friends d:
Fine, I'm regretted to ditch that opportunity for the sake of finals
But when I thought if I ditch finals for that
I will have blame myself for don know how long
So, what is done is done d:

Then, I am thinking how wonderful it will be
when all the blood sucker extinct (:
Well, I hope this day will come as soon as possible
Go away from me, blood sucker!

Next thing,
From now onwards,
I will never ever think that steam will not harm
Cause it does harm dreadfully :(

Skip that d:
Hello to these cute little thing (:
As you can see,
Blog layout was changed yesterday (:
Say " aloha " to the cute little snowman and snowflakes, hehe

Before I end, hmmm
Bridge of light by Pink is nice
A Thousand Years by Christina Perri is awesome too (:
Try it out!

Tata with lots of smile (:

tiny miny loves (:

2011-11-23T17:35:00.001+08:00

ni hao (:
Not an energetic day d:

Got woke up so suddenly in the early morning
I knew it wasn't schooling days,
But first question : why so early?

Yes, why?
It is the same timing when i got up late during the schooling days
And I hate that,
cause it always scare me like monsters :/

Fine, skip that (:
Went out in the early morning,
Stuck in the car due to the heavy traffic,
Eyelids are heavy enough
But I am not going to take a nap d:

Another thing,
I don't get why you found me,
and talk about things that are unimportant -.-
I am not going to ignore you,
But stop talking about those stuff.

I am not a nerd,
I read storybooks instead of tons of reference books,
I don't care what is with the averages and positions
Idon'tcareaslongasiamsastisfiedwithmyself !
So, say goodbye to them, now (:

Finished 2 books of the series of unfortunate events :D
Now i know why mummy ask why i borrowed such books d:
Those fellows were really unfortunate, hmmm :/
But there's the ending which might signifies the end of the misfortune :)

Then finally found out the chords :D
lalalalalala, yay !
aiming for the next songs, heeee
at least I'm not stuck with that few exam songs again ;)

bubu , just came back from outside d:
Means i got things to say again. heee
That promoter give me ate honey star & coco crunch :D
Super nice cause like super long din eat ad d:

Mummy said she doesn't want to buy something,
I asked why and she said cause is from china,
she turned around and chose another thing,
I asked her what is the difference between china and beijing? d;
No answer but laughter, heee ;)

dido says bai bai (:

Flower's love (:

2011-11-22T18:51:00.001+08:00

delala (:
This will really be a long long holiday
Cause it's bored, very very bored
But if it's not bored,
This holiday will be an extremely short one d:

Well,
Last music class was like i don know what :/
I never expect that sudden small test
cause i never prepared for it,
never in a million years (:

I failed you again (:
Proudly i can say, cause it's AGAIN.
I just like motif more than impro,
Cause i can play whatever i like for motif
Unlike you, restricting what i can play, hmph !

Teacher have been telling me a few times
the story of a music student.
Well, i have got no comment to that,
But for me it says that yamaha have to lower their passing marks (:

I know those stuff are useful,
But don't expect too much from us students (:
Of course we will try hard to strive for excellence,
But not all of us will have so much of creativity to please the examiners
So if any of the administration people can see this, do something d:
* I doubt they won't ever see this ;) *

Mummy keep asking me whether to continue or not
Fine, I don't know :/
With the presence of music,
I will like it if go for classes isn't for that useless exam
But as you say if I learn things without any certs,
Is nothing for the others :/
But without the presence of it,
I will find something missing,
I mean I won't get use to it or even got lifeless
By any means, I don't know (:

Skip that,
The other thing is that i need to ditch my blurness (:
If not i will kept scaring myself
with some super unimportant reasons
hehe (:

Time for happy things, heee ;)
Went to library just now,
Although there is fully filled with children type of books,
But i still managed to found the full amount :D
And now I have got many books to munch till the year end now :D

Read many of 几米 books (:
Interesting in inspiring <3
I can just remembered some of it,

人一定会有不堪的时候，

让人知道，也不怎么样（：

人不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的忧愁

鱼不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的快乐

鸟不是人，怎会了解人的荒唐

人不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的自由

鸟不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的深沉

鱼不是人，怎会了解鱼的幼稚

你不是我，怎会了解我

Can't remember the horoscope one,

But found it on website , heee (:

双子座

“一样的眼睛又不一样的看法。

一样的耳朵有比一样的听法。

一样的嘴巴有不一样的说法。

一样的心有不一样的想法。

是不是因为这样，一样的人生才有不一样的哀愁。”

身边的朋友们都有着不一样的烦恼，可是每次大家都在自言自语，我们似乎已经听不懂也不愿意去倾听对方的抱怨了，只剩下厌烦与焦躁。

巨蟹座

“ 总在快乐的时候，感到微微的惶恐。

在开怀大笑时，流下感动的泪水。

我无法相信单纯的幸福。

对人生的欺负悲喜，既坦然又不安。"

这个世界变化得太快，握在手中的就一定会是我的吗？不安不安，还是不安。我需要你的怀抱，哪怕只是一小会，那也是真真实实的温暖。

天秤座

“ 窗外放晴了，屋内仍继续下雨。

我微笑，并不等于我快乐。

我撑伞，并非只是为了避雨。

你永远都不懂我在想什么。

我想拥抱每个人，但我得先温暖我自己，请容忍我。

因为我已在练习容忍你。”

每天都在不厌其烦的维持着自己优雅的风度吗？面对讨厌的人，你天天练习微笑；面对讨厌的事情，你从来都是当仁不让地接受。

天蝎座

“ 摘不到的星星，总是最闪亮的。

溜掉的小鱼，总是最美丽的。

错过的电影，总是最好看的。

失去的情人，总是最懂我的。

我始终不明白，这究竟是什么道理。”

不要总把喜欢的东西带回家，你的家放不下，你的心也装不下。就让他们待在原来的地方好了，想起他们的时候，我们一起回忆吧

tata (:

The Princess Diaries (:

2011-11-17T15:57:00.001+08:00

It's Thursday,
I'm still counting on my fingers (:
When can I not have these home alone day?

Everyday woke up with an empty house,
Silent is all i know :/
I can't be facing scores everyday,
facing these non-living gadgets
really drive me crazy!

Nowadays,
I like night time more (:
Cause at least there are people with me,
I can talk to any of them ;)

Unlike during the days,
I just felt like a woodstick
Dull and going to die of boredom
So night time for the win (:,

The weather isn't good either
It's fine,
But I really can't stand the drastic changes everyday -.-
Got headache in the day, almost shivering at night
This is just not balance at all :S

Currently reading story books through internet again d:
I want to read the real book, not these fake ones
I knew is not good to sit here long for story books,
But boredom wins over d:

38 days more to Christmas :D
nothing planned on that day though,
But I'm going to turn bloggie Christamas (:
I have got 4 options,
But I don't know which to choose d:

Option 1 (:

Option 2 ;)

Option 3 :D

Option 4 ^ ^

Give me a helping hand , thank you!

Just sent chickles and few of them to bath :D
I asked whether can i put teddy in,
But then i got back an empty glance from mummy
which means a no :/
How should i bath teddy?

And then,
I was thinking bout giving names to that few little fellow, heee
I can't think of any cute names for them *sigh*
I need inspiration ;)

Got to go to school tmrw (:
At least tmrw will not be so boring , I think
And now i always hope Friday and weekend come as soon as possible
Because there is something keep me busy
Make me feel not lifeless at all :D

bai bai (:

Sweet Serendipity (:

2011-11-15T15:48:00.001+08:00

14.11.11
a5 gathering & birthday celebration (:

It might be the last birthday to be celebrate with friends
during the high school life :")
Next year I'm going to celebrate with books, hehe

For now,
I keep have a kind of fear
thinking what life would be like after graduation
In a new stage of life,
what things would happen?

Well,
back to yesterday (:

I'm really glad to celebrate birthday together with another birthday boy (:
When I was still a child, I often hope i can find one
cause I think it will be fun to double the happiness
And indeed it is a yes (:

Hope you have a blast (:
Always remember that there is a bunch of friends that will remember your day!

Being late for gathering d:
Super duper sorry :/
I'm kind of shocked to see so many of you there,
I'm really glad :D

Thanks for the celebration
As for the cake,
You guys make me felt really bashful :O
But still I really appreciated (:

I knew i didn't know how to use that knife to cut the cake,
Is not the right knife to use ,
I was like sawing the cake instead of cutting it d:

Thumbs up for Lian Jiet for organizing this (:
you looked tired and quiet yesterday,
ehehe, smile (:

Thank you Hsien Loong for providing me transport
Helping me to finish tat cheesy spaghetti and cake d:
Note that, I have grew up
And I'm not a kid anymore d:

Hello doggy!
You will get ur name soon ;) heee
Congrats pei for being the first one d:
You are even being the first one for early wishes, hee
I knew i trouble you much taking you as an emotion storage
But I'm super duper appreciated for you as my friend (:
Thank you for the doggy and the blog post ;)

Thank you Michelle for the blog post (:
As what you said in that post,
I can see that friendship often comes without us knowing ;)
I'll treasure it <3
Then, next time don't wear high heels, heee
And I still want to play that thing d:

Thank you to Rach (:
Talking craps with me in class,
Helping me and being a messenger for me & Kai Song (:
And also for the little doggy to scare of cats d:

Actually I want to thank everyone present d:
So, a very very very big thank you to them (:

Apart from them (:
Thank you daddy, hehe
I got shock to see that picture message d:
I knew you must had wasted a lot of time just to send me that ;)

And thank you to my dears,
Giving me the card full of wishes ;)
I really really did have fun with you people ;)

After that few hours spending time with a5-ians
kind of blame myself for going there not for the purpose as stated , hehe
I always though that gathering will have many many silence occurred,
I am fear of that, but yesterday event proved I'm wrong
I promise not to have this kind of thinking anymore (:

Really had a great day yesterday,
although being woke by mummy in the early morning
I really got super hyper playing the circling thing with may xian & michelle ;)
I want to play again!
fall down also nevermind, heh d:

With loves and gratitude ,
My life is colourful because of friends ;)
May the bonds get stronger :)
Tata ~

Time is being a friend stealer (:

2011-11-14T12:59:00.001+08:00

Dumbo (:

I'm here again ,heee

Well, went gathering yesterday

It was awesome much,

Although i just kept quiet all the time

I am really in the wrong channel with them

Everything they talked about their school

is like a what and then another what

As what he said,

I have changed quite a lot,

not physically , but mentally (:

But I can say that I am not shy as what you said

I just learned to keep myself quiet

after all those disastrous incident

I might be weird,

I might be too different from the old me,

But please accept for who I am now,

and bear with it (:

Going for a5 gathering tonight, heee

Not really very excited or have special feeling for it,

cause i am just too scare for all the silence that might be occur

And I know mummy is worried :/

Sorry mummy ,

I knew that incident that happened have a total impact to you,

But like what I have explained,

I got important stuff to do

Thank you for understanding (:

I promise I will be back safely, no worries ;)

Still got some other stuff,

I think it is better to leave it for next post , heee (:

Got to comply my promise to mummy

ciao for music and homework (:

One wants one's one wander wand (:

2011-11-11T15:35:00.001+08:00

Hello!

11.11.11 , a great date (:

Well, last day of school

last day of my form 4's life (:

Although i have been not liking my class since the beginning

still I have spent one year with all of them

Sometimes, we really need to accept what we were given (:

Although I still miss my old classmates,

I still miss a5 more,

But still I have to accept the fact to have them as my classmates

I really got a weird morning today,

First is waking up 2 hours before the actual time

and cleaning up myself

But at least I still manage to find out

And went back to sleep again d:

Then was thinking weird stuff
Did not even listen properly what people said,
And was bad enough to simply reply people questions
heee, sorry d:

Then using up my time in school

by doing lots of sudoku again (:

I mean i used to not playing it,

But I'm really too bored , heee

And I got my cert,

with an additional " h " -.-

I like the colour of the cert, colourful enough, heee

Got to get my allowance, ye bonus and that government thingy next year (:

Recently, I'm kind of have a mixed feeling,

I don't know why

Sometimes i feel like smiling or even shed tears -.-

Is just too random to do all these kind of things,

So uhm skip this (:

hehe

I supposed they are watching the movie right now (:

Didn't get to join them ):

well, i am just going to rot at home,

if mummy plan is going to fail again -.-

Then, farewell for Pn Joyce yesterday (:

My first impression of her is by my gor gor

Indeed it wasn't that well,

But undeniable she is really good (:

I appreciated her,

Helping me out,

Having faith in me,

Helping me to deal with the hard times,

Understanding my situations,

and yes giving me all kinds of opportunities (:

Working with her is indeed wonderful,

She wasn't being tricky,

indeed very nice to work with(:

All the best again,

and thank you for everything (:

And uhm, i got suprise (:

Thank you for the card, the early wishes and present!

* and thank you nuffnang too d: *
And I'm not going to see them now, few more days d:

I knew you guys is going to be miles away from me,

I hope mummy will take me as a teenager next time :")

Have fun in Taiwan my dears!

Remember to take many photos and I'll miss you guys (:

Bringing up to the issue of child ( Y )

Seriously, I don't look like a child

Why are mummy colleagues asking me am I a primary student again?

And why are waiters asking me do I need a kid meal -.-

Hello people, I'm going to be officialy 16

Not a kid at all, so yeah (:

Holidays is here,

List to be fulfilled is here too (:

1. Read many many storybooks (:

2. Give chickles and teddy a bath

3. Solve all my problems on homeworks

4. Go outing ;)

5. Have a family trip. heee

6. Deal with impro and motif d:

7. Have fun, hehe

I'm not greedy,

Just a few here first, heh (:

Wishes for this great day :

Great day for everyday (:

Tata with lots of love (:

Happy Holidays!
* remember to look at the awesome title d: *

笑话

2011-11-07T13:05:00.000+08:00

不喜欢这种感觉

沉默的感觉

我知道我不喜欢讲话

可是我也有讲话的时候

不要一直对我沉默不语

很讨厌！

不讲了，

生气你了 :S

You've Got A Friend In Me (:

2011-11-06T16:54:00.001+08:00

Peekabooo ;)
What a week i had, heh

Being in a mood typhoon
happy and moody mood interchange all the time
Yes, imma person who is low in EQ ;)
Still learning to improve on that, heheee

So uhm,
graduation day for the form 5s'
I do get touched deep in my heart when they sang songs
I got more of it when they sang for pn sim's retirement :")

The atmosphere around is like a happy one at first
But then when they started all the singing,
it went like so sad cause they will rarely see each other again,
the memories in high school will always be in their heart
and after the exams, the new page of life will start immediately :)

One more year in school (:
will I be able to load as much of good memories as I can?
I hope I can, and we'll see that ;)

I did see people posting on 2 of my juniors' wall
Touched enough to see that,
at least just in 2 years,
they have managed to build a friendship
like a sea that will never shattered, like a mirror that will never break (:

Well,
I just got some annoying symptoms that
Those VSOP is totally stuck in my head d:
I mean is a good thing, but too weird d:

Owh ya,
The cute little boy boy in the Popular (:
You're too cute that you distracted me from reading my books
You aren't disturbing me like ur mummy said,
your smile and laughter made my day ;)

I went for books again, heh
To be honest i felt so bad to see form 4 reference book in malay :/
That is a total disaster also to see form 5 ones published in bilingual
I could say that, I'm way too lucky to escape from that (:

Happy enough to finished 2 books
while my family went to walk around the mall (:
And I did learnt that,
Never gave up on myself,
So I will try to change my opinion towards me myself
Although I'm still disappointed, heee

To be honest, I'm regretting now :/
Why did I do that decision?
And is even for that disastrous finals.
Whatever it is, I'm going to find things to do
make my holiday a more meaningful one (:

My best friend's girl (:
Tata for now!

Candilliant

2011-11-02T17:31:00.001+08:00

The truth is

I thought i have enough psychophysiology preparation

But I didn't (:

Every look, every words

seems to be a sword to me.

I have not enough bravery to pick all these stuff

too heavy for me.

Indeed, if i pick them up,

I would broke into pieces.

I did feel like screaming

on a gazing field where no one knows me

I feel like tear them into pieces,

and throw it in to the bin.

But even though i did that,

It will still be a scar

I don't know how to say,

But i just felt like there is a "ghost "

yes, it does sound childish,

but this is what i feel

I'm sorry i broke the promise

I promise i wouldn't take that hard,

But I failed.

I hope i could go back to the old times

where i was always free from that ghostly feeling

and when I'm still a person who talk much

Today isn't a good day,

ever since in the very early morning.

I'm just not having awesome day in this awesome month

cause I failed

in almost everything or even everything

And yes you,

stop saying something that can make yourself laugh

And make me looking at you weirdly

hardly understand why would you say such things -.-

Show encrypted text

May the awesome month stay awesome

And don't ruin my day

cause' the people who care too much always lose in the end - bubu -

ciao~

You're the Apple of My Eye (:

2011-11-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

No matter how many smiley i still need to spam on that paper

No matter how many times i need to calm myself down

I should stop doing that (:

Yes, it was much disappointed

Just like last time, maybe even worse

For me,

It isn't just disappointed myself,

but disappointed her :/

I'm sorry for that

But I need to rearrange everything in my brain (:

One more to go,

I hope it wouldn't be like this one (:

And yes, tomorrow is a good day!

不可以做皮皮(: - 鹅蛋 -

Rflamingo :D

2011-11-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

November november!

Awesome month ;)

Happy Birthday to Kai Song :D

You were born on the first day of the awesome month, heh!

The photo i asked you to take with me ;")

Cause at that time, I really scare that when you left

I couldn't get to have a photo with you d:

I really missed the moment with you

Teasing and made fun of each other

Although sometimes you really annoyed me

But still i missed you :")

Thank you bringing me fun during the old times

Although we quarrelled sometimes

but still memories ;)

I still remembered what you post on my wall:

Life's short, so dun be so emotional and traumatic. OK? :) Just accept whatever it is, and I guess it's already pretty good.

Sometimes, you are similar to me- aiming for the best, but in some occasions, I just can't seem to reach my target, and I have to learn how to go along with what life has thrown to me. It might be hard to stay positive in a wind-whirl, but always believe that there will be a rainbow later :) Believe in yourself and I believe that you will score well in your exam :)

Undeniable,

I still can't get rid of my problem d:

And maybe you still face this problem too

Typical rppl (:

Seriously,

I didn't know that rach updated you bout that

I mean I don't even know that she noticed that d:

But still thank you for that piece of advice (:

All the best to you (:

Good luck in your tmrw exam

And don't get too tall d:

Challenge me (:

2011-10-31T19:02:00.002+08:00

ni hao (:
I'm here,
again ;)

Well,
Showed AMA candy and brilliant ;)
Waved their hands,
Showed brilliant's football and candy's love
heeeeee (:

Toys of mine during the childhood ;)
I still remember i used to hug them everynight
Playing or even talking to them before I slept
Good memories eh ;)

And erm,
Although today I prepared to accept some facts
But it happend that it is going to happen another day
So uhm,
Still need to be optimistic (:

My gor gor is just too lifeless,
and being such a weirdo d:
Spamming my facebook chat without any reasons,
typing nonsense and I'm just sitting beside him -.-

I got not much thing to say,
But I really really want to read story books :D

Here's a nice one (:

One thing is that,
I'm going to come here for idk how many days
Just to say that,
Everyday tomorrow of mine is a good day ;)
Tomorrow is a good day :D

tata (:

Next to you (:

2011-10-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

Hello (:

Tomorrow is monday

Tomorrow is going to be a good good day

I mean it must be a good day no matter what (:

I'm not bored now

I mean I am not boring (:

Finished the sejarah questions in don know how many days

Yes, results of not concentrating d:

And add maths (:

Gahhhh, why you seems to be easy

ONLY when I'm doing you in tuition

Why are you bullying me at home, hmph :/

My sunday night is going to be free

And is like lifeless much -.-

Shouldn't have skip much classes for exams

Not worth i guess?

I just got to pick up my music stuff

But I don't feel like doing it :P

I mean playing it for relaxing purposes,

I'll give a nod and a yes (:

But for exam ,

idontlikeexaminanywayihateexams!

Then then, mummy cant stop asking me to go that camp

eeeee, 3 weeks

is not 3 days, is 3 weeks okay :/

By hook or by crook,

IDONCAREIAMNOTGOING :D

And then,

I want to finish that book :/

Is like read till almost half only,

I want to finish it!

I'm going to find ways to finish it, heh ;)

Listening to many many songs nowadays (:

Keeping rhythms and accompanies in my head

Just to use them in that particular improvisation and motif

You see, is exam again :P

Can't wait for tmrw afternoon, heh ;)

Going to let AMA see my girl girl n boy boy, heeeeee

I still remember they went into my life when I was 5

But I still love them much ;)

Tomorrow is a good day :D

lalala, tata (:

Perfectionist (:

2011-10-28T09:59:00.000+08:00

Yeehaaaa :D
I'm not bored,
Cause I have got something to do, heh ;)

Not much thing to say,
But still, I'm lifeless much for the past few days
Today will be a different one, i guess ;)

Main purpose for this post:
Make myself clear (:

Well,
I don't talk doesn't means I'm antisocial
I means I talk, but seldom (:

When I don't gave any response on some issue
Cause I knew things will go off
when the times go by (:

I don't mislead people,
I just let people to have more space to think about stuffs
Not saying imagination, but the truth (:

Sometimes I will still shed my tears
when mentioning about the bad memories
This is me, I can't forget them
I wish I could (:

When I looks not so hyper,
I'm not sad,
I'm just wanting some inner peace (:

If you got confused,
Ask me, I'll tell you (:

I putting (: in every last sentence
Cause I found it funny for the issue, heh ;)

Don't get mislead by me,
I'm just too special or maybe too weird to understand (:
Understand me by other ways
You'll find it different (:

Here is some awesome much thing ;)
如果没有那热血沸腾的一天，我的世界会少了一个色彩，如果没有傻瓜笨蛋的你们，我的世界会停止转动。
如果没有炫烂的泡沫，我的心田会少了一个梦，如果没有义气秉直的你们，我的记忆拼图，不会完整。
如果没有你们这一班朋友，我的生活会少了一个回忆，如果没有美好的回忆，我的生活不会精彩。
如果没有脆丽的歌声，我的头脑会一直放空，如果没有外表冰冷内心却富有温暖巧克力雪糕的问候，我会被冻死.

tata (:
皮蛋和鹅蛋的谈话 (:

那些年 (:

2011-10-26T16:11:00.001+08:00

回忆其实很特别
可以让人一边回想一边将嘴角往上扬
很闷得时候，
回忆可以是最好的朋友 (:

我喜欢美好的回忆
它可以点亮开心的烛火
就算很想哭，想起他们也可以微笑 ;)

我要把美好的回忆全部记下来
赶走不好的，放更多美好的

听了很多的歌
都是制作人以自己的心境写的
感觉不到心境的
只能聆听旋律
感觉很好
给我灵感去写歌谱
嘻嘻 (:

很想吹泡泡
那种感觉很美
有童年的回忆
把泡泡一个个地弄破
有梦幻破灭的感觉
很可悲但是现实就是如此

更喜欢独自走走
坐在一个地方
看着四周，
发呆，眺望远处
这样可能可以抛掉地心吸力
飞在梦幻中 :P

下这雨
盖着被单，
抱着可爱的小东东
很想小时后给妈妈抱着一样
很温馨，很温暖 (":

很久没有牵着妈妈的手
那一天她突然再次牵着我的手
很喜欢那温暖的体温
柔柔的手掌心也很舒服
可以握久一点更好 ;)

我喜欢聆听，
但这不是小时候的我
是环境告诉我要聆听
所以我学会了聆听 ^^

我要跑
要跳
要飞
因为我现在真的很闷 d:

拜拜！
我要飞了 d:

Craving for memories (:

2011-10-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

*sense something *
eeeeee (:
a panda is here !

Well,
Finals had over so does SLAD trip (:
Sleepless night for more than one month
Made me a total panda d:
Going to ditch finals and talked about the trip , heee

SLAD trip 2011 (:
Even words can't describe all about it
But I'll try ;)

Before the trip,
Everything was like scattered all over
Waiting me to organized them well
People who cannot be trusted are all over
Yes, indeed they give me a push to show them
I can do it without them (:

Things do happened everytime
And these are the times for me to learn
It was like learning in a hard way
But better than i did not learn anything (:

During the trip,
I got to learn how to be flexible to any changes (:
Learned how to break the ice first
and somehow learned to tolerate, heh ;)

It was way more fun than i think
Although did not get to wet myself :P
But seeing them enjoying themselves
I'm satisfied enough (:

As for the hotel,
Why are your pillow so soft?
I don't like your pillow like seriously
And so does ur air-cooling system d:

A very big thank you to all the participants (:
Without you guys,
No matter how hard I worked out,
it will still be a zero

To the bus driver and teachers
thank you for accompanying us for 3 days
I appreciated although there is some conflicts (:

As for the guardian and angel game (:
I realized that human are always very careless
We don't realized that there are people caring for us
Until we were told or we lost them
So uhm I learnt my lesson :P

Thank you to those "reliable" people
I thought I'll failed this trip without you guys
But I'm wrong
Cause I met more friends (:

Thank you to shu (:
Being our photographer,
Always being there for me throughout the whole preparations
Always telling me is okay that the particular thing is okay for not bring perfect
Although you got stressed like me sometimes
But still always supporting me
wo ai ni <3

Thank you to panda too (:
Although at first I am not willing you to help me out
Is super awkward to have a guest invited to help me out
But to be honest,
Without most of your help,
This trip wont be existing since i'm kind of lost passion in it
I'm sorry to make you into trouble,
but still thank you for always being there throughout the trip (:

Sometimes when I think that it will never get better
There is always things to show that I'm wrong
I must overcome my socializing problems (:
And learned that not everything can be perfect ;)
I mean I'll try , hehe

There is still lots more to say
But erm I can't express them all here
Just let them be part of my good memories (:

tata (:

简单曲 (:

2011-10-14T15:51:00.000+08:00

Aloha (:

Being a freak for the whole week

Everyday sticking on the chairs to study

Yes, like a freak (:

Conclusion for the 3 subjects taken

Sejarah : I have nothing to do with luck (:

Chemistry : Knowing too much isn't a good thing, cause you will get confused ( Y )

Biology : Worst health condition of the week :/ Headache & stomache contributes to sudden blank.

But still, better than chem (:

Well, 5 more days of final (:

I hope I can do well in the next 5 days in order to prevent critical drop in each subject (:

I don't want drop in average (:

I mean as long as i did my best, i will still accept.

But still don't drop is better . * irony eh d: *

And to blood suckers :

Stop sucking my blood!

Learn ur male friends to suck tree juices

Leave me alone, kaythanksbye (:

Just watched a music video

Special music video taken in primary school (:

and the songs rhythm is also quite entertaining n relaxing

although I don't really like rap in it (:

Bravo :D

And yes trip (:

First time organizing overnight trips

Kinda lost my direction :/

And is just straight after exam ends

Shoudn't state that date * regretting :P *

There is one thing confusing me now

I mean I don't know to go or not to go :(

Is 3 weeks, almost one month

I can't get to stay at home and go back to visit grandma

But is undeniably a good experience

to go or not to go?

bubulala (:

I can't get to see bunny on wednesday * sobieeeeeee*

that day failed to find anyone i wanted to find

And I can't see bunnyyyy :(

Have to wait till next saturday , I'll wait (:

Self said :

7 more days to your freedom (:

Jia you , good luck and all the best ;)

Unbroken

2011-10-12T15:20:00.001+08:00

People said that

99% of hardwork + 1% of luck = success (:

And yes I did work hard,

But no luck :(

I never get anything right

which i make the decision depends on my luck :/

Whatever it is

I am still hoping for miracle d:

Ciao for chem (:

Difference In Me (:

2011-10-09T17:52:00.001+08:00

Hello (:
I know the sun is so nice shining out there
The sky blue, the beautiful kind of blue (:
But I don't like this hot weather
Too hot and headache visited me :O

Can't really concentrated on studies today
Kept going out and erm got distracted by my bao bei d:
Stories that have been told long time ago kept popping out
Then the whole mind is like super random
eeeeeee (:

And these few days keep scream
Creatures like them really scare me out
And that scary video is still in my mind
And that is like 2 or 3 weeks ago -.-

Recently, AMA addicted to bunny ;)
And I'm finding the carrot which idk where it is now d:
And there's a promise between me and AMA
hehe, can't wait to see bunny :D

Last whole week I am like super mad
Slept at 2 everyday :O
Dealing with maths and chem every night
And my brain is like overloaded :/

This week is going to be tough
Well prepared and stop panic is the thing I have to do (:
I can't listen to mummy advice
I will got nerves and this is super abnormal :/

bubulala (:
super happy for the last whole week :D
many things that i have never done it before have been sucessful
eeeeeeee :D

Nowadays also kept saw tumblr quotes and facebook
hehe, too awesome (:
And bunnys and awesome cartoons keep appearing!
wo hen xi huan zhe gong gan jue ;)

Enough for today (:
Got to reach my aim before I leave home!
bai bai!

Find the suprise in 200th (:

2011-10-06T17:01:00.000+08:00

Hello (:
Bio-ing from morning till now,
And it's very boring :/

I thought I have enough sleep
to read it without fall asleep
But now it proves I'm wrong :O
Conclusion: Bio is for sleepless night d:

Nowadays,
I heard many of them went to library
group study (:
I never try group study before,
and I wonder how it is to study together.

Till now, I still prefer self studying
Cause I will easily get distracted while people are discussing
And I'll end up read nothing ;P
This happened quite frequently especially before exams
So uhhm, I'll try once and see how it is (:

Planned to finish 5 chaps of bio and finished maths today
Hope it success (:
I mean I'm half way already, so uhm :D

8 more days of final till freedom (:
Feel super happy while think about it
But isn't a good thing cause it slacks me down
And yet it cheers me up while i felt like sleeping
so uhm, think about it moderately eh ;P

And i kept found cute little creatures on tumblr :D
Pink elephant, bunny and stich!
Doggies and rabbits with cute expressions
hehe, they made my day!

lalala (:
200th post!

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Stay tune and happy studying!
tata (:

数到三不哭，要笑

2011-10-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

很讨厌的感觉又来了

很讨厌也不喜欢 ):

走开可以吗？

一定要听话
丢掉脾气

一定要！

A Smile on Your Face (:

2011-10-04T00:45:00.003+08:00

It's 12.30a.m.
And I'm still here (:
Skyping with yushu and blogging here
hehe

Yushu was singing songs while doing the trip stuff
while I was here blogging while waiting for her (:
Although my study plan failed
But I'm still happy with what I have done today.
Kinda sastisfied (:
p/s: I feel like recording yushu's singing d:

And to panda (:
Really wanted to thank you for lending me a helping hand.
Although I really feel ill at ease
You are supposed to go to the trip
But ended up helping me do the planning

You are really experienced in it
I can't deny it (:
Is hard to find ppl like you and yushu
Helping me out till so late
And is during the exam's period ;")
I really appreciated for both of your hardwork
And yushu for helping me out all the way long (:

I hope with the help of all of you
Co operation and participation of everyone of them
I could carry out an organizer's works
Without shedding tears for the first time (:

And I changed skype profile pic (:
hehe, a cute little creature saying hello!
found it on tumblr. ;)

That's for now (:
Tata and back to work!

Minnie (:

2011-10-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

Hello, wello and yello (;
Feeling dizzy whole day long,
With a sudden stomachache just right before the exam started
How nice (:

And I'm suppose to be having a nap now,
But I watched tom and jerry which made me happy (:
I still love cartoons . hehe
Cause they are awesome ;)

And playing songs for own entertainment
is always much more better (:

And Mr Physics,
I know you got no life,
But I have a wonderful life (:
Don't get jealous and ruined my too

I don't know tension,
I know attention (:
I don't know what force
I know I'm forced to read you
I don't know why you hate me
I know I don't really like you too (:

At first, I screwed physics.
And I feel like screw it back (:
But now I feel like screw another human being more

Yes, As what I said
You'll never get respect from us (:
Cause you are more like a coward
You are more to emptiness
You have got nothing physically and mentally
Maybe yes, but not tat much (:

Now I feel like spilling a hot soup on a few people
I know I'm like overheated
But if you are giving me hope,
And at the same time distinguished it
You'll get it and I mean it (:

Holidays for 8 days (:
And the wars with books starts now
Before that was just a small fight
Now is the real war (:

Good luck to the form 3's
Happy studying to all the others (:

Tata~
* wave*

Love

2011-10-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

ni hao (:
Wo jin tian bu shi hen hao :/
hehe

Hmmm, regretted for it
Shouldn't have done tat for more than 1 hour.
Eyes are swelling,
Head is so heavy for the whole day.

But I really couldn't resist to do that.
I can't stand any more pressure in me myself
I don't talk much,
I don't like telling people my stuff,
Cause I feel very unsafe ):

When I was still young,
I told you everything,
But now I don't.
Cause I'm no longer a kid to you,
And you wouldn't give me advice on my problem
You rather mention is repeatedly,
Without noticing I'm crying (:

And these few days,
Those creatures keep appearing in front of me
and they were too gross for me.
Cats, rats and more.

I screamed,
I got a slight heart attack,
And I dislike you all ):
Go away pleas eand thank you !

Tmrw is physics (:
And to dear physics :

I have put much effort on you, I hope you don't treat me like how bio and moral treated me (:

I mean, I try to understand and love you,

So try to love me and understand me too <3

I will smile from now (:

Although tears might be rolling down,

anger might be exploded like volcano

But I'll try.

Have faith in me (:

Tata~

Loser like me (:

2011-09-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

Hello (:

I feel like go to a wide place

Scream and shout as loud as I can.

I need to distress like seriously :(

I'm always the loser to stress and panic.

And I don't want to be.

I don't feeling eating now

Cause I'm just disappointed to myself.

Very very disappointed ):

Why would I forgot almost everything just because of panic

I'm just a failure ):

Is like everytime the subject i focus more on it,

I really got a bad return

Conclusion: Don't study much

But I can't make it

I swear I can't

Woke up early morning with a totally bad sign
Blood on lips -.-
Scare me much, and is very pain :/

Yeah, found this on facebook.

The more you see the picture move, the stress-er you are

And to another loser out there

You better keep your mouth shut!

If you really hate me that much

Curse me to death instead of cursing me for having bad luck or whatever in my studies

And yes you,

I'm student not your pembantu or what

Can you please do it by yourself?

Asking to lie on the phone

And you have got nothing

Get a life!

Whatever it is

Got to go against the plan now (:

Rest day for today!

bye!

Dreams (:

2011-09-29T15:47:00.001+08:00

Yello (:

Sejarah and add maths

Bye for now (:

You made me mad,

And I hate you ,

Stomachache :/

Well,

Add maths was terrible (:

Cause i never touched add maths yesterday.

Thanks to sejarah.

Sejarah (:

Fun enough,

created many many names :D

Then uhm,

Scolded people during exams :O

I mean I don care you didn't study or what,

Don bug me during exams (:

Stomachache go away (:

Dizzy and sleepiness go away too.

Idon'tneedanyoneofyou,

Thanksandbye!

Tata~

History (:

2011-09-28T17:17:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I am going to mad
Stupid stress ):

Go away!
Or else I can't memorize anything.
I don't want you!

Go die stress
And BYE BYE!

Proud (:

2011-09-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

Aloha!

I'm here again (:

Just finished my add maths past year!

Yay for me d:

Well, got to go to school tmrw

To rot myself there (:

Anyways,

Happy Birthday to gor gor (:

you not cool la d:

Happy Sweet 18th (:

I know we both always quarrel d:

But then still wish you happy birthday la!

Good luck in ur studies n future (:

And don't bully me d:

Enjoy and have a blast (:

ciao~

Cause I'm Your Angel (:

2011-09-27T19:26:00.001+08:00

Aloha (:

Just watched lilo and stitch this afternoon!

Lilo gone for the hula competition ;)

Cartoons always make me happy. hehe

Well, just came back from 3 hours of add maths

Almost got frosted at there :O

Too cold, and I ain't wearing long sleeve.

Next stop, english tuition

Boring enough :/

Well, kinda screwed up my malay paper today.

But I ain't feeling sad or whatever it is (:

Cause those are really alien words for me,

I mean not a word for me :P

English essay as usual,

lack of time :/

Tenses mistakes must be a lot now

Owh fine, i know Cedric's meaning of many

which means little.

And why should i border to go school tmrw

If isn't because of the instructions given,

and 2 marks of purata got deducted.

I don't like you either,

cause i know you don like me too d:

Sejarah and add maths on thursday ( Y )

U think i can cope sejarah with add maths?

You are wrong, totally wrong.

I suck in maths since form 2,

And i'm not interested in islam either (:

I need exam mood to keep me motivated.

But i don't need stress.

I mean stress made me do worse in exams,

Go away (:

I want stressless like today but with exam mood :D

Tata for dinner (:

Hope can finish my food on time :P

Vinegar (:

2011-09-24T21:22:00.002+08:00

Dumbo (:
It's saturday again!
And and final is two days from now ):
I'm not prepared yet, especially add maths

Add maths = duo yu de shu xue d:
I mean like i think too much for the solution,
and I got wrong in the end -.-
That is why I never like maths (:

Then, i got one month of music class off :D
Means i can concentrate on my exams. hehe
Good to have a singapore PR teacher d:

Nowadays keep eating new bought biscuits ;P
Even mummy cant resist to eat them,
So how could I don't eat them? hehe

And I watched cartoon everyday while eating my lunch :D
DUMBO :D
2D mickey mouse
Home Alone
Yay! (:

And then,
I am praying don't rain that much anymore (:
I don't want to wear jacket everyday,
making me looks like a sick person (:

Owh, next wednesday ( Y )
I don't want to go to school,
but i don't want my 22 marks got deducted -.-
Many of them planned to buy sick certificate,
And I'm very sure mummy wont do that :/

Mummy asked why is she retiring on such day
And I said cause she doesn't want anyone to attend it d:
But gor gor so bad ):
He said why should i care about my marks got deducted,
And the worse thing is that he said i am too marky -.-
FINE, go away!

okay la (:
I got to go and do that duo yu de shu xue,
can't go according to my plan to study komsas :/

tata (:

Hi and Bye (:

2011-09-18T22:50:00.001+08:00

Can You be more interesting?
And easier to understand ?
i mean you, you and you :P

One more week to finals,
And I'm still lost in the world of add maths.
I can't finish the whole book,
Cause my speed is as slow as a tortoise ):
And my brain is just too exhausted
which made me did the wrong calculation all the time. * boo*

And those annoying blood suckers is all over -.-
I can't catch any of them,
And I really want them to get lost!

the weather, too cold for me :/
jackets and blankets are with me all the time..
hmm, dislike :O

Songs played,
either too noisy which irritates me,
or too calm to make me sleepy :)
Seems like I'm troublesome eh ;)

Time is running away from me,
so uhm bai (:

I'll survive (:

2011-09-16T22:11:00.001+08:00

Wello (:

I am back again! hehe

This whole week was really a special week for me

Got very very tired everyday,

and I know the sun loves me too much :P

Malaysia day!

Finally everything has ended,

And I should and must put 100% concentration on studies (:

11 more days to final,

And I am so dead :)

p/s: Sejarah i don like you cause u killed my brain cells * boo*

Well,

Truthfully, chosen to go for 1 Malaysia thingy

was rather a conflict for me at first

I am quite sensitive with the exam issues,

Might be because of my environment since I'm still a child

It is really a good experience for me,

although i really made me exhausted and

had to skipped school and lack of time for revising :/

But at least I knew how it was like to have such rehearsal for the national events

I met new people and of course friends (:

I learned how to communicate better with the others,

which was really my weakest point. hehe

I understand the quote better,

If you're not brave to take the first step,

You'll never know how far you can go (:

It might be quite hard for me to start a conversation to people whom i don know

But when I'm alone and have to be independence,

I have to make the first step,

If not I'll be like a dumb.

Although I some kind of like dislike some people there calling me some weird names -.-

But still have to bear with it (:

To gain is to put commitment in it~

owh ya, the patriotic songs!

kept stucking in my head,

And yet i was there humming again and again

kind of addicted eh ;)

And uhm, the form 2's there was like

very friendly, but i can't really get used to call ' jiejie ' by them

is kind of weird :P

But still, without them i would die of boredom (:

and the stalker teacher -.-

Congrats for taking so many ugly photos :P

To be honest, Malaysia weather is like weather in the desert

Is like the sun is burning in the day, and raining heavily at night

That really causes the drastic drop in temperature which is BAD :O

As I said, finals is coming soon :(

So uhm, hello add maths again!

I'll made you always be in my brain instead of heart :P

tata~

Believe or not

2011-09-12T16:58:00.001+08:00

Believe what I say,

Please and thank you (:

If you don't,

Don't ask me anything (:

I hope and maybe I knew i can make it to the end

Although I feel like crying now,

or maybe not realizing teas are already rolling down

Please don't mention the word to me now

I beg for it (:

Cause I am not a superhuman,

I got stressed everytime when it comes to me,

But now the situation had got me even stress than ever :/

I knew I'm facing the same problem like last time

I did not get a good ending last time,

But I really hope I can change it (:

Anyway, Happy Mooncake Festival (:

May everyone have a good time with family members!

Love the way you lie

2011-09-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

Yello (:

Hectic and fruitful week!

Glad that I had kind of settled the trip stuff

Finished my transposition and yes, after 3 weeks d:

And also I did settle the demerit system :D

Just got back from my 2 days life marathon (:

Tired and exhausted..

Next week schedule is really killing me :/

And my time management is getting out of control

Can ya help me out? heheee

Given Nasi Lemak again as breakfast

But I am kind enough to give other ppl d:

I don't know do I still have to get tat everday :O

I hope not ;)

Met quite a lot of awkward moment today

Super dislike, hmph :B

I don't know why it is awkward for me

But undeniably is that if it is not awkward then it's weird ;p

Owh, my phone -.-

BAD BAD PHONE, hmph

I can't reply message, I can't call

The alarm wont rang, although the phone is on -.-

So, 16 days more to final :/

And and I am super worried ):

I don't know can i managed to maintain it

Is too much to study and I'm lack of time ):

See this :D

Owh ya!

I ain't going for the principal retirement :P

I mean most of us wont go for it

heheeee

I wonder what celebrations do we have today or tmrw?

Why are people nearby my neighbourhood playing fireworks?

It is pretty enough and yet annoying

I mean I will get scare off when it suddenly BOOMED

Anyway, wo bu guan ta jiu ke yi liao ;)

Then, next monday is mooncake festival :D

My house is full with different types of mooncake

And the flavours were really weird :O

But still I want to play candles! hehe

But mummy said i am not a child anymore. *booo*

CHILD this words made me think of baby (:

But not a good thing, cause everyone said i am like baby -.-

But I am not okay. blek :P

AMA, see this :D

Happy Mooncake Festival ,

Happy No Monday Blues,

Happy Holidays (:

ciao~

2011-09-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

GAHHHHH !

What happened to me today?

Kept got angry even due to little things ):

I shouldn't be angry with little stuffs

But why I am doing it so frequently today?

Is it I absorbed too much of sunlight today?

I got to do something to chill myself out

And I really wanted to take a nap but I can't

Essay not done yet ):

But I got no mood to do it now

There is something irratable that make me moody

I don know what is that

Today was really lifeless in the dataran

VERY VERY LIFELESS

But good news is that

I got to attend lessons for the next 3 days :D

means no rehearsal ;)

And uhm, food -.-

I got too many food with me now

It irritates me, like seriously

I can even feel that I'm very full just by thinking of them

When I saw them, I feel like throwing them :/

And again I'm really in a bad temper today -.-

Reached home very late today ):

Became a roasted human under the hot sun

And did not get to skype with michelle

Is like I broke a promise ):

Sorryyyy ):

Tmrw I'll show you (:

Ciao for essay :/

Effiel Tower

2011-09-05T17:55:00.001+08:00

School reopens (:
And yes, stress out again!
Looking at the physics reflection like a freak
But still don't understand what it is
This is physics for me :D

And uhm, add maths
I only realized that i forgot almost everything
during last week tuition (:

What else? Sejarah!
Ahh, epic enough (:
I stared at the same page for 10 minutes
and realized that i was day dreaming

Got to stop saying about them
Is better to finish my tuition homework now (:
But still I want to munch out all the words first

Well, this morning was really too epic

I thought it was a good start to have my flag raise on time

cause i have not been doing that for too long d:

But when I heard principal saying ceongsam this word

I almost jump with shock :O

When I was feeling relief that she didn't say out the name

My teacher had been going her a favour and mentioned it in class

Worst period ever, i mean it.

I am trying not to let people know, and yet * you know what*

The whole day, I got bug by the few classmates

because of that -.-

And i let mummy laughed for more than 1 minute in phone

Fine. whatever it is, no one is going to see it ^ ^

p/s: sending msg to teacher tat I had never met before isreally weird :s

*skip*

Tumblr :D
Tumblr got many effiel towers <3
Just showed michelle album of it yesterday! * heheee*

And owh, AMA!
tmrw tmrw :D I'll show you POOOOH, eeyore, tigger and effiel tower ;)

Sayonara ;)

Wake Me Up When September Ends (:

2011-09-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

September september :)
Holiday plan kinda fail. hehe
Went out with family for the whole 3 days (":

Kept going to jogging these few days
I feel Healthy :P
For me is way better than going to shopping center
I don know why,
Imma just weird (:

Spending time with family is always that nice (:
Although there will always be some quarelling
Sometimes i do curse when I got very angry
But I always pray inside that what I curse will not happen :P
I know I will regret if it does happen
So yeah , Family love is very strong ;)

Yesterday was Merdeka day
But I woke up wondering why is today a holiday (Y)
And mummy said there is no celebration
How weird :O

School is going to reopen
Kind of worried about my tight schedule :/
I hope I can maintain both activities and studies (:

Tmrw is going to be a sejarah nota day (;
By hook or by crook, I MUST FINISH :D
I wanted to do encrypted post
But I am too lazy to do it d:
So next time ;)

And do visit tumblr !
I really like those quotes :)
very the awesome!

Go read some :D
Bai!

Stereo Hearts (:

2011-08-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

Aloha!

Had a superb day yesterday (:

Went Gasing Hills :)

Superboy went with us too!

Climb up and down the hills twice

Although it was raining but sitll fun (:

We took big big leaf to become a natural umbrella!

And it really works * wheeee *

Then went to celebrate mun's birthday (:

Let the pictures do the talking

Taman Jaya LRT station (:

Petaling street (:

Pasar seni ;)

A tourist helped us took this!

Secret Recipe (:

Sang b'day songs for mun!

I don know which station d:

KLCC :D

Thennnn, sat LRT back to KJ station (:

Waited for IPC shuttle bus for almost 1 hour (Y)

Paddington Pancakes at Curve (:

Tasty eh? ;)

Went BORDERS (:

Then, went back with mun (:

Supposed to be go back home,

But then mun's mum ask me to have dinner with them

And mummy can't get back on time

So, had dinner with mun's family at La smthg d:

awesome right? (:

End of the day (:

I must go according to my holiday plan!

So jiayous and bai!

Fantasy

2011-08-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

ni hao ni hao (:

Hello!
Holiday is here * wheeeeee *
hehe (:

Yesterday was annual dinner
Got to control the PA (:
Fun, very fun d:
Playing drum rolls again and again was awesome !

Then then, performance for 2 songs (:
The mic me & mun share no sound at all
So is like being flower pot up there :P
But still good job to all the performers (:

Owh, the Yam seng part!
Staying in the *small house * to yam seng without glass
I gt not enough energy to yammmmm so long with them
So halfway stop d:
And Zhi-Qi took the whole jug to yam seng *hehe*

And I saw FIRE!
When I passed by Zhi-Qi tables
I saw tissue on fire :O
They quickly put it off by using the jug of water
I was stunt when i saw that followed by laughing at them (:

And of course,
annual dinner is like always a camwhoring session for everyone (:
Flashes can be seen all over the place
When the waiters had finish clearing the place
We were still there taking photos d:

Here is some photos (:

Form 4's ( CASEY )

Form 5 senior (:

Form 3's

Form 2 (:

I think he is the only f2 i took photos with

cause i really like appreciate him for helping me out during sports day (:

Overall was quite nice (:

Although my leg was super pain

I just realized standing for more than 5 hours in heels is never a yes :O

Tmrw is mun mun b'day (:

Happy Birthday in advanced, shuminnnn !

Have a sweet sixteen

Wo ai ni ;)

Tmrw GASING HILLS (:

And celebrate mun's bday!

Happy Holidays everyone!

xia ci zai jian o (:

Gummy Bears (:

2011-08-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hello hello!
Ignore my last post (:

Watched The fox and the hound this afternoon
heeee (:
Gonna use my way of speaking with AMA now (:

hai shi cartoon hao ^^

sui ran you yi dian dian kong bu

but hai shi hen hao kan (:

gou gou jiao Copper

na ge fox jiao erm, Tod (:

liang ge hao peng you, ke ai dao si

heeheee

ran hou ran hou,

ta men chao jia ):

but then zui hou hai shi bian hui hao peng you

happy ending!

suo yi hen hao kan :D

bububu (:

jin tian du liao liang ge storybooks :D

AMA yi ding mei you kan dao wo xie zhe ge

bu guo wo you sheng bing liao ):

bu xi huannnnn!

eeeeeeee (:

wo jin tian hen lan duo xie liao

suo yi erm erm

xiao r sun dao ci yi you la!

blackyyy <3

bai bai!

p/s: dui bu qi ah (: wo de alien words. hehe

In This Song

2011-08-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

Can I choose to leave everything now?
I never feel I got any support from you all
I am doing for the sake of doing it
I am doing it cause I am asked to do it
How awesome!

I don't mind doing it although I am not the committee
But I need supports and help
I knew most of you are busy,
I don't mind doing a little bit more
But please don't give me cold response

I don't understand why am I doing all these things
Making myself busy for no reason
And when the thing is almost done
I got no response and
If there is response it will be a negative response

I don't want to get furious
Cause I know i can do horrible things that people will never expect
I don't want to burst into tears again
For something that is not worth for me to do it

Now, I am not going to keep working on it
Not worth for it (:
If you said I am irresponsible
I'll say You forced me to !
I might seems to be losing my temper
But I am not!
I am just want to tell you all by actions
" I AM NOT YOUR PUPPET, I AM A HUMAN WHO HAVE A LIFE ! "

I have to stop the disappointed and furious emotion to flow in my mind
I got to be cheerful all the time and live a life that I am who I am
I hope I can (:

And I am really in love with bloggie
I always felt better after spilling my emotions here (:
With loves , blacky <3
bai .

Daydreamer

2011-08-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

Whoops!

Slip into bloggie again

Hehe! Here I am again :D

Monday monday

heeeeee

I was actually trying to find out what crap did pn lee said today

Random much ehh (:

Music class is really a horror

Teacher postponed exam again ):
Means need to maintain both studies and music next year
dislike dislike ! *BOO*

If you see me playing with my fingers
Ahemmm, just keep quiet (:
Just playing around with it
So don't give me a " what are you doing" look
teehee (:

And I wanted to start my revision
but too many things are coming up ):
trips, banners and music teacher giving tons of transposition
Owh my gawd !
I really hope this will be the last time in charging the banner (:

August is going to end
means mun mun b'day is around the corner!
and September is coming d:
iggy bubu (:

Stop crapping
and back to work (:
Hwaiting ^^

Runaway (:

2011-08-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

Hello bloggie (:
Bye mosquitoes!

Bad mosquitoes
BAD BAD BAD!
Sting on my face and toes -.-
How smart eh * blek*

Better don't let me see you
I will kill everyone of you
If not i will die cause of insufficient blood
Boo you! x(

Then today do segak again -.-
This is the 4th times already
Last 3 years did once a year
This year did four times
I wonder what is the problem with her -.-
*skip*

I knew that i don't talk much
Except for people who are quite close to me
I seldom start a conversation
Listen more than speak
This is me (:

If I don't start a conversation
doesn't mean I hate you
doesn't mean I ignore you
So, bear with me (:

Besides, i knew that I don reply all of the msg
It is either no need to reply
don know how to reply or reach dateline (:
As easy as this

Again, please bear with me (:
Cause it doesn't mean that i got annoyed or whatsoever

I am really speechless with the affair happened recently
Not going to mention what and why
Cause it will make me put -.- all the way
But still PLEASE bear with me (:

Tomorrow is holiday :D
I bet mummy is going to pull me out
Gor gor envies me again :P
Erm erm..
Happy Holidays ;)

Bai bai !

Inheritance

2011-08-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

bubulala (:
Getting better. hehe

Well,
Went for course this morning
It was quite bored
Everything seems to be very familiar
and yet they are repeating it (:

Went for secretary department
That was really bored
And we were said that we have got up to a pirate ship * hehe*
But still do I really have those secretary looks?

Saw AMA there (:
Same group for the games too (:
actually I was supposed to be in 9
But someone just exchange with me
How lucky ;)

Baby rach forgot to bring my homework ):
She was trying to figure out the korean words on my shirt
Super cute eh (:

Owh ya!
Taylor's Lakeside is really nice :D

Got to take exam on Nov
And the passing marks is really insane
Teacher said 80% candidates failed :O
If I failed, mummy is going to kill me
cause the fees is like loan shark

Got to buck up now (:
Jobs are coming up recently
Trips, dinner, Interview, exams, etc
Wish me luck (:

Tata (:

Forget and Be Nice (:

2011-08-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

Wheee~

Went to school today (:

Felt much more better than yesterday

But kept short of breath ):

And after eating the medicine

Made me so sleepy

Actually wanted to said something

about the Famine 30 (:

During the 30 hours

I can't really feel the starving *hehe*

I just felt cold

Indeed learn quite a lot of things

and made friends too (:

And i really want to show my gratitude

towards all committees and volunteers there (:

You all have been very sacrificing

Donating me jackets although you guys felt cold

Giving me many sleeping bags while you guys sleep on the table

Asking me whether am I still okay whenever I woke up in the midnight

You all are really awesome :")

A very big thank you to all of you :D

To everyone out there (:

Thank you for being concern

I know that I seems very weak but i am not d:

Indeed please don't exaggerate

I will still love myself and love everyone :D

Daddy & mummy (:

Sorry for making both of you worried

I will TRY to drink as much water as i can *cross fingers*

I am always grateful to have both of you <3

Lastly,

I got to go and finish my physics workbook

And I'll breath properly (:

Tata~

Toddler says

2011-08-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

Yuck!
Worst taste I ever had ):

Light yellow liquid
artificial yellow
Looks nice
But is taste VERY VERY BAD!

Yesterday,
Mummy forced me to eat medicine ):
Today,
I was forced to see doctor ):
BOO!

I don't mean I am getting better
but still i don have fever already
So I don't want to see doctor ):
Jacket and water will be fine already

Cough like mad
sneeze till insane
cold till die
:D

To the girl at the dispensary:
I am sure I am form4 okay -.-
You don't have to ask me so many times about that ):

And still
I don't want doctor and medicine ):

Bye bye (:

可惜不是你 (:

2011-08-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

日记簿老了
部落格变成了我倾诉的对象(:

打着讲稿
却毫无头绪
头脑一片空白
不知该写什么

虽然有佩佩讲故事
但隐藏在心里的心事却涌上心头
就算咳得头昏脑胀
却始终挥不掉那种感觉

最近，
总觉得自己跟不上你们的脚步了
你们的话题我总是在一旁听
越听越感到那距离越远

看见你们
也不想走在一起
我对那种冷落，孤单的感觉
觉得很恐怖

我宁愿啃书
也不想坐在那听你们的谈话
因为我怕我不够坚强
不够争气

幸亏还有其他人
可以成为我谈话的好对象
幸亏也还有许多更重要的事让我去做
不然我一定会胡思乱想

我不知这段距离会维持多久
可能会好转
可能会恶化
或许也只是我的错觉
但这段距离对我来说太恐怖了

可能明天会更好
我期望，也祈祷着(:

Wait for me (:

2011-08-03T16:58:00.000+08:00

Miserable

Makes my day (:

Woke up with an unexpected temperature

But still I went to school d:

Kind of regret and kind of not (:

But i saw many stars during the assembly

And i was hoping the assembly ends as soon as possible (:

For the whole day

Headache, fever, coughing & sneezing

How "nice" (:

Why do I just fall sick without any signals & reasons?

And yet at the wrong time -.-

I still got the forum tmrw

Famine 30 this week

I hope I can still survive (:

I ain't going to eat any medicine any how d:

I can't have my day sleeping all the time

So no medicine for me. Hehe

I will get well very soon :D

I mean I hope. hehe

tata~

Blek d:

2011-08-02T14:56:00.001+08:00

This is going to be a awesome yet childish post d:

AMA showed me LABU and bunny just now (:

Both decided to post on bloggie. hehe

LABU will come first (:

I know that the image is quite blur

ignore it okay? (:

And then her comes BUNNY (:

Actually took AMA photos d:

But if i post it here i will be dumped forever ):

And then AMA de gou gou (:

hehe (:

Lastly, I don know is poodle or sheep :P

heeee (:

Tata (:

Gotta go and rest my overheated body :(

P/s: If you can't bear with the blurness

I am very sorry (:

Just doing something fun with AMA

No purposes for posting this (:

Vivacious (:

2011-08-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

Pretty please
Stop sneezing ):
I don't want runny nose ):
Go away mucus!
I don't want you to come near me!

Stop having a campfire in my throat
It hurts ):
No more stars in my head please ):
Let me finish my job
And I'll go and sleep (:

I will treat you well (:
Nights ;)

Έχω βαρεθεί d:

2011-08-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

I am boreeedddd
Very very bored ):

I am alone in house since I woke up
and gor gor is not even back yet ):
I want someone to talk with me!

I have been doing 2 things till now
Homeworks and listen to songs
I am boreeedddd ):

I still got one karangan to write -.-
And a whole book of counter melody to do
But I have no passion to do it now
I need someone to talk to (:

AMA went to do her pp things
RMAMA dumped me and went to sleep
Gor gor is still in his college
And some of them have just disappeared ):
Sobieeeee ):

LOA : I AM NOT BORED :D
dui liao dui liao!
Yesterday night super awesome (:

Showed AMA the little doggy, lamb n mickey :D
But she super naughty
She saved the picture *BOO*
and AMA owe me LABUUUU (:
bunny. bobby , labu & blackyyy <3

After that showed RMAMA a pig d:
Looks like her * hehe*
got the blur blur look d:
But she say if want scold her then scold the pig-.-
No way for me to do that d:

Then went to gor gor room and disturb him again d:
Long time din do that ad :")
If still same school jiu hao
during exam can study together till super late (:

Still thinking of a name for AMA's gou gou ;)
I need some inspiration
AMA's suggestion all not nice one d:
heheee

Finish crapping already (:
So uhm buh bye!

Unglaublich Genial

2011-07-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

It's 12 in the midnight

And I am here (:

The reason is I am too hyper since yesterday

very very hyper :D

Could not attend musical night

planned to finish my music stuff

but ended up having a super awesome spamming

with Michelle (:

Yet, memories flooded in my mind again

Days studying hard together

Moment that we being crazy together (":

Now a new legacy has started

Friends being busy with curriculum

The Form 5's and 3's busy with academic

It is like a Ferris wheel,

Goes round by round (:

Too many things happened in this few month

And I hope it will come to an end as soon as possible

In order to let me take a breath (:

And there is another thing bugging me ):

Take exam or not?

I don't want to take the risk ):

Is either November or next June

And I am still not prepared yet ):

I don't want to fail ):

Motif , improvisation and sight reading

Was like Oh my God

Take or not? :(

Ehehe (:

Next week going to Famine 30

Hope to have a great experience (:

And erm

I also hope mummy allow me to go the activity on Sunday :D

Owh ya!

Next Monday is holidayyyy !

Gor gor envies me for this d:

Must plan my day properly (:

I got new aim! ehehe

I will try to achieve that :D

The seventh month has started :O

So uhm I want to sleep now!

Bye everyone!

* Bruno Mars - Today my life begins *

The fray ;)

2011-07-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

I might sound crazy (:
I might seems abnormal
But I know what I really want :)

I might lose some respect or greetings
I might be a nobody
But I don't mind (:

I swear I have no regrets on the decision made by myself (:
And I am now carefree * Whee! *

Bye bye awesome readers :D

Music Speaks (:

2011-07-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

bibobibo (:
Is Wednesday already :(
I don't like days after Wednesday every week
Cause is too busy for me (:

Nowadays kept rushing for tuition homeworks
Missed too many lesson and got to catch up
and is not more than 2 months to exam
I didn't realise this until teacher mentioned it :"(

Nowadays kept talking with mummy (:
Listening her telling me all the childhood stories
Seeing her flipping through the photo albums <3

I want to become a small kid again :D
No one is going to scold me for doing nothing
I can do anything I like * hehe*

Recently being very deep in thoughts
Always thinking about many things (:
I might seems to be emoing but I am not :D

I really missed Kai Song :P
Especially having a non-physical chat with her
I miss her annoying sounds and actions
Although I used to give her a hatred look when she disturbed me :")

This is a total random post d:
Off to meet with motif :)

Jia you Eshennnn! You will never walk alone <3

Sharing is caring :D

2011-07-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

Always smile and silence at the right time (:

Cute :D

Smile (:

Tumblr quotes are awesome (:

(:

2011-07-20T19:53:00.001+08:00

bubu (:
I just feel like coming here
I don know why (:
This will be a random post d:

Yesterday was super duper busy
Stayed back then tuition and then tuition ):
I feel like stop 2 of my tuitions now
One of it mummy said depends on
Another one I am still considering d:

I don't know what will be the consequences for not going
I can't said that I didn't learn anything
But I was very tired on Friday
since Thursday is always the busy day for me

I am trying very hard to keep myself awake
Doing things to distract me
Listening to people gossips when writing karangan d:
But all I felt was I am not concentrating d:
*skip*

My brain is again flooded with bad memories
Whenever a few people reminded me about the same thing
Those memories will be popping out
It's a cycle that I really hate it ):

To be clear to friends, seniors and teachers who are concern to me (:
I really thank you all for approving my ability
Telling me that I was the good ones
And telling me to gambateh
I appreciated it (:

But please stop asking me the same questions
telling me that some other people felt so and so
and of course not to ask me to be happy -.-

I am very happy for who I am now (:
I don't care about it
cause i had a very disgusted memories on those things
I do not want to have another try anymore
So, I am satisfied now (:

Owh, 4S1 (:
I really got fed up with some of you ):
I do not want to feel that
But I just got that feeling

I know that you all like to make fun of teachers
But still there is a limit (:
Taking things without permission
Making teachers to be angry everyday to the whole class

This is really BAD ):
We all want to have a nice and cheerful environment to study (:
And not teachers came in and scold us everyday
If we all want to make our class proud and famous
Let it be famous in a positive way instead of negative (:

Sometimes is not that I can't see or hear anything
I just don't want to know it
Please don't ever make me feel awkward (:
I want to be a normal student who learn in class
not against anyone of you (:

I really missed 2/3A5
Even though not everyone of us being very close to each other
At least we seems to like a big family
Have fun, have punishments together (:
I really hope that S1 will be another A5
cause i really missed all the memories we had :")

Whatever it is
I am hungrryyyyy :P
Nowadays feel super hungry *hehe*

Delala (:
Got to stop crapping here d:
Vale * goodbye*
*wave*
:D

Gino =D

2011-07-17T19:48:00.001+08:00

Whee!
Had a very superb friday and saturday (:

Flash back for friday first :D
Not in class for whole day again
Went to interact with the Tanjung Sepat prefects (:

Scribbling on Jordan's minit mesyarat book d:
wrote something very very funny!
Wan and zhao drawing pigs,
writing funny comments
and made us laugh like mad :D

Wan also got addicted to

" grandmother likes *something*

grandmother doen't like *something*

Does grandmother like *something* "

I still can't get the logic in it :O

Sharing experiences with them
made me feel very lucky to be in CHS (:

Stayed back for YE production
and i skipped tuition d:
talking craps in SLAD meeting.
Went to production super late *hehe*

And beans again *sighs*
luckily there is people around for me to talk with
if not i will really got frustrated d:

reached home at about 9.30.
mummy was there nagging me for staying back so late in school :P

SATURDAY SATURDAY :D
what a hectic day!

reached empire at the nine something
setting up booth for grand sale (:
walked around all the booth for 4th time with different shirts d:
Super proud of our own product!

Persuading customers to buy something was really hard
I have to repeat many times the same phrases to different customers
and 1 or 2 of them might be buying :O
But some of them got pawned by some of the achievers d:

went to mun's house for a rest (:
and Gino doesn't bark at me anymore :D

Next stop: Bon Odori
The crowd there was really scary
and stuffs sold there was very expensive :O
Saw many friends there (:

It was more like picnicking there (:
And once again Hao Lu made me did something crazy again -.-
kind of fake dancing at the end with all the crowds
and the "roller coaster" by zhi jie
made me said the most sorry ever -.-

Went back to school waiting for mun's bro
The darkness in school made me thought of 2009 Teachers Day
Made a Oscar which looked more like a Christmas Tree
Took nap on the floor with seniors *ouch*

Overnight at mun's house (:
Having girls' talk while doing homework (:
Finished most of the homework there *yay*

Stayed up till 4 :P
Felt super sleepy and left Eshen and mun.

Sunday was very miserable :(
Woke up with sore throat
Went home and got tortured by my stomach -.-
Fever and headache
" Awesome !"

And i haven't collected my donations yet ):
Did not work on it for too long
and thursday is the dateline. :"(

And RMAMA dumped me :(
nevermind, she will bring me story :P

Ciao~

Over the days (:

2011-07-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

bibobibo d:

Yesterday was report card day

Daddy came at 8 something and waited me till 9 something

sorryyyyy (:

Teacher kept on telling daddy that i am not weak -.-

She told him i should make everything up one more grade

Most epic thing is that

daddy helped her to complete a sentence by a word MALAS ):

Luckily she said i was not d:

Daddy,

U promise me not to say anything

bad or good , you will just listen

U broke ur promise d:

But nxt year you might not have chance to take from me ad *hehe*

Mummy said she wants to see how bad the teacher is :D

Well...

I needed one mark to achieve 80 ):

Actually I improved in most of the subjects

just Phy and Bio drop like don know what d:

For teacher's comment

I was thinking who will not love to have better grades?

Blah d:

Yesterday was the first time i stayed so late on report card day

Seeing all the face expressions of students and parents

is super fun d:

I even heard one of the parents saying

" I very scare. Is ur class teacher fierce ?"

HAHA. Super super funny :D

Stayed back for ye production.

Is quite boring though ):

But grand sales is coming up

Quite excited for it :D

And here is a letter for my dear stomach (:

Dear stomach (:

I know you have been working for 15+ years. But since the 10th year, you are giving me so much problems. Unbearable problems ): I don want stomache! Why are you torturing me? I am good enough to you. I don't eat spicy, bitter and sour things. I did not even like to eat those internal organs of the animals! Treat me well , pretty please (:

Yours faithfully,

Kai Qian

Ciao~

Not my day

2011-07-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

Well...
Today was totally a disaster
Woke up earlier than usual
but ended up late for school -.-

First time getting late was totally embarrassing ):
Standing out there was not really weird
But asking me to sit down with my blazers on
and sitting on the road was totally a NO!

Well...
Uncle car broke down -.-
No one is awake in my house
So have to follow my friends to school

But if people did not give me that kind of look
and gave me a smile after i nod after their
" are you late ? " questions
I won't feel so bad right?

Sawing the juniors,seniors and teachers looking at you
asking you the same questions
and at the same time did not hear the explanation ):
I feel super bad!
And some of my friends even asked what happen to me
cause i did not raise that flag -.-

I wanted to
But i were not allowed to in -.-
Even i wanted to stand up
Is also a no ):

Fine...
Another time i got late because of my dear transporter
I won't know what i will do to him d:

Indeed,
I got scolded by several people for no reason ):
I knew you were all in a bad mood
So am I.
So don't spilt all your anger to me
this is super unfair ):

And I kept falling down today -.-
I don know what is my problem
Twice from stairs, once was when walking
How weird :O
And several times were almost fall down -.-
This is very very abnormal!

The haze is back ):
I am going to let mummy & daddy nag again d:
I will drink as much as i can
I promise (:
And daddy please don do what you did last year this wednesday again d:
Thank you!

Today is going to end :D
Tmrw will be a good good day * whee*
Ciao~

2011-07-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

He found me :D

So , I am back!

(: d: =D ;) c; ^^ :D xP

Out of control

2011-07-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

I can't fake a smile anymore
Not even a small positive curve on my face

The angel & demon is fighting in my mind today
I can't bear with it
Every words seems to like a sword to me
No matter a joke or whatever
It is the same for me

I am totally out of control
I always said that it will be a nice day tmrw
But it will never be ):

My tear glands is too hardworking
And totally out of control
I am trying very hard to concentrate on other things
But i failed !

I don't feel like go to school
Cause something will made me cry eventually
I have been shedding my tears since the last 2 period till now
I don't know what is my problem ):

To you who are concerned to me
I really wanted to thank you
Giving me emblazonment , appreciation
And letting me know that I am capable and so on
And a hug from you is really nice (:

I knew that what you told me was true
You said that is was a waste
You don't understand why
I don't understand why too...
But I don't mind (:

But telling you that i don't mind
and you told me that
I can't said i don't mind
cause I am capable and you felt pity for me

You are telling me the truth
which is the differences in it
and since that the angel n demon is fighting in my head
I can't concentrate on anything
I really broke down
I never knew what I am doing now ):

A phrase " good for you" and a word " thank you"
Have been spinning in my head
is like one demon and angel
trying to kick their opponent out

There is too many things happen at once
I don't want anyone to ask me the same few questions anymore
I am tired of it
Why can't I be the one to have a simple life?

I really need distractions
I need someone to pull me out from this swirl
I can't have a life like this ):

And to you who have eyesight problem
GET A LIFE !

I have to go to calm myself down
And if you felt I am totally out of control
Leave here and don't get in my swirl (:

Penguinssss :D

2011-07-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

It's a new day (:
I was actually not thinking about yesterday rubbish anymore

BUT
mummy mention it again -.-
cause she wanna told daddy what happen to me ):

Of course daddy gave me lecture which is not a lecture
those are almost similiar with what mummy told me (:
I mean i appreciate them for telling me all these things
But I just can't stop them from mentioning that

Whenever i said i don wan to do this or that
they will start saying
Since you can say no to us why cant you do that to ur teacher too ):
And the things go round and round again
Daddy even said I am such a smart and tricky people
I should know how to take a time to rest -.-

I know how, but I can't ):
The moment I left someone wil be complaining me
and the next thing i get will be another scolding -.-

I don care
I want make this issue to come to an end
* CASE CLOSE * (:

I need to get a counsellor i guess d:
I kept feeling that i was stupid and useless today -.-
How abnormal I am

I saw gor gor typing vitae and achievements
and he helped me to count what can I write
And what he did was
" U gt no choir, no NSW competition, no this no that -.- "

whatever
I felt useless ):
If i could write primary achievements
I will not have the feeling d:

GAHH
I told myself not to care but why do I care?
My mind is totally out of control
really gone wild :O

* skip *

I got a few thing i wanted to do :D
1. Play pirates of carribean them song :)
2. Go for a run *whee*
3. Hope my leg get well soon (:
4. I want to read storybooks!
5. Discover my style for motif d:
6. Do some sports thingy
7. Find a place to keep all my softtoys d:
8. Acheive merit or distinction in next music exam
9. Have more and more story from RP d:
10. To determine my way and have fun :D

Btw
Should I go for marching this wednesday ?
If I go that cycle will be back again -.-
And my leg won't recover ):
If i din go
I don know what will happen
But I sense something bad -.-

Delala (:
bubulala !
bibobibo :D

Live long (:

2011-07-02T21:22:00.002+08:00

There is really too many things in my mind
after today events
I don know why (:

Mummy never said anything
whenever I got back from anywhere
and got hurt or felt tired (:
But this time she said something really inspired me

CHS is like a society
but a smaller ones (:
Everyone would not get everybodys' support

If someone don't appreciate you
Don border bout them
Is like when you grow up to work in a company
if A did not appreciate you
chg to B and so on (:

She asked me what have I got today?
I said nothing but got sick d;
She asked me why did I do so hard for?
I said I was forced to :/

I never have an interest in anything since I am a kid
I do not have a clear direction to go with
My interest in almost everything will always fade out after some time
And I never really have any succeed & achievement till now
I am way behind gor gor ):

Mummy told me
We don't have to gain any benefits or anything from whatever we do
Although may not achieve success in the end
but it is still worth when we learn something from it

She said that no one will still appreciate me
although i do till cry, do till sick
* I din't know she knew i cry -.- *
even though i don't expect any appreciation
I got nothing to say.

And again she asked me
Is it worth for me to sacrifice for today event?
I think she felt that i was stupid to do that

I felt very stupid too
VERY VERY STUPID
I never think logically
I always take up all the responsibility that people doesn't want to do it
How stupid I am

I am very confused now
I asked her should i quit
seriously should i?

I am not happy to be in there
I feel very stress all the time
I never feel i have got any freedom in it
I did all that just because of i was asked to
How long have I been manipulate like a robot?

There is still one more year to be in high school
People said high school life will be the most precious moment
High school life will make you smile all the time
but mine was not at all
maybe just some of it

I am now at a crossroad
without lights without direction
I need someone to help me out (:

I really have to stop thinking about this
I need to focus
focus on my studies (:

I want those people to know that
I am not born to be manipulated by them
not to be like a slave to them
I am a person who can walk by myself
I want to show them by action
by any means
I wish I can (:

Freedom is mine
My life will be drawn and coloured by myself
maybe their life is like a jail
dull and nothing
I don care d:
Mine will be as colourful as rainbow and bubbles (:

New day , new start , new life (:
Make their specs drop!
I can do it :D
BOO YA!

Olyckliga Stunder

2011-07-02T15:52:00.002+08:00

I got to write out everything here

In order to let my brain stop thinking bout all the "her" again (:

Not going to mention who is she

But i really really hope I wont see her again

I wonder when will she retire

I don't want to see her anymore!

To you:

You are not born to scold me

And I am not born to let you scold!

I know I did not do really well

But can you be more considerate?

Imagine I am the only person to walk around the whole school compound

without anyone helping me...

I did not get the co-operations from them

I did not get to make myself in so many place at once

What do you expect?

I am not the only person in charge

The other two person in charge were there

Why do you have to ask someone to inform me to meet you

And all I get is scolded by you !

They do not want to co-operate

What can I do?

Scolding them will make them alme even more

Telling them what is the right thing to do

and they did not want to listen

What can I do?

I have been walking for so many rounds outside de school compound

Walking for don know how many rounds in the school compound

Can't I stand at a shady place to rest for 3 minutes?

I am a human not a robot or machine.

I am not the head of the whole project

No one is... We are just a team

Why do I always be the one scolded by you?

I am trying my best

Can't you see?

To the other 3 of you :

I heard what you all said (:

every words, every sentences

I just pretend that i din't hear anything

But I am not deaf!

U don't have to give comment

I am not capable

I am not socialise

I am nothing

I KNOW!

U don't have to hit me with things " accidentally"

U don't have to repeat all the words

I know what it is...

Nevermind...

I will not see you 3 anymore next year.

You 3 will be out of my sight (:

Well..

It is not a good day after all..

My mind has been manipulate

by the unhappy things happened years ago ):

That was the year I shed the most tears

The year I lost all my confidence in everything

I know I have been very emotional today

I can't stop shedding my tears whenever I thought about it

Those were too hard for me to handle

And I am to fragile to handle them with care

I need to have a rest

My last injured part was pain again ):

my foot was really out of control now

Sorry that I have to skip my class today ):

To all the people who help me out & the cooperative person out there

Thank you (:

You guys are really great!

To those people who are very selfish and irresponsible

"Good luck" in your whole life (:

My mind is almost empty now (:

Got to go sleep now d:
If not gor gor will be teasing me looking like a panda
Hmph d;
Ciao~

2011-06-28T14:48:00.001+08:00

突然觉得自己很笨 (:
那种许久未光顾的感觉回来了...
明知道到最后还得由自己动手
却还期待有奇迹的出现。

Sometimes it is not the matter that
I do not want to take my responsibility
Is a teamwork... isn't it ?
It is now the very last minute
u guys were asking who will do this n that
after the question there is two words

" I'm busy :) "

i do not want to comment anymore

i knew it will be like that

U all know that if work is not done

I will do it...

Cause I will be the one worried

I should bear with it

Few more days to go

I will have the freedom & rest that I want it desperately(:

Dream high , fly high ;)

There will always be a rainbow after the thunder storm (:

I believe in myself that I can!

bubu and lala :D

BOMB（：

2011-06-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeeeeee (:

RMAMA birthday!

Pei Pei a.k.a The RP :D

See (:

I decolourise u from black to PINK :D

I bet u will be seeing this tmrw from somewhere (:

You know what this mean (:

Our symbol (:

We have got Rachael, AMA, Kai Song. Angeline and so on (:

You again (:

Black tubby :P

Nice header u help me to do (:

Thank you!

I remember the days we were once classmates (:

inventing our words and have fun

Even though we are not classmates now

But we always find some way to keep in touch ;)

We share what happened to us (:

We never tell anyone what we have promise not to say

We never have fear to tell each other anything

Because we both take the words and

You are carefree enough for me to split my emotions on you (:

Thank you RMAMA (:

Wish you a very blessed birthday (:

Hope you will always have the luck with you

Last but not least (:

Remember provide me story n SM :D

Lead a happy life !

All the best ;)

From: RC

Rchild

(: Rtrainer

Ehehe (:

2011-06-15T17:35:00.000+08:00

Hehe (: Went to FedEx workshop yesterday

almost got frozen in it

Indeed it was quite fun & I learn quite a lot (:

Presentations by becca was very awesome!

Is good to have English debater MD ;)

Ant the food there was ):

Didn't finish the food d:

Too full and the food was very salty for me

Food is not the topic so SKIP

Well...

I can't just bear with him!

Too annoying -.-

Got to face with his annoying face for 2 more months

I know time flies :D

Today got 7 periods of relief

I don know what is the point going to school (:

Results again

Bio drop 23 marks

A very big thank you to the teacher who came out

the bio paper 3 diagram (:

Congrats to her too that she din even know how to label the diagram well

Teacher said it was a trap -.-

BOO! Not a trap but a mistake!

it costs me 17 marks (: THANK YOU AH!

Well.. careless mistakes were reduced :D

quite happy with it (:

Got 2 B for the first time ):

nevermind (: first time n last time okie ?

Today keep laughing during relief period

really gone mad (:

Playing restricted word with a bunch of friends

But i do not know why i keep laughing

and laugh till cry d:

Heard quite a lot of weird marking

Is like people good in english get lower marks in it

and got better marks in chinese

how weird -.-

Ain't going to said too much bout it

I will never know who will see it (:

I guess i have got a good day (:

Ciao~

Ferris wheel (:

2011-06-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

Aloha (:School reopens today

And I am getting mad d:

Getting back all the results

Is like having a roller coaster ride

And sometimes is like giving a sudden heart attack :O

Today i was rather abnormal

I did not hide myself from the others

I do not know why

I think I am getting mad (:

To be honest

Results dropped a lot

I found that

the more effort i put, the worse i did

It is not that I am being not optimistic

But this is a fact for the situation I am facing now

For example (:

I knew i did not understand physics

I spent zillion of times to study it

ended up getting a B and dropped almost 13 marks -.-

As a matter of fact

Standard isn't the same

But this was really a drastic drop

For the sake of it

I will take this as the first time and I hope it will be the last time (:

I have to try to love it <3

If i could solve my science without tuition in lower sec

I believe I could do that to physics to (:

Only if I put much more effort on it ;)

All these are what i expected

So, I am fine with it (:

I hope I can be as abnormal as I can until I get back all of it d:

I really do not want my depressed expression to appear again

I need a healthy and optimistic thinking life

I have to be a high EQ person (:

This is the only way to stay alive in the society

I hope the trip n sports day will be a successful one (:

I hope it will be a really blessed month for everyone

I knew I could do it if I am willing to do my best (:

tata (:

Freaky

2011-06-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

Get back from YE again (:

the very last day of production during this holiday

It wasn't fun after all d:

As a matter of fact

I made it not fun :D

Doing the QC is really torturing ):

I can't accept those ugly looking stuffs

I felt like rejecting all but I can't

Looking at all the green and red beans all the day!

I am getting annoyed

Some of them just simply do it

leaving some rubbish for us to clear :(

Using pliers to take off all n redo again everything

wasn't fun at all

and the main problem is the GLUE!

We don't have to conserve money on glues

which has a very low quality

to buy some nonsense hats!

Whatever it is

My hand was hurt again -.-

I thought that was glue

But it was my skin :O

Tear it and I felt a sudden pain

How smart I am :)

There is still a long way to go

I really hope next production won't be another nightmare for me

Now i really got fobia with the red & green beans

Last time was after using mouth to use a peg to pick up them

now is facing them almost 5 hours per day -.-

Some good news is that

gor gor got back his piano exam's result

and it was superb (:

Congratulations!

Ciao~

Have a nice day (:

Craziness d:

2011-06-08T19:57:00.001+08:00

Went Y.E again (:
sticking the beans on the bean bags wasn't easy after all
Glue was sticking all over my hands instead of sticking on the proper place
And the thread bowl :/
That starch was YUCKY!
it still haven dry yet till now.. *FAILED*

I don like having "fun" with the glues
I spent more time on clearing off them from my hand d:
it made my hands looks like an old people hand o:
Tmrw is going to be a glue fight again *sigh*

Pencil case production was nicer (:
the sound of the sewing machine sounds
it is going to break down O:
But still it is the one and only one machine we left
So i still having fun sewing the pencil cases (:

Yesterday went for tuition
and again i was alone ):
They dumped me and went for vacation
I have to face TWO teachers alone
How scary it was :/
I hope it will never happen again
two times is more than enough (:

Currently reading Mini shopaholic on wattpad ;)
Yet it is a storybook without book d:
mummy scolded me for not practising my music pieces.. *hehe*
I am getting fed up practising the few songs again n again
i get B.O.R.E.D.

School is going to reopen soon ):
tmrw till saturday will be ye n tuitions for me
and left the miserable sunday ):

After the holidays,
it will be loads of nightmares
not to mention it here (:

bububububu ;P
ciao~

(:

2011-06-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

So yesterday was the DUMPLING DAY (:

Did not get to visit grandma in Kedah this year ):

I like to celebrate any of the festivals with her (:

Preparing the ingredients, making dumplings.

Rolling flours, learn some traditional ingredients....

on the meanwhile, mummy telling our childhood stories..

Grandma telling the life in their mid age, telling us mummy childhood stories (:

I love that feeling !

Happy Belated Dumplings Day (:

端午节快乐！

Broken strings (:

2011-06-05T17:58:00.002+08:00

Recently keep updating my bloggie (:
This shows how lifeless I am :P

This post will be specially for the special ones (:

C.A.S.E.Y (;

Ang Eshen (:

See (: Cute and prettyyyyy ;)

classmates from form 1 to 3 :")

I miss the moment to be same class with her...

I just feel nicer and different to be classmates.

Friendly and happy go lucky.

Lee Hom and Mayday made her life rocks :D

Although I don't oftenly tell her my problems

cause i don't want her to get worried

But she is one of the best medicine for me ;)

Soon Yushu (:

I miss the old you (:

You are always that happy and optimistic..

You are the one who somehow counsel me :")

Your singing inspire most of us :D

How I wish you can smile more like last time (:

You look prettier when you smile!

We share, We help each other ;)

Follow your dreams and

Never give up <3

Erister Cheah

MAYDAY MAYDAY ^^

Another optimistic girl (:

Always straight forward when talk.

Sensitive to what happen to the people around

You always ask me not to shed my tear that easily.

But i knew i failed to do so :(

I am trying to but still that emotional

You have bigger dream than all of us (:

and I wish you all the best!

Yu Sue Mun

mun mun (:

We knew each other since std 5

but seldom talk until form 1.

Everything starts from the word " SMILE "

You are always the listener.

You listen and you find out the solution (:

You have a very high IQ n EQ

I feel comfortable to either talk or solving problems with you ;)

Achieve to the best may quote you (:

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"A friend is one who walks in when others walk out"

-Walter Winchell

I appreciated to have you all as my friends (:

We may not know what will happen in the future

But i hope our friendship will like

windows that will never shatter, sea that will never dry (:

with loves,

Kai Qian (:

We do not remember day , we remember moments (:

2011-06-04T18:03:00.003+08:00

For some life lasts a short while , but memories last forever :")

This will be a random one (:

I was sitting on my bed,

looking at the table beside me

I realize i put the photos there

I took a glance at them...

look through everyone n indeed me myself (:

Memories was like lightning flashing through

Those were the days we were once classmates

We studied ,

We joked,

We made fun,

We even bickered for some tiny little things (:

Owh right!

I was trying to recall what did i do on the first day

which made Kah Hoe said that i m scary

which is so not true :P

Form 2 was quite a tough year

that was the year i had to know most of the strangers in the class

Somehow, i made it through (:

I still remembered when teacher made me sit with Kai Song a.k.a the retard flamingo :P

I was like WHAT n WHY !

This was due to people keep telling me how bad she was n so on

Although at first i did feel that, but just a little bit

But i do not know whether i was wrong or she has changed

We became two crapping friends.

Although sometimes she will be rather annoying

but still she is the RETARD & GEEK FLAMINGO (:

And somehow i knew Pei Pei n Michelle (:

Both became my RMAMA n AMA after that <3

Pei Pei become the one whom I will always talk to

No matter what (:

She will mot probably the first i go to

cause i feel nice telling her all the things

Michelle (: bubububu

The one I always like to play something childish with :D

Although I did not like her stressing herself during exams

But it was a pleasure having conversations with her (:

this reminded me of the " baby shark "

Rachael (: my korean jiejie

She is the one and only one A5 in my class now

I like the humour n kindness of hers (:

She is smart n sporty :D

Eshen n Isabel (:

I remembered this 2 cute girls started watching football (:

LIVERPOOL ROCKS ! LOL

We did NIE together in both form 2 n 3

last year was fun (:

sitting in the tarbucks, facing the laptop

going to the bookshops n finding magazines (:

Ended up with a word success also with an additional help from zhi-qi (:

And indeed May Xian n Wen Shuen (:

Wen Shuen is always the kind n good girl

She never scold anyone till this year :O

It doesn't matter cause scolding is required in some situation (:

May Xian was also another smarty * hehe*

She is really nice and pretty (:

We started to get some kind of mad whenever with Kai song :D

And the boys too (:

Kah Hoe, Zhi- Qi, Yu Hang, Ken Fui, Chia Zheng n so on (:

They are those who made our lessons fun (:

They made the class always in an active mode

and this is always one of the reason i why i like a5 (:

And the fun part during exams was

seeing the boys throwing erasers fragments (:

But that was only fun during form 2

cause I was sitting at the back looking kai song in the middle of the erasers fragment :P

But after the violent Angeline came in,

I was the victim :"(

AHH! PMR :)

Isabel on my right, Kai Song behind (:

2 Great bullies producing erasers fragments during exams -.-

And threw it to me !

I was alone :( how unfair * sobs*

But still memories ~

Form 2 was a tough year

facing through all sorts of problems

I can only managed through with all the friends cheering me up all the time

studying with them could made me forgot all the problems

although i felt so sorry showing them my moody face :P

Form 3 was the year I felt much more better

The year we are getting closer (:

Once a classmates , always a classmates :')

In seeking heaven we may someday find,

that we have walked through it many times

without knowing..

Until our memories tell us so (:

All the best,

Kai Qian (:

2011-05-30T18:06:00.001+08:00

Hello!
Seems to be a horribly hot evening (:

Well,
Exams ended !
How interesting ;)
Holidays started ! *Whee*

But now i started to get bored
No more aim
No more waking up early in the morning
Everyday wake up
and thinking what to do :O

Despite tuition n more tuitions
and YE production
Seems like i got nothing to do :(

I don wan practicing the same few songs
I don wan to sit in front the computer n finding something to do

I need storybooks :)
and indeed STORY!
maybe some new aim ?
But i got none of it :'(

Just back from YE production (:
Full of sastification i guess
Did 2 super ugly eggs
ended up with glue all over the hands
It's super sticky
I don like it * BOO*

The fun part was sewing the guni sack :D
I used to hate sewing things during form 1 n 2
Cause whatever we are doing, the teacher will complaint
and said REDO :(
but now i found it FUN :D

Going to school almost everyday
It isn't sounds like a holiday
I remember i havve got 周记 to do
But dislike the theme given
I donwan to recall backs the exams :(
BOO

Happy hoildays everyone (:
ciao~

2011-04-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

Teehee :)
Now,
Why don't you just call everyone who did not attend that so call activity
as TRAITOR ;)

You LOSER!
Now you were dumped by the others
and I felt sad for you :)

You humiliated n lampooned me
So now , YOU have to
Face the music :)

Your words will not just vanished in my mind
It might be some kind of humiliation for me
even after several years :(

Loser :)

GET OUT OF MY SIGHT

GET LOST !

Ciao~

2011-04-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

When someone felt depressed
People will left them alone
ignoring them ;)

This is call the fact :)

2011-04-12T16:03:00.002+08:00

you called me a traitor

What about you?

I made this decision after considering so long

I wanted to join u all too

Is just that stay in class will be better at that time

There are more important things for me to do

I felt sorry for not going

But i was forced to choose to stay in school

Going there can gain experience too

why should i want to miss the opportunity

if i am not forced to?

U do not have to lampoon and humiliate me

Not to take that several bags n showed off to me

Not to say that word TRAITOR to me.

I felt so humiliated

i felt that i am always alone

I don like that feeling :(

Now that i can't stop sheding my tears

The moment i thought of the word u said

I will feel so humiliated and guilty

You are too mean

You never thought of what u have done wrong too

I do not want to mention it out

doesn't mean that i don't see the problem
it is because that isn't a big matter

But you,

you like to do things at the eleventh hour

You will only be serious at the very last moment

If i am a traitor for not going for one activities

then you are worse than me

I should forget about this

and go to sleep (:

2011-04-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

After one month...
I am here again :)
Sorry my dear bloggie for dumped u for so long :(

Well...
there is too many things in my mind now
i can't express it out even in more than a million words

didn't know since when....
things are not going well :/
I am getting tired of everything
I got frustrated and disappointed with myself
I tried to keep myself smiling all the time
But still i can't :(

I wish i could have time to rest
I wish i could do things i like
I even wish to have time to have a longer conversation with mummy :'(

I dislike those useless unimportant subjects homework and projects bugging me
I dislike people to lie to me
I dislike irresponsible person
And I dislike stress :(

But at least
I still got friends to cheer me up
sometimes,
I felt so sorry
I made them worried
and even made them felt a little bit down

I do really hope things could go well
I do really hope i got enough time to rest
My dear body is started to signalling that it is angry
I donwan to get sick :(

I cross my fingers to pray for a better life and better world :)
Dear leg : Get well soon :)
Dear family n friends : Be happy :)